literary transcript

 

 

CHAPTER L1

 

February 7th 1934

 

Dr Miller dismounted at the open door, left his beast with the mozo, and stepped into the hut.

      Propped up on his bed, Mark watched him enter – a small, erect figure, walking briskly, his blue eyes bright with enquiring kindness, the corners of his mouth alive with the potentialities of laughter.

      'And how are all the little patients this evening?' Mark twisted up his pale and still emaciated face into a ferociously sardonic smile.

      From the stool on which he was sitting beside the bed, Anthony shot a glance at him, and remembered the serenity of that face three weeks before, in the early morning sunshine among the pine trees.  Serene and at peace.  But now life had come back to him, now that he was safely convalescent, the peace had departed, leaving him the embittered enemy of the whole world.  There had been hatred in his eyes even before he was strong enough to speak.  Hatred for everyone who came near him – above all for old Miller.

      'I can't bear his perpetual twinkle,' was what he had said to Anthony later on.  'Nobody has the right to go about looking like the advertisement of a constipation cure.'

      But the real reason for Mark's dislike was different.  He hated old Miller because of his dependence upon him, because of the unflaggingly watchful efficiency of the man's care.  Poor Mark!  How acutely he suffered from having to accept a service and,  still more, from being compelled by his own physical weakness to ask for it!  How bitterly he resented even affection, if it were given by somebody to whom it was impossible for him to feel superior!  His dislike for the doctor had been present from the first moment of his return to consciousness, had increased with every day that the old man delayed his departure in order to look after him.

      'But why don't you get on with your journey?' he had asked; and when the doctor answered that he was in no hurry and intended to see him safely down to the coast and even, since he himself was leaving, home through the Canal to England, had protested vehemently that his leg was practically healed, that there would be no difficulty in getting back to Puerto San Felipe, that he himself would probably be taking the north-bound boat to Los Angeles.

      But the doctor had remained, attending to Mark and in the intervals riding out to the neighbouring villages to treat the sick.  To the convalescent this was an additional source of irritation – though why it should have annoyed him Anthony could not rightly understand.  Perhaps he resented the fact that the benefactor of the Indians was not himself.  Anyhow, there it was; he was never tired of baiting old Miller with those 'little patients' of his.

      Then, a fortnight after the operation, had come the new of the ignominious failure of Don Jorge's attempt at insurrection.  He had been surprised with an insufficient guard, taken alive, summarily tried and shot with his chief lieutenant.  The report added that the two men had cracked jokes together as they walked between the soldiers towards the cemetery, where their graves were already dug.

      'And he died,' had been Mark's comment, 'believing that I'd taken fright at the last moment and let him down.'

      The thought was like another wound to him.

      'If I hadn't had this blasted accident …' he kept repeating.  'If I'd been there to advise him … That crazy rashness of his!  That was why he'd asked me to come.  He mistrusted his own judgment.  And here was I lying in this stinking pigsty, while the poor devil marches off to the cemetery …' Cracking jokes, as he sniffed the cold morning air.  'Huele al cimentero, Don Jaime.'  He too would have cracked his joke.  Instead of which … It was just bad luck, of course, just a typical piece of providential idiocy; but providence was not there for him to vent his grievance on.  Only Anthony and the doctor were there.  His behaviour towards them, after the news of Don Jorge's death, had become increasingly bitter and resentful.  It was as though he regarded them as personally responsible for what had happened.  Both of them, especially the doctor.

      'How's the delicious bedside manner?' Mark now went on, in the same derisive tone in which he had asked after the little patients.

      'Wasted, I'm afraid,' Dr Miller answered good-humouredly as he took off his hat and sat down.  'Either they haven't got any beds for me to be at the side of – only a blanket on the floor.  Or else they don't speak any Spanish, and I don't speak their brand of Indian dialect.  And how's yourself?' he asked.

      'Myself,' said Mark, returning the doctor his expression in a tone of emphatically contemptuous disgust, as though it were some kind of verbal ordure, 'is very well, thanks.'

      'But doing a slight Bishop Berkeley,' Anthony interposed.  'Feeling pains in the knees he hasn't got.'    

      Mark looked at him for a moment with an expression of stony dislike; then turning away and fixing his eyes on the bright evening landscape, visible through the open door of the hut, 'Not pains,' he said coldly, though it was as pains that he had described them to Anthony only half an hour before.  'Just the sensation that the knee's still there.'

      'Can't avoid that, I'm afraid.'  The doctor shook his head.

      'I didn't suppose one could,' Mark said, as though he were replying with dignity to an aspersion on his honour.

      Dr Miller broke the uncomfortable silence by remarking that there was a good deal of goitre in the higher valleys.

      'It has its charm,' said Mark, stroking an imaginary bulge at his throat.  'How I regret those cretins one used to see in Switzerland when I was a child!  They've iodined them out of existence now, I'm afraid.  The world's too damned sanitary these days.'  He shook his head and smiled anatomically.  'What do they do up there in the high valleys?' he asked.

      'Grow maize,' said the doctor.  'And kill one another in the intervals.  There's a huge network of vendettas spread across these mountains.  Everybody's involved.  I've been talking to the responsible men, trying to persuade them to liquidate all the old accounts and start afresh.'

      'They'll die of boredom.'

      'No, I'm teaching them football instead.  Matches between the villages.'  He smiled.  'I've had a lot of experience with vendettas,' he added.  'All over the world.  They all detest them, really.  Are only too thankful for football when they're used to it.'

      'Christ!'

      'Why “Christ”?'

      'Those games!  Can't we ever escape them?'

      'But they're the greatest English contribution to civilization,' said the doctor.  'Much more important than parliamentary government, or steam engines, or Newton's Principia.  More important even than English poetry.  Poetry can never be a substitute for war and murder.  Whereas games can be.  A complete and genuine substitute.'

      'Substitutes!' Mark echoed contemptuously.  'You're all content with substitutes.  Anthony finds his in bed or in the British Museum Reading Room.  You look for yours on the football field.  God help you!  Why are you so frightened of the genuine article?'

      For a little while no one spoke.  Dr Miller looked at Anthony, and, seeing that he did not propose to answer, turned back to the other.  'It isn't a question of being frightened, Mark Staithes,' he said very mildly.  'It's a question of choosing something right instead of something wrong …'

      'I'm suspicious of right choices that happen to need less courage than wrong ones.'

      'Is danger your measure of goodness?'

      Mark shrugged his shoulders.  'What is goodness?  Hard to know, in most cases.  But at least one can be sure that it's good to face danger courageously.'

      'And for that you're justified in deliberately creating dangerous situations – at other people's expense?'  Dr Miller shook his head.  'That won't do, Mark Staithes.  If you want to use courage, why not use it in a good cause.'

      'Such as teaching blackamoors to play football,' Mark sneered.

      'Which isn't so easy, very often, as it sounds.'

      'They can't grasp the offside rule, I suppose.'

      'They don't want to grasp any rule at all, except the rule of killing the people from the next village.  And when you're between two elevens armed to the teeth and breathing slaughter at one another …' He paused; his wide mouth twitched into a smile; the almost invisible hieroglyphs round the eyes deepened, as he narrowed the lids, into the manifest symbols of an inner amusement.  'Well, as I say, it isn't quite so easy as it sounds.  Have you ever found yourself faced by a lot of angry men who wanted to kill you?'

      Mark nodded, and an expression of rather malevolent satisfaction appeared on his face.  'Several times,' he answered.  'When I was running a coffee finca a bit further down the coast, in Chiapas.'

      'And you faced them without arms?'

      'Without arms,' Mark repeated, and, by way of explanation, 'The politicians,' he added, 'were still talking about revolution in those days.  The land for the people – and all the rest.  One fine morning the villagers came to seize the estate.'

      'Which, on your principles,' said Anthony, 'you ought to have approved of.'

      'And did approve, of course.  But I could hardly admit it – not in those circumstances.'

      'Why not?'

      'Well, surely that's pretty obvious, isn't it?? There they were, marching against me.  Was I to tell them I sympathized with their politics and then hand over the estate?  No, really, that would have been a bit too simple!'

      'What did you do, then?'

      'There were about a hundred of them the first time,' Mark explained.  'Festooned with guns and cartridge-belts like Christmas trees, and all with their machetes.  But polite, soft spoken.  They had no particular quarrel with me, and the revolutionary idea was strange; they didn't feel too certain of themselves.  Not that they ever made much noise,' he added.  'I've seen them killing in silence.  Like fish.  It's an aquarium, this country.'

      'Seems like an aquarium,' Dr Miller emended.  'But when one has learnt how the fishes think …'

      'I've always found it more important to learn how they drink,' said Mark.  'Tequila's the real enemy.  Luckily, mine were sober.  Otherwise … Well, who knows what would have happened?'  After a pause, 'They were standing on the cement drying floor,' he went on, 'and I was sitting at the door of the office, up a few steps, above them.  Superior, as though I were holding a durbar of my loyal subjects.'  He laughed; the colour had come to his cheeks, and he spoke with a kind of gusto, as though the words had a pleasant taste in his mouth.  'A hundred, villainous, coffee-coloured peons, staring up at one with those beady tortoise's eyes of theirs – it wasn't reassuring.  But I managed to keep my face and voice from giving anything away.  It helped a lot, I found, to think of the creatures as some kind of rather squalid insects.  Cockroaches, dung beetles.  Just a hundred big, staring bugs.  It helped, I say. But still my heart did beat a bit.  On its own – you know the sensation, don't you?  It's as though you had a live bird under your ribs.  A bird with its own bird-like consciousness.  Suffering from its own private fears.  An odd sensation, but exhilarating.  I don't think I was ever happier in my life than I was that day.  The fact of being one against a hundred.  A hundred armed to the teeth.  But bugs, only bugs.  Whereas the one was a man.  It was a wonderful feeling.'  He was silent for a little, smiling to himself.

      'And what happened then?' Anthony asked.

      'Nothing.  I just gave them a little speech from the throne.  Told them the finca wasn't mine to give away.  That, meanwhile, I was responsible for the place.  And if I caught anybody trespassing on the land, or doing any mischief – well, I should know what to do.  Firm, dignified, the real durbar touch.  After which I got up, told them they could go,  and walked up the path towards the house.  I suppose I was within sight of them for about a minute.  A full minute with my back turned to them.  And there were at least a hundred of the creatures; nobody could ever have discovered who fired the shot.  That bird under the ribs!'  Lifting a hand, he fluttered the fingers in the air.  'And there was a new sensation – ants running up and down the spine.  Terrors – but of the body only; autonomous, if you see what I mean.  In my mind I knew that they wouldn't shoot, couldn't shoot.  A hundred miserable bugs – it was morally impossible for them to do it.  Bird under the ribs, ants up and down the spine; but inside the skull there was a man; and he was confident, in spite of the body's doubts, he knew that he game had been won.  It was a long minute, but a good one.  A very good one.  And there were other minutes like it afterwards.  The only times they ever shot at me were at evening, from out of the bushes.  I was within their range, but they were out of mine.  Out of the range of my consciousness and will.  That was why they had the courage to shoot.  When the man's away, the bugs will play.  Luckily, no amount of courage has ever taught an Indian to shoot straight.  In time, of course, they might have got me by a fluke; but meanwhile revolution went out of fashion.  It never cut very much ice on the Pacific coast.'  He lit a cigarette.  There was a long silence.

      'Well,' said Dr Miller at last, 'that's one way of dealing with a hostile crowd.  And seeing that you're here to tell us, it's evidently a way that sometimes succeeds.  But it's not my way.  I'm an anthropologist, you see.'

      'What difference does that make?'

      'Quite a big one,' Dr Miller replied.  'An anthropologist is a person who studies men.  But you prefer to deal with bugs.  I'd call you an entomologist, Mark Staithes.'  His smile evoked no answering sign of friendliness.  Mark's face was stony as he met the doctor's eyes and looked away again.

      'Entomologist!' he repeated scornfully.  'That's just stupid.  Why do you play with words?'

      'Because words express thoughts, Mark Staithes; and thoughts determine actions.  If you call a man a bug, it means that you propose to treat him as a bug.  Whereas if you call him a man, it means that you propose to treat him as a man.  My profession is to study men.  Which means that I must always call men by their name; always think of them as men; yes, and always treat them as men.  Because if you don't treat men as men, they don't behave as men.  But I'm an anthropologist, I repeat.  I want human material.  Not insect material.'

      Mark uttered an explosive little laugh.  'One may want human material,' he said.  'But that doesn't mean one's going to get it.  What one actually gets …' He laughed again.  'Well, it's most plain, undiluted bug.'

      'There,' said Dr Miller, 'you're wrong.  If one looks for men, one finds them.  Very decent ones, in a majority of cases.  For example, go among a suspicious, badly treated, savage people; go unarmed, with your hands open.'  He held out his large square hands in a gesture of offering.  'Go with the persistent and obstinate intention of doing them some good – curing their sick, for example.  I don't care how bitter their grievance against white men may be; in the end, if you're given time enough to make your intentions clear, they'll accept you as a friend, they'll be human beings treating you as a human being.  Of course,' he added, and the symbols of inner laughter revealed themselves once more about his eyes, 'it sometimes happens that they don't leave you the necessary time.  They spear you before you're well under way.  But it doesn't often happen – it has never happened to me, as you see – and when it does happen, well, there's always the hope that the next man who comes will be more successful.  Anthropologists may get killed; but anthropology goes on; and in the long run it can't fail to succeed.  Whereas your entomological approach …' He shook his head.  'It may succeed at the beginning; you can generally frighten and overawe people into submission.  That's to say that, by treating them as bugs, you can generally make them behave like bugs – crawl and scuttle to cover.  But the moment they have the opportunity, they'll turn on you.  The anthropologist may get killed while establishing his first contacts; but after that, he's safe; he's a man among men.  The entomologist may start by being safe; but he's a bug-hunter among bugs – among bugs, what's more, who resent being treated as bugs, who know they aren't bugs.  His bad quarter of an hour comes later on.  It's the old story; you can do everything with bayonets except sit on them.'

      'You don't have to sit on them,' said Mark.  'It's the other people's bottoms that get punctured, not yours.  If you wielded the bayonets with a certain amount of intelligence, I don't see why you shouldn't go on ruling indefinitely.  The real trouble is, of course, that there isn't the necessary intelligence.  Most bug-hunters are indistinguishable from the bugs.'

      'Exactly,' Dr Miller agreed.  'And the only remedy is for the bug-hunter to throw his bayonets away and treat the bugs as though they were human beings.'

      'But we're talking about intelligence,' said Mark.  The tone of contemptuous tolerance implied that he was doing his best not to get angry with the old fool for his incapacity to think.  'Being sentimental has nothing to do with being intelligent.'

      'On the contrary,' the doctor insisted, 'it has everything to do with it.  You can't be intelligent about human beings unless your first sentimental about them.  Sentimental in the good sense, of course.  In the sense of caring for them.  It's the first indispensable condition of understanding them.  If you don't care for them, you can't possibly understand them; all your acuteness will just be another form of stupidity.'

      'And if you do care for them,' said Mark, 'you'll be carried away by your maudlin emotions and become incapable of seeing them for what they are.  Look at the grotesque, humiliating things that happen when people care too much.  The young men who fall in love and imagine that hideous, imbecile girls are paragons of beauty and intellect.  The devoted women who persist in thinking that their squalid little hubbies are all that's most charming, noble, wise, profound.'

      'They're probably quite right,' said Dr Miller.  'It's indifference and hatred that are blind, not love!'

      'Not lo-ove!' Mark repeated derisively.  'Perhaps we might now sing a hymn.'

      'With pleasure,' Dr Miller smiled.  'A Christian hymn, or a Buddhist hymn, or a Confucian – whichever you like.  I'm an anthropologist; and after all, what's anthropology?  Merely applied scientific religion.'

      Anthony broke a long silence.  'Why do you only apply it to blackamoors?' he asked.  'What about beginning at home, like charity?'

      'You're right,' said the doctor, 'it ought to have begun at home.  If, in fact, it began abroad, that's merely a historical accident.  It began there because we were imperialists and so came into contact with people whose habits were different from ours and therefore seemed stranger than ours.  An accident, I repeat.  But in some ways a rather fortunate accident.  For thanks to it we've learnt a lot of facts and a valuable technique, which we probably shouldn't have learnt at home.  For two reasons.  Because it's hard to think dispassionately about oneself, and still harder to think correctly about something that's very complicated.  Home's both these things – an elaborate civilization that happens to be our own.  Savage societies are simply civilized societies on a small scale and with the lid off.  We can learn to understand them fairly easily.  And when we've learnt to understand savages, we've learnt, as we discover, to understand the civilized.  And that's not all.  Savages are usually hostile and suspicious.  The anthropologist has got to learn to overcome that hostility and suspicion.  And when he's learnt that, he's learnt the whole secret of politics.'

      'Which is …?'

      'That if you treat other people well, they'll treat you well.'

      'You're a bit optimistic, aren't you?'

      'No.  In the long run they'll always treat you well.'

      'In the long run,' said Mark impatiently, 'we shall all be dead.  What about the short run?'

      'You've got to take a risk.'

      ''But Europeans aren't like your Sunday-school savages.  It'll be an enormous risk.'

      'Possibly.  But always smaller than the risk you run by treating people badly and goading them into a war.  Besides, they're not worse than savages.  They've just been badly handled – need a bit of anthropology, that's all.'

      'And who's going to give them the anthropology?'

      'Well, among others,' Dr Miller answered, 'I am.  And I hope you are, Mark Staithes.'

      Mark made a flayed grimace and shook his head.  'Let them slit one another's throats,' he said.  'They'll do it anyhow, whatever you tell them.  So leave them to make their idiotic wars in peace.  Besides,' he pointed to the basketwork cage that kept the bedclothes out of contact with his wound, 'what can I do now?  Look on, that's all.  We'd much better all look on.  It won't be for long, anyhow.  Just a few years; and then …' He paused, looked down and frowned.  'What are those verses of Rochester's?  Yes.'  He raised his head again and recited:

 

                   'Then old age and experience, hand in hand,

                       Lead him to death, and make him understand,

                       After a search so painful and so long,

                       That all his life he had been in the wrong.

                       Huddled in dirt the reasoning engine lies,

                       Who was so proud, so witty and so wise.

 

Huddled in dirt,' he repeated.  'That's really admirable.  Huddled in dirt.  And one doesn't have to wait till one's dead to be that.  We'll find a snug little patch of dirt and huddle together, shall we?'  He turned to Anthony.  'Huddle together among the cow-pats and watch the doctor trying his best anthropological bedside manner on General Goering.  There'll be some hearty laughs.'

      'In spite of which,' said Anthony, 'I think I shall go and make myself ridiculous with Miller.'