CHAPTER XXI
Perched on its four stone mushrooms, the little granary
stood two or three feet above the grass of the green close. Beneath it there was a perpetual shade and a
damp growth of long, luxuriant grasses.
Here, in the shadow, in the green dampness, a family of white ducks had
sought shelter from the afternoon sun.
Some stood, preening themselves, some reposed
with their long bellies pressed to the ground, as though the cool grass were
water. Little social noises burst
fitfully forth, and from time to time some pointed tail would execute a
brilliant Lisztian tremolo. Suddenly their jovial repose was
shattered. A prodigious thump shook the
wooden flooring above their heads; the whole granary trembled, little fragments
of dirt and crumbled wood rained down among them. With a loud, continuous quacking the ducks
rushed out from beneath this nameless menace, and did not stay their flight
till they were safely in the farmyard.
'Don't lose
your temper,' Anne was saying. 'Listen!
You've frightened the ducks. Poor dears!
no wonder.' She
was sitting sideways in a low, wooden chair.
Her right elbow rested on the back of the chair and she supported her
cheek on her hand. Her long, slender
body drooped into curves of a lazy grace.
She was smiling, and she looked at Gombauld
through half-closed eyes.
'Damn you!'
Gombauld repeated, and stamped his foot again. He glared at her round the half-finished
portrait on the easel.
'Poor ducks!' Anne repeated.
The sound of their quacking was faint in the distance; it was inaudible.
'Can't you
see you make me lose my time?' he asked.
'I can't work with you dangling about distractingly like this.'
'You'd lose
less time if you stopped talking and stamping your feet and did a little
painting for a change. After all, what
am I dangling about for, except to be painted?'
Gombauld made a noise like a growl. 'You're awful,' he said, with
conviction. 'Why do you ask me to come
and stay here? Why do you tell me you'd like
me to paint your portrait?'
'For the
simple reasons that I like you - at least, when you're in a good temper - and
that I think you're a good painter.'
'For the
simple reason' - Gombauld mimicked her voice - 'that
you want me to make love to you and, when I do, to have the amusement of
running away.'
Anne threw
back her head and laughed. 'So you think
it amuses me to have to evade your advances!
So like a man! If only you knew
how gross and awful and boring men are when they try to make love and you don't
want them to make love! If you could only see yourselves through our eyes!'
Gombauld picked up his palette and brushes and attacked his
canvas with the ardour of irritation. 'I
suppose you'll be saying next that you didn't start the game, that it was I who
made the first advances, and that you were the innocent victim who sat still
and never did anything that could invite or allure me on.'
'So like a
man again!' said Anne. 'It's always the
same old story about the woman tempting the man. The woman lures, fascinates, invites; and man
- noble man, innocent man - falls a victim.
Mr poor Gombauld! Surely you're not going to sing that old song
again. It's so unintelligent, and I
always thought you were a man of sense.'
'Thanks,'
said Gombauld.
'Be a
little objective,' Anne went on. 'Can't
you see that you're simply externalizing your own emotions? That's what you men are always doing; it's so
barbarously naïve. You feel one of your
loose desires for some woman, and because you desire her strongly you
immediately accuse her of luring you on, of deliberately provoking and inviting
the desire. You have the mentality of
savages. You must just as well say that
a plate of strawberries and cream deliberately lures you on to feel
greedy. In nine-nine cases out of a
hundred women are as passive and innocent as the strawberries and cream.'
'Well, all
I can say is that this must be the hundredth case,' said Gombauld,
without looking up.
Anne
shrugged her shoulders and gave vent to a sigh.
'I'm at a loss to know whether you're more silly
or more rude.'
After
painting for a little time in silence Gombauld began
to speak again. 'And then there's
Denis,' he said, renewing the conversation as though it had only just been
broken off. 'You're playing the same
game with him. Why can't you leave that
wretched young man in peace?'
Anne
flushed with a sudden and uncontrollable anger.
'It's perfectly untrue about Denis,' she said indignantly. 'I never dreamt of playing what you
beautifully call the same game with him.'
Recovering her calm, she added in her ordinary cooing voice and with her
exacerbating smile, 'You've become very protective towards poor Denis all of a
sudden.'
'I have,' Gombauld replied, with a gravity that was somehow a little
too solemn. 'I don't like to see a young
man ...'
'... being whirled along the road to ruin,' said Anne, continuing
his sentence for him. 'I admire your
sentiments and, believe me, I share them.'
She was
curiously irritated at what Gombauld had said about
Denis. It happened to be so completely
untrue. Gombauld
might have some slight ground for his reproaches. But Denis - no, she had never flirted with
Denis. Poor boy! He was very sweet. She became somewhat pensive.
Gombauld painted on with fury. The restlessness of an unsatisfied desire,
which, before, had distracted his mind, making work impossible, seemed now to
have converted itself into a kind of feverish energy. When it was finished, he told himself, the
portrait would be diabolic. He was
painting her in the pose she had naturally adopted at the first sitting. Seated sideways, her elbow on the back of the
chair, her head and shoulders turned at an angle from the rest of her body,
towards the front, she had fallen into an attitude of indolent
abandonment. He had emphasized the lazy
curves of her body; the lines sagged as they crossed the canvas, the grace of
the painted figure seemed to be melting into a kind of soft decay. The hand that lay along the knee was as limp
as a glove. He was at work on the face
now; it had begun to emerge on the canvas, doll-like in its regularity and
listlessness. It was Anne's face - but
her face as it would be, utterly unillumined by the
inward lights of thought and emotion. It
was the lazy, expressionless mask which was sometimes her face. The portrait was terribly like; and at the
same time it was the most malicious of lies.
Yes, it would be diabolic when it was finished, Gombauld
decided; he wondered what she would think of it.