CHAPTER TWO
Suddenly
the bird ceased to be articulate and started to scream. A small shrill human voice said, "Mynah!" and then added something in a language that
will did not understand. There was a sound of footsteps on dry
leaves. Then a little cry
of alarm. Then silence. Will opened his eyes and saw two exquisite
children looking down at him, their eyes wide with astonishment and a
fascinated horror. The smaller of them
was a tiny boy of five, perhaps, or six, dressed only in a green loin
cloth. Beside him, carrying a basket of
fruit on her head, stood a little girl some four or
five years older. She wore a full
crimson skirt that reached almost to her ankles; but above the waist she was
naked. In the sunlight her skin glowed
like pale copper flushed with rose. Will
looked from one child to the other. How
beautiful they were, and how faultless, how extraordinarily elegant! Like two little thoroughbreds. A round and sturdy thoroughbred, with a face
like a cherub's - that was the boy. And
the girl was another kind of thoroughbred, fine-drawn, with a rather long,
grave little face framed between braids of dark hair.
There was another burst of screaming. On its perch in the dead tree the bird was
turning nervously this way and that, then, with a final screech, it dived into
the air. Without taking her eyes from
Will's face, the girl held out her hand invitingly. The bird fluttered, settled, flapped wildly,
found its balance, then folded its wings and immediately started to
hiccup. Will looked on without surprise. Anything was possible now - anything. Even talking birds that
would perch on a child's finger.
Will tried to smile at them; but his lips were still trembling, and what
was meant to be a sign of friendliness must have seemed like a frightening
grimace. The little boy took cover
behind his sister.
The bird stopped hiccupping and began to
repeat a word that Will did not understand.
"Runa" - was that it? No, "Karuna". Definitely
"Karuna".
He raised a trembling hand and pointed at
the fruit in the round basket. Mangoes,
bananas ... His dry mouth was watering.
"Hungry," he said. Then, feeling that in these exotic
circumstances the child might understand him better if he put on an imitation
of a musical-comedy Chinaman, "Me velly hungly," he elaborated.
"Do you want to eat?" the child
asked in perfect English.
"Yes - eat," he repeated,
"eat."
"Fly away, mynah!" She shook her hand. The bird uttered a protesting squawk and
returned to its perch on the dead tree.
Lifting her thin little arms in a gesture that was like a dancer's, the
child raised the basket from her head, then lowered it
to the ground. She selected a banana,
peeled it and, torn between fear and compassion, advanced towards the
stranger. In his incomprehensible
language the little boy uttered a cry of warning and clutched at her
skirt. With a reassuring word, the girl
halted, well out of danger, and held up the fruit.
"Do you want it?" she asked.
Still trembling, Will Farnaby
stretched out his hand. Very cautiously,
she edged forward, then halted again and, crouching down, peered at him
intently.
"Quick," he said in an agony of
impatience.
But the little girl was taking no
chances. Eyeing his hand for the least
sign of a suspicious movement, she leaned forward, she cautiously extended her
arm.
"For God's sake," he implored.
"God?" the child repeated with
sudden interest. "Which God?"
she asked. "There are such a lot of
them."
"Any damned God you like," he
answered impatiently.
"I don't really like any of
them," she answered. "I like
the Compassionate One."
"Then be compassionate to me,"
he begged. "Give me that
banana."
Her expression changed. "I'm sorry," she said
apologetically. Rising to her full
height, she took a quick step forward and dropped the fruit into his shaking
hand.
"There," she said and, like a
little animal avoiding a trap, she jumped back, out of reach.
The small boy clapped his hands and
laughed aloud. She turned and said
something to him in their incomprehensible language. He nodded his round head, and saying
"Okay, boss," trotted away, through a barrage of blue and sulphur
butterflies, into the forest shadows on the further side of the glade.
"I told Tom Krishna to go and fetch
someone," she explained.
Will finished his banana and asked for
another, and then for a third. As the
urgency of his hunger diminished, he felt a need to satisfy his curiosity.
"How is it that you speak such good
English?" he asked.
"Because everybody speaks
English," the child answered.
"Everybody?"
"I mean, when they're not speaking Palanese."
Finding the subject uninteresting, she turned, waved a small brown hand
and whistled.
"Here and now, boys," the bird
repeated yet once more, then fluttered down from its perch on the dead tree and
settled on her shoulder. The child
peeled another banana, gave two-thirds of it to Will and offered what remained
to the mynah.
"Is that your bird?" Will asked.
She shook her head.
"Mynahs are
like the electric light," she said.
"They don't belong to anybody."
"Why does he say those things?"
"Because somebody taught him,"
she answered patiently. What an ass! her tone seemed to imply.
"But why did they teach him those
things?" Why 'Attention'? Why 'Here and now'?"
"Well ..." She searched for the right words in
which to explain the self-evident to this strange imbecile. "That's what you always forget, isn't
it? I mean, you forget to pay attention
to what's happening. And that's the same
as not being here and now."
"And the mynahs
fly about reminding you - is that it?"
She nodded. That, of course, was it. There was a silence.
"What's your name?" she
inquired.
Will introduced himself.
"My name's Mary Sarojini
MacPhail."
"MacPhail?"
It was too implausible.
"MacPhail,"
she assured him.
And your little brother is called Tom
Krishna?" She nodded. "Well, I'm damned!"
"Did you come to Pala
by the aeroplane?"
"I came out of the sea."
"Out of the sea? Do you have a boat?"
"I did have one." With his mind's eye Will
saw the waves breaking over the stranded hulk, heard with his inner ear the
crash of their impact. Under her
questioning he told her what had happened.
The storm, the beaching of the boat, the long nightmare of the climb,
the snakes, the horror of falling ... He began to
tremble again, more violently than ever.
Mary Sarojini
listened attentively and without comment.
Then as his voice faltered and finally broke, she stepped forward and,
the bird still perched on her shoulder, kneeled down beside him.
"Listen, Will," she said, laying
a hand on his forehead. "We've got
to get rid of this." Her tone was
professional and calmly authoritative.
"I wish I knew how," he said
between chattering teeth.
"How?" she repeated. "But in the usual way, of course. Tell me again about those snakes and how you
fell down."
He shook his head. "I don't want to."
"Of course you don't want to,"
she said. "But you've got to. Listen to what the mynah's
saying."
"Here and now, boys," the bird
was still exhorting. "Here and now,
boys."
"You can't be here and now," she
went on, "until you've got rid of those snakes. Tell me."
"I don't want to, I don't want
to." He was almost in tears.
"Then you'll never get rid of
them. They'll be crawling about inside
your head for ever. And serve you
right," Mary Sarojini added severely.
He tried to control the trembling; but his
body had ceased to belong to him.
Someone else was in charge, someone malevolently determined to humiliate
him, to make him suffer.
"Remember what happened when you were
a little boy," Mary Sarojini was saying. "What did your mother do when you hurt yourself."
She had taken him in her arms, had said,
"My poor baby, my poor little baby."
"She did that?" The child spoke in a tone of shocked
amazement. "But that's awful! That's the way to rub it in. 'My poor baby,'" she repeated
derisively, "it must have gone on hurting for hours. And you'd never forget it."
Will Farnaby
made no comment, but lay there in silence, shaken by irrepressible shudderings.
"Well, if you won't do it yourself,
I'll have to do it for you. Listen,
Will: there was a snake, a big green snake, and you almost stepped on him. You almost stepped on him, and gave it such a
fright that you lost your balance, you fell.
Now saw it yourself - say it!"
"I almost stepped on him," he
whispered obediently. "And
then I ...” He couldn't say it.
"Then I fell," he brought out at last, almost inaudibly.
All the horror of it came back to him -
the nausea of fear, the panic start that had made him lose his balance, and
then worse fear and the ghastly certainty that it was the end.
"Say it again."
"I almost stepped on him. And then ..."
He heard himself whimpering.
"That's right, Will. Cry - cry!"
The whimpering became a moaning. Ashamed, he clenched his teeth, and the
moaning stopped.
"No, don't do that," she
cried. "Let it come out if it wants
to. Remember that snake, Will. Remember how you fell."
The moaning broke out again and he began
to shudder more violently than ever.
"Now tell me what happened."
"I could see its eyes,
I could see its tongue going in and out."
"Yes, you could see his tongue. And what happened then?"
"I lost my balance, I fell."
"Say it again, Will." He was sobbing now. "Say it again," she insisted.
"I fell."
"Again."
It was tearing him to pieces, but he said
it. "I fell."
"Again, Will." She was implacable. "Again."
"I fell, I fell. I fell ..."
Gradually the sobbing died down. The words came more easily and the memories
they aroused were less painful.
"I fell," he repeated for the
hundredth time.
"But you didn't fall very far,"
Mary Sarojini now said.
"No, I didn't fall very far," he
agreed.
"So what's all the fuss about?"
the child inquired.
There was no malice or irony in her tone,
not the slightest implication of blame.
She was just asking a simple, straightforward question that called for a
simple, straightforward answer. Yes,
what was all the fuss about? The
snake hadn't bitten him: he hadn't broken his neck. And anyhow it had all happened yesterday. Today there were these butterflies, this bird
that called one to attention, this strange child who
talked to one like a Dutch uncle, looked like an angel out of some unfamiliar
mythology and within five degrees of the equator was called, believe it or not,
MacPhail. Will
Farnaby laughed aloud.
The little girl clapped her hands and
laughed too. A moment later the bird on
her shoulder joined in with peal upon peal of loud demonic laughter that filled
the glade and echoed among the trees, so that the whole universe seemed to be
fairly splitting its sides over the enormous joke of existence.