CHAPTER V
A jungle of innumerable trees and dangling
creepers - it was in this form that parties always presented themselves to
Walter Bidlake's imagination. A jumble of noise; and he was lost in the
jungle, he was trying to clear a path for himself through its tangled
luxuriance. The people were the roots of
the trees and their voices were the stems and waving branches and festooned
lianas - yes, and the parrots and the chattering monkeys as well.
The
trees reached up to the ceiling and from the ceiling they were bent back again,
like mangroves, towards the floor. But
in this particular room, Walter reflected, in this queer combination of a Roman
courtyard and the Palm House at Kew, the growths of sound shooting up, uninterrupted,
through the height of three floors, would have gathered enough momentum to
break clean through the flimsy glass roof that separated them from the outer
night. He pictured them going up and up,
like the magic beanstalk of the Giant Killer, into the sky. Up and up, loaded with
orchids and bright cocatoos, up through the perennial
mist of
Looking
over the heads of the people who surrounded him, he saw Frank Illidge, alone, leaning against a pillar. His attitude, his smile were Byronic, at once
world-weary and contemptuous; he glanced about him with a languid amusement, as
though he were watching the drolleries of a group of monkeys. Unfortunately, Walter reflected, as he made
his way through the crowd towards him, poor Illidge
hadn't the right physique for being Byronically superior. Satirical romantics should be long,
slow-moving, graceful and handsome. Illidge was small, alert and jerky. And what a comic face! Like a street Arab's, with its upturned nose
and wide slit of a mouth; a very intelligent, sharp-witted street Arab's face, but
not exactly one to be languidly contemptuous with. Besides, who can be superior with
freckles? Illidge's
complexion was sandy with them.
Protectively coloured, the sandy-brown eyes, the sandy-orange eyebrows
and lashes disappeared, at a little distance, into the skin, as a lion
dissolves into the desert. From across a
room his face seemed featureless and unregarding,
like the face of a statue carved out of a block of sandstone. Pool Illidge! The Byronic part made him look rather
ridiculous.
'Hullo,'
said Walter, as he got within speaking distance. The two young men shook hands. 'How science?' What a silly question! thought Walter as he
pronounced the words.
Illidge shrugged his shoulders. 'Less fashionable than the arts, to judge by
this party.' He looked round him. 'I've seen half the writing and painting
section of Who's Who this evening.
The place fairly stinks of art.'
'Isn't
that rather a comfort for science?' said Walter. 'The arts don't enjoy being fashionable.'
'Oh,
don't they! Why are you here, then?'
'Why
indeed?' Walter parried the question
with a laugh. He looked round, wondering
where Lucy could have gone. He had not
caught sight of her since the music stopped.
'You've
come to do your tricks and have your head patted,' said Illidge,
trying to get a little of his own back; the memory of that slip on the stairs,
of Lady Edward's lack of interest in newts, of the military gentlemen's
insolence, still rankled. 'Just look at
that girl there with the frizzy hair, in cloth of silver. The one like a little white negress. What about
her, for example? It'd be pleasant to
have one's head patted by that sort of thing - eh?'
'Well,
would it?'
Illidge laughed.
'You take the high philosophical line, do you? But, my dear chap, admit it's all
humbug. I take it myself, so I ought to
know. To tell you the truth, I envy you
art-mongers your success. It makes me
really furious when I see some silly, half-witted little writer ...'
'Like
me, for example.'
'No,
you're a cut above most of them,' conceded Illidge. 'But when I see some wretched little
scribbler with a tenth of my intelligence, making money and being cooed over,
while I'm disregarded, I do get furious sometimes.'
'You
ought to regard it as a compliment. If
they coo over us, it's because they can understand, more or less, what we're
after. They can't understand you; you're
above them. Their neglect is a
compliment to your mind.'
'Perhaps;
but it's a damned insult to my body.' Illidge was painfully conscious of his appearance. He knew that he was ugly and looked undistinguished. And knowing, he liked to remind himself of
the unpleasant fact, like a man with an aching tooth, who is forever fingering
the source of his pain, just to make sure it is still painful. 'If I looked like that enormous lout, Webley, they wouldn't neglect me, even if my mind were like
Newton's. The fact is,' he said, giving
the aching tooth a good tug this time, 'I look like an anarchist. You're lucky, you know. You look like a gentleman, or at least like
an artist. You've no idea what a nuisance it is to look like an intellectual of
the lower classes.' The tooth was
responding excruciatingly; he pulled at it the harder. 'It's not merely that the women neglect you -
these women, at any rate. That's
bad enough. But the police refuse to
neglect you; they take a horrid inquisitive interest. Would you believe it, I've been twice
arrested, simply because I look like the sort of man who makes infernal
machines.'
'It's
a good story,' said Walter sceptically.
'But
true, I swear. Once it was in this
country. Near Chesterfield. They were having a coal strike. I happened to be looking on at a fight
between strikers and blacklegs. The
police didn't like my face and grabbed me.
It took me hours to get out of their clutches. The other time was in Italy. Somebody had just been trying to blow up
Mussolini, I believe. Anyhow, a gang of
black-shirted bravoes made me get out of the train at Genoa and searched me
from top to toe. Intolerable! Simply because of my subversive face.'
'Which
corresponds, after all, to your ideas.'
'Yes,
but a face isn't evidence, a face isn't a crime. Well, yes,' he added parenthetically,
'perhaps some faces are crimes.
Do you know General Knoyle?' Walter nodded. 'His is a capital offence. Nothing short of hanging would do for a man
like that. God! how I'd like to kill
them all!' Had he not slipped on the
stairs and been snubbed by a stupid man-butcher? 'How I loathe the rich! Loathe them!
Don't you think they're horrible?'
'More
horrible than the poor?' The recollection
of Wetherington's sickroom made him almost at once
feel rather ashamed of the question.
'Yes,
yes. There's something peculiarly base
and ignoble and diseased about the rich.
Money breeds a kind of gangrened insensitiveness. It's inevitable. Jesus understood. That bit about the camel and the needle's eye
is a mere statement of fact. And
remember that other bit about loving your neighbours. You'll be thinking I'm a Christian at this
rate,' he added with parenthetic apology.
'But honour where honour is due.
The man had sense; he saw what was what.
Neighbourliness is the touchstone that shows up the rich. The rich haven't got any neighbours.'
'But,
damn it, they're not anchorites.'
'But
they have no neighbours in the sense that the poor have neighbours. When my mother had to go out, Mrs Cradock
from next door on the right kept an eye on us children. And my mother did the same for Mrs Cradock
when it was her turn to go out. And when
somebody had broken a leg, or lost his job, people helped with money and
food. And how well I remember, as a
little boy, being sent running round the village after the nurse, because young
Mrs Foster from next door on the left had suddenly been taken with birth pains
before she expected! When you live on less
than four pounds a week, you've damned well got to behave like a Christian and
love your neighbour. To begin with, you
can't get away from him; he's practically in your backyard. There can be no refined and philosophical
ignoring of his existence. You must
either hate or love; and on the whole you'd better make a shift to love,
because you may need his help in emergencies and he may need yours - so
urgently, very often, that there can be no question of refusing to give it. And since you must give, since, if
you're a human being, you can't help giving, it's better to make an effort to
like the person you've anyhow got to give to.'
Walter
nodded. 'Obviously.'
'But
you rich,' the other went on, 'you have no real neighbours. You never perform a neighbourly action or
expect your neighbours to do you a kindness in return. It's unnecessary. You can pay people to look after you. You can hire servants to simulate kindness
for three pounds a month and board. Mrs
Cradock from next door doesn't have to keep an eye on your babies when you go
out. You have nurses and governesses
doing it for money. No, you're generally
not even aware of your neighbours. You
live at a distance from them. Each of
you is boxed up in his own secret house.
There may be tragedies going on behind the shutters; but the people next
door don't know anything about it.'
'Thank
God!' ejaculated Walter.
'Thank
him by all means. Privacy's a great
luxury. Very pleasant, I agree. But you pay for luxuries. People aren't moved by misfortunes they don't
know about. Ignorance is insensitive
bliss. In a poor street misfortune can't
be hidden. Life's too public. People have their neighbourly feeling kept in
constant training. But the rich never
have a chance of being neighbourly to their equals. The best they can do is to feel mawkish about
the sufferings of their inferiors, which they can never begin to understand,
and to be patronizingly kind.
Horrible! And that's when they're
doing their best. When they're at their
worst, they're like this.' He indicated
the crowded room. 'They're Lady Edward -
the lowest hell! They're that daughter
of hers ...' He made a grimace, he shrugged his shoulders.
Walter
listened with a strained and agonized attention.
'Damned,
destroyed, irrevocably corrupted,' Illidge went on
like a denouncing prophet. He had only
spoken to Lucy Tantamount, casually, for a moment. She had seemed hardly to notice that he was
there.
It
was true, Walter was thinking. She was
all that people enviously or disapprovingly called her, and yet the most
exquisite and marvellous of beings.
Knowing all, he could listen to anything that might be said about
her. And the more atrocious the words
the more desperately he loved her. Credo
quia absurdum.
Amo quia turpe, quia indignum
...
'What a putrefaction!' Illidge
continued grandiloquently. 'The
consummate flower of this charming civilization of ours - that's what she
is. A refined and perfumed imitation of
a savage or an animal. The logical conclusion,
so far as most people are concerned, of having money and leisure.'
Walter
listened, his eyes shut, thinking of Lucy.
'A perfumed imitation of a savage or an animal.' The words were true and an excruciation; but
he loved her all the more because of the torment and because of the odious
truth.
'Well,'
said Illidge in a changed voice, 'I must go and see
if the Old Man wants to go on working tonight.
We don't generally knock off before half-past one or two. It's rather pleasant living upside down like
this. Sleeping till lunch-time, starting
work after tea. Very pleasant,
really.' He held out his hand. 'So long.'
'We
must dine together one evening,' said Walter without much conviction.
Illidge nodded.
'Let's fix it up one of these days,' he said and was gone.
Walter
edged his way through the crowd, searching.
* *
* *
Everard Webley had got Lord
Edward into a corner and was trying to persuade him to support the British
Freemen.
'But
I'm not interested in politics,' the Old Man huskily protested. 'I'm not interested in politics ...'
Obstinately, mulishly, he repeated the phrase, whatever Webley
might say.
Webley was eloquent.
Men of good will, men with a stake in the country ought to combine to
resist the forces of destruction. It was
not only property that was menaced, not only the material interests of a class;
it was the English tradition, it was personal initiative, it was intelligence,
it was all natural distinction of any kind.
The Freemen were banded to resist the dictatorship of the stupid; they
were armed to protect individuality from the mass man, the mob; they were
fighting for the recognition of natural superiority in every sphere. The enemies were many and busy.
But
forewarned was forearmed; when you saw the bandits approaching, you formed up
in battle order and drew your swords. (Webley had a weakness for swords; he wore one when the
Freemen paraded, his speeches were full of them, his home bristled with
panoplies.) Organization, discipline,
force were necessary. The battle could
no longer be fought constitutionally.
Parliamentary methods were quite adequate when the two parties agreed
about fundamentals and disagreed only about trifling details. But where fundamental principles were at
stake, you couldn't allow politics to go on being treated as a Parliamentary
game. You had to resort to direct action
or the threat of it.
'I
was five years in Parliament,' said Webley. 'Long enough to convince myself that there's
nothing to be done in these days by Parliamentarism. You might as well try to talk a fire
out. England can only be saved by direct
action. When it's saved we can begin to
think about Parliament again. (Something
very unlike the present ridiculous collection of mob-elected rich men it'll have
to be.) Meanwhile, there's nothing for
it but to prepare for fighting. And
preparing for fighting, we may conquer peacefully. It's the only hope. Believe me, Lord Edward, it's the only hope.'
Harassed,
like a bear in a pit set upon by dogs, Lord Edward turned uneasily this way and
that, pivoting his bent body from the loins.
'But I'm not interested in pol ...' He was too agitated to be able to finish the
word.
'But
even if you're not interested in politics,' Webley
persuasively continued, 'you must be interested in your fortune, your position,
the future of your family. Remember, all
those things will go down in the general destruction.'
'Yes,
but ... No ...' Lord Edward was growing desperate. 'I ... I'm not interested in money.'
Once,
years before, the head of the firm of solicitors to whom he left the entire
management of his affairs, had called, in spite of Lord Edward's express
injunction that he was never to be troubled with matters of business, to
consult his client about a matter of investments. There were some eighty thousand pounds to be
disposed of. Lord Edward was dragged
from the fundamental equations of the statics of
living systems. When he learned the
frivolous cause of the interruption, the ordinarily mild Old Man became unrecognizably
angry. Mr Figgis,
whose voice was loud and whose manner confident, had been used, in previous
interviews, to having things all his own way.
Lord Edward's fury astonished and appalled him. It was as though, in his rage, the Old Man
had suddenly thrown back atavistically to the feudal past, had remembered that
he was a Tantamount, talking to a hired servant. He had given orders; they had been disobeyed
and his privacy unjustifiably disturbed.
It was insufferable. If this sort
of thing should ever happen again, he would transfer his affairs to another
solicitor. And with that he wished Mr Figgis a very good afternoon.
'I'm
not interested in money,' he now repeated.
Illidge, who had approached and was hovering in the
neighbourhood, waiting for an opportunity to address the Old Man, overheard the
remark and exploded with inward laughter.
'These rich!' he thought. 'These
bloody rich!' They were all the same.
'But
if not for your own sake,' Webley insisted, attacking
from another quarter, 'for the sake of civilization, of progress.'
Lord
Edward started at the word. It touched a
trigger, it released a flood of energy.
'Progress!' he echoed, and the tone of misery and embarrassment was
exchanged for one of confidence.
'Progress! You politicians are
always talking about it. As though it
were going to last. Indefinitely. More motors, more babies, more food, more
advertising, more money, more everything, for ever. You ought to take a few lessons in my
subject. Physical biology. Progress, indeed! What do you propose to do about phosphorus,
for example?' His question was a
personal accusation.
'But
all this in entirely beside the point,' said Webley
impatiently.
'On
the contrary,' retorted Lord Edward, 'it's the only point.' His voice had become loud and severe. He spoke with a much more than ordinary
degree of coherence. Phosphorus had made
a new man of him; he felt very strongly about phosphorus and, feeling strongly,
he was strong. The worried bear had
become the worrier. 'With your intensive
agriculture,' he went on, 'you're simply draining the soil of phosphorus. More than half of one per cent. a year. Going clean out of circulation. And then the way you throw away hundreds of
thousands of tons of phosphorus pentoxide in your
sewage! Pouring it into the sea. And you call that progress. Your modern sewage systems!' His tone was witheringly scornful. 'You ought to be putting it back where it
came from. On the land.' Lord Edward shook an admonitory finger and
frowned. 'On the land, I tell you.'
'But
all this has nothing to do with me,' protested Webley.
'Then
it ought to,' Lord Edward answered sternly.
'That's the trouble with you politicians. You don't even think of the important
things. Talking about progress and votes
and Bolshevism and every year allowing a million tons of phosphorus pentoxide to run away into the sea. It's idiotic, it's criminal, it's ... it's
fiddling while Rome is burning.' He saw Webley opening his mouth to speak and made haste to
anticipate what he imagined was going to be his objection. 'No doubt,' he said, 'you think you can make
good the loss with phosphate rocks. But
what'll you do when the deposits are exhausted?' He poked Everard in
the shirt front. 'What then? Only two hundred years and they'll be
finished. You think we're being
progressive because we're living on our capital. Phosphates, coal, petroleum, nitre - squander
them all. That's your policy. And meanwhile you go round trying to make our
flesh creep with talk about revolutions.'
'But
damn it all,' said Webley, half angry, half amused,
'your phosphorus can wait. This other
danger's imminent. Do you want a
political and social revolution?'
'Will
it reduce the population and check production?' asked Lord Edward.
'Of
course.'
'Then
certainly I want a revolution.' The Old
Man thought in terms of geology and was not afraid of logical conclusions. 'Certainly.'
Illidge could hardly contain his laughter.
'Well,
if that's your view ...' began Webley; but Lord
Edward interrupted him.
'The
only result of your progress,' he said, 'will be that in a few generations
there'll be a real revolution - a natural, cosmic revolution. You're upsetting the equilibrium. And in the end, nature will restore it. And the process will be very uncomfortable
for you. Your decline will be as quick
as your rise. Quicker, because you'll be
bankrupt, you'll have squandered your capital.
It takes a rich man a little time to realize all his resources. But when they've all been realized, it takes
him almost no time to starve.'
Webley shrugged his shoulders. 'Dotty old lunatic!' he said to himself, and
aloud, 'Parallel straight lines never meet, Lord Edward. So I'll bid you goodnight.' He took his leave.
A
minute later the Old Man and his assistant were making their way up the
triumphal staircase to their world apart.
'What
a relief!' said Lord Edward, as he opened the door of his laboratory. Voluptuously, he sniffed the faint smell of
the absolute alcohol in which the specimens were picked. 'These parties! One's thankful to get back to science. Still, the music was really ...' His
admiration was inarticulate.
Illidge shrugged his shoulders. 'Parties, music, science - alternative
entertainments for the leisured. You
pays your money and you takes your choice.
The essential is to have the money to pay.' He laughed disagreeably.
Illidge resented the virtues of the rich much more than
their vices. Gluttony, sloth, sensuality
and all the less comely products of leisure and an independent income could be
forgiven, precisely because they were discreditable. But disinterestedness, spirituality,
incorruptibility, refinements of feeling and exquisiteness of taste - these
were commonly regarded as qualities to be admired; that was why he so specially
disliked them. For these virtues,
according to Illidge, were as fatally the product of
wealth as were chronic guzzling and breakfast at eleven.
'These
bourgeois,' he complained, 'they go about handing one another bouquets for
being so disinterested - that is to say, for having enough to live on without
being compelled to work or be preoccupied about money. Then there's another bouquet for being able
to afford to refuse a tip. And another
for having enough money to buy the apparatus of cultured refinement. And yet another for having the time to spare
for art and reading and elaborate long-drawn love-making. Why can't they be frank and say outright what
they're all the time implying - that the root of all their virtue is a five per
cent. guilt-edged security?'
The
amused affection which he felt for Lord Edward was tempered by a chronic
annoyance at the thought that the Old Man's intellectual and moral virtues, all
his endearing eccentricities and absurdities were only made possible by the
really scandalous state of his bank balance.
And this latent disapproval became acute whenever he heard Lord Edward
being praised, admired or even laughed at by others. Laughter, liking and admiration were
permitted to him, because he understood and could forgive. Other people did not even realize that there
was anything to forgive. Illidge was always quick to inform them.
'If
the Old Man wasn't the descendant of monastery-robbers,' he would say to the praisers or admirers, 'he'd be in the workhouse or the
loony asylum.'
And
yet he was genuinely fond of the Old Man, he genuinely admired his talents and
his character. The world, however, might
be excused for not realizing the fact.
'Unpleasant' was the ordinary comment on Lord Edward's assistant.
But
being unpleasant to and about the rich, besides a pleasure, was also, in Illidge's eyes, a sacred duty. He owed it to his class, to society at large,
to the future, to the cause of justice.
Even the Old Man himself was not spared.
He had only to breathe a word in favour of the soul (for Lord Edward had
what his assistant could only regard as a shameful and adulterous passion for
idealistic metaphysics); Illidge would at once leap
out at him with a sneer about capitalist philosophy and bourgeois
religion. An expression of distaste for
hard-headed businessmen, of indifference to material interests, of sympathy for
the poor, would bring an immediate reference, more or less veiled, but always
sarcastic, to the Tantamount millions.
There were days (and owing to the slip on the stairs and that snub from
the General, this day was one of them) when even a reference to pure science
elicited its ironic comment. Illidge was an enthusiastic biologist; but as a
class-conscious citizen he had to admit that pure science, like good taste and
boredom, perversity and platonic love, is a product of wealth and leisure. He was not afraid of being logical and
deriding even his own idol.
'Money
to pay,' he repeated. 'That's the
essential.'
The
Old Man looked rather guiltily at his assistant. These implied reproofs made him feel
uncomfortable. He tried to change the
subject. 'What about our tadpoles?' he
asked. 'The asymmetrical ones.' They had a brood of tadpoles hatched from
eggs that had been kept abnormally warm on one side and abnormally cold on the
other. He moved towards the glass tank
in which they were kept. Illidge frowned.
'Asymmetrical
tadpoles!' he repeated. 'Asymmetrical
tadpoles! What a refinement! Almost as good as playing Bach on the flute
or having a palate for wine.' He thought
of his brother Tom, who had weak lungs and worked a broaching machine in a
motor factory at Manchester. He
remembered washing days and the pink crinkled skin of his mother's water-sodden
hands. 'Asymmetrical tadpoles!' he said
once more and laughed.
* *
* *
'Strange,'
said Mrs Betterton, 'strange that a great artist
should be such a cynic.' In Burlap's
company she preferred to believe that John Bidlake
had meant what he said. Burlap on
cynicism was uplifting and Mrs Betterton liked to be
uplifted. Uplifting too on greatness,
not to mention art. 'For you must
admit,' she added, 'he is a great artist.'
Burlap
nodded slowly. He did not look directly
at Mrs Betterton, but kept his eyes averted and
downcast as though he were addressing some little personage invisible to
everyone but himself, standing to one side of her - his private daemon,
perhaps; an emanation from himself, a little doppelgänger. He was a man of middle height with a
stoop and a rather slouching gait. His
hair was dark, thick and curly, with a natural tonsure as big as a medal
showing pink on the crown of his head.
His grey eyes were very deeply set, his nose and chin pronounced but
well shaped, his mouth full-lipped and rather wide. A mixture, according to old Bidlake, who was a caricaturist in words as well as with
the pencil, of a movie villain and St Anthony of Padua by a painter of the
baroque, of a card-sharping Lothario
and a rapturous devotee.
'Yes,
a great artist,' he agreed, 'but not one of the greatest.' He spoke slowly, ruminatively, as though he
were talking to himself. All his
conversation was a dialogue with himself or that little doppelgänger
which stood invisibly to one side of the people he was supposed to be talking
to; Burlap was unceasingly and exclusively self-conscious. 'Not one of the greatest,' he repeated
slowly. As it happened, he had just been
writing an article about the subject-matter of art for next week's number of
the Literary World. 'Precisely
because of that cynicism.' Should he
quote himself? he wondered.
'How
true that is!' Mrs Betterton's applause exploded
perhaps a little prematurely; her enthusiasm was always on the boil. She clapped her hands together. 'How true!' She looked at Burlap's averted face and
thought it so spiritual, so beautiful in its way.
'How
can a cynic be a great artist?' Burlap went on, having decided that he'd spout
his own article at her and take the risk of her recognizing it in print next
Thursday. And even if she did recognize
it, that wouldn't efface the personal impression he'd made by spouting it. 'Though why you want to make an impression,'
a mocking devil had put in, 'unless it's because she's rich and useful,
goodness knows!' The devil was pitchforked back to where he came from. 'One has responsibilities,' an angel hastily
explained. 'The lamp mustn't be hidden
under a bushel. One must let it shine,
especially on people of good will.' Mrs Betterton was on the side of the angels; her loyalty should
be confirmed. 'A great artist,' he went
on aloud, 'is a man who synthesizes all experience. The cynic sets out by denying half the facts
- the fact of the soul, the fact of ideals, the fact of God. And yet we're aware of spiritual facts just
as directly and indubitably as we're aware of physical facts.'
'Of
course, of course!' exclaimed Mrs Betterton.
'It's
absurd to deny either class of facts.'
'Absurd to deny me,' said the demon, poking out his head into Burlap's
consciousness.
"Absurd!'
'The
cynic confines himself to only half the world of possible experience. Less than half. For there are more spiritual than bodily
experiences.'
'Infinitely
more!'
'He
may handle his limited subject-matter very well. Bidlake, I grant
you, does. Extraordinarily well. He has all the sheer ability of the most
consummate artists. Or had, at any
rate.'
'Had,'
Mrs Betterton sighed.
'When I first knew him.' The
implication was that it was her influence that had made him paint so well.
'But
he always applied his powers to something small. What he synthesizes in his art was limited,
comparatively unimportant.'
'That's
what I always told him,' said Mrs Betterton,
reinterpreting those youthful arguments about Pre-Raphaelitism in a new and,
for her own reputation, favourable light.
'Consider Burne-Jones, I used to say.'
The memory of John Bidlake's huge and
Rabelaisian laughter reverberated in her ears.
'Not that Burne-Jones was a particularly good painter,' she hastened to
add. ('He painted,' John Bidlake had said - and how shocked she had been, how deeply
offended! - 'as though he had never seen a pair of buttocks in the whole of his
life.') 'But his subjects were
noble. If you had his dreams, I used
to tell John Bidlake, if you had his ideals,
you'd be a really great artist.'
Burlap
nodded, smiling in agreement. Yes, she's
on the side of the angels, he was thinking; she needs encouraging. One has a responsibility. The demon winked. There was something in his smile, Mrs Betterton reflected, that reminded one of a Leonardo or a Sodoma - something mysterious, subtle, inward.
'Though,
mind you,' he said, regurgitating his article slowly, phrase by phrase, 'the
subject doesn't make the work of art.
Whittier and Longfellow were fairly stuffed with Great Thoughts. But what they wrote was very small poetry.'
'How
true!'
'The
only generalization one can risk is that the greatest works of art have had
great subjects; and that works with small subjects, however accomplished, are
never so good as ...'
'There's
Walter,' said Mrs Betterton, interrupting him. 'Wandering like an unlaid
ghost. Walter!'
At
the sound of his name, Walter turned.
The Betterton - good Lord! And Burlap!
He assumed a smile. But Mrs B.
and his colleague on the Literary World were among the last people he
wanted at this moment to see.
'We
were just discussing greatness in art,' Mrs Betterton
explained. 'Mr Burlap was saying such profound
things.'
She
began to reproduce the profundities for Walter's benefit.
He
meanwhile was wondering why Burlap's manner towards him had been so cold, so
distant, shut, even hostile. That was
the trouble with Burlap. You never knew
where you stood with him. Either he
loved you, or he hated. Life with him
was a series of scenes - scenes of hostility or, even more trying in Walter's
estimation, scenes of affection. One way
or the other, the motion was always flowing.
There were hardly any intervals of comfortably slack water. The tide was always running. Why was it running now towards hostility?
Mrs
Betterton went on with her exposition of the
profundities. To Walter they sounded
curiously like certain paragraphs in that article of Burlap's, the proof of
which he had only that morning been correcting for the printers. Reproduced - explosion after enthusiastic
explosion - from Burlap's spoken reproduction, the article did sound rather
ridiculous. A light dawned. Could that be the reason? He looked at Burlap. His face was stony.
'I'm
afraid I must go,' said Burlap abruptly, when Mrs Betterton
paused.
'But
no,' she protested. 'But why?'
He
made an effort and smiled his Sodoma smile. 'The world is too much with us,' he quoted
mysteriously. He liked saying mysterious
things, dropping them surprisingly into the middle of the conversation.
'But
you're not enough with us,' flattered Mrs Betterton.
'It's
the crowd,' he explained. 'After a time,
I get into a panic. I feel they're
crushing my soul to death. I should
begin to scream if I stayed.' He took
his leave.
'Such
a wonderful man!' Mrs Betterton exclaimed before he
was well out of earshot. 'It must be
wonderful for you to work with him.'
'He's
a very good editor,' said Walter.
'But
I was thinking of his personality.
How shall I say? The spiritual quality
of the man.'
Walter
nodded and said, 'Yes,' rather vaguely.
The spiritual quality of Burlap was just the thing he wasn't very
enthusiastic about.
'In
an age like ours,' Mrs Betterton continued, 'he's an
oasis in the desert of stupid frivolity and cynicism.'
'Some
of his ideas are first rate,' Walter cautiously agreed.
He
wondered how soon he could decently make his escape.
* *
* *
'There's
Walter,' said Lady Edward.
'Walter
who?' asked Bidlake.
Borne by the social currents, they had drifted together again.
'Your
Walter.'
'Oh,
mine.' He was not much interested, but
he followed the direction of her glance.
'What a weed!' he said. He
disliked his children for growing up; growing, they pushed him backwards, year
after year, backwards towards the gulf and the darkness. There was Walter; it was only yesterday he
was born. And yet the fellow must be
five-and-twenty, if he was a day.
'Poor
Walter; he doesn't look at all well.'
'Looks
as though he had worms,' said Bidlake ferociously.
'How's
that deplorable affair of his going?' she asked.
Bidlake shrugged his shoulders. 'As usual, I suppose.'
'I
never met the woman.'
'I
did. She's awful.'
'What,
vulgar?'
'No,
no. I wish she were,' protested Bidlake. 'She's
refined, terribly refined. And she
speaks like this.' He spoke into a
drawling falsetto that was meant to be an imitation of Marjorie's voice. 'Like a sweet little innocent girlie. And so serious, such a highbrow.' He interrupted the imitation with his own
deep laugh. 'Do you know what she said
to me once? I may mention that she
always talks to me about Art. Art with a
capital A. She said': (his voice went up
again to the babyish falsetto) ' "I think there's a place for Fra Angelico and
Rubens." ' He laughed again, homerically. 'What
an imbecile! And she has a nose that's
at least three inches too long.'
* *
* *
Marjorie
had opened the box in which she kept her private papers. All Walter's letters. She untied the ribbon and looked them over
one by one. 'Dear Mrs Carling, I enclose
under separate cover that volume of Keats's Letters I mentioned today. Please do not trouble to return it. I have another copy, which I shall re-read
for the pleasure of accompanying you, even at a distance, through the same
spiritual adventure.'
That
was the first of them. She read it
through and recaptured in memory something of the pleased surprise which that
passage about the spiritual adventure had originally evoked in her. In conversation he had always seemed to
shrink from the direct and personal approach, he was painfully shy. She hadn't expected him to write like that. Later, when he had written to her often, she
became accustomed to his peculiarities.
She took it for granted that he should be bolder with the pen than face
to face. All his love - all of it, at
any rate, that was articulate and all of it that, in the days of his courtship,
was in the least ardent - was in his letters.
The arrangement suited Marjorie perfectly. She would have liked to go on indefinitely
making cultured and verbally burning love by post. She liked the idea of love; what she did not
like was lovers, except at a distance and in imagination. A correspondence course of passion was, for
her, the perfect and ideal relationship with a man. Better still were personal relationships with
women; for women had all the good qualities of men at a distance, with the
added advantage of being actually there.
They could be in the room with you and yet demand no more than a man at
the other end of a system of post-offices.
With his face-to-face shyness and his postal freedom and ardour, Walter
had seemed in Marjorie's eyes to combine the best points of both sexes. And then he was so deeply, so flatteringly
interested in everything she did and thought and felt. Poor Marjorie was not much used to having
people interested in her.
'Sphinx,'
she read in the third of his letters.
(He had called her that because of her enigmatic silences. Carling, for some reason, had called her
Turnip or Dumb-Bell.) 'Sphinx, why do
you hide yourself inside such a shell of silence? One would think you were ashamed of your
goodness and sweetness and intelligence.
But they pop their heads out all the same and in spite of you.'
The
tears came into her eyes. He had been so
king to her, so tender and gentle. And
now ...
'Love,'
she read dimly, through the tears, in the next letter, 'love can transform
physical into spiritual desire; it has the magic power to turn the body into
pure soul ...'
Yes,
he had had those desires too. Even
he. All men had, she supposed. Rather dreadful. She shuddered, remembering Carling,
remembering even Walter with something of the same horror. Yes, even Walter, though he had been
so gentle and considerate. Walter had
understood what she felt. That made it
all the more extraordinary that he should be behaving as he was behaving now. It was as though he had suddenly become
somebody else, become a kind of wild animal, with the animal's cruelty as well
as the animal's lusts.
'How
can he be so cruel?' she wondered. 'How can
he, deliberately? Walter?' Her Walter, the real Walter, was so gentle
and understanding and considerate, so wonderfully unselfish and good. It was for that goodness and gentleness that
she had loved him, in spite of his being a man and having 'those' desires; her
devotion was to that tender, unselfish, considerate Walter, whom she had got to
know and appreciate after they had begun to live together. She had loved even the weak and unadmirable manifestations of his considerateness; he loved
him even when he let himself be overcharged by cabmen and porters, when he gave
handfuls of silver to tramps with obviously untrue stories about jobs at the other
end of the country and no money to pay the fare. He was too sensitively quick to see the other
person's point of view. In his anxiety
to be just to others he was often prepared to be unjust to himself. He was always ready to sacrifice his own
rights rather than run any risk of infringing the rights of others. It was a considerateness, Marjorie realized,
that had become a weakness, that was on the point of turning into a vice; a
considerateness, moreover, that was due to his timidity, his squeamish and
fastidious shrinking from every conflict, even every disagreeable contact. All the same, she loved him for it, loved him
even when it led him to treat her with something less than justice. For having come to regard her as being on the
hither side of the boundary between himself and the rest of the world, he had
sometimes in his excessive considerateness for the rights of others, sacrificed
not only his own rights, but also hers.
How often, for example, she had told him that he was being underpaid for
his work on the Literary World!
She thought of the latest of their conversations on what was to him the
most odious of topics.
'Burlap's
sweating you, Walter,' she had said.
'That
paper's very hard up.' He always had
excuses for the shortcomings of other people towards himself.
'But
why should you let yourself be swindled?'
'I'm
not being swindled.' There was a note of
exasperation in his voice, the exasperation of a man who knows he is in the
wrong. 'And even if I were, I prefer
being swindled to haggling for my pound of flesh. After all, it's my business.'
'And
mine!' She held up the account book on
which she had been busy when the conversation began. 'If you knew the price of vegetables!'
He
had flushed up and left the room without answering. The conversation, the case were typical of
many others. Walter had never been
deliberately unkind to her, only by mistake, out of excessive consideration for
other people and while he was being unkind to himself. She had never resented these injustices. They proved how closely he associated her
with himself. But now, now there was
nothing accidental about his unkindness.
The gentle considerate Walter had disappeared and somebody else -
somebody ruthless and full of hate - was deliberately making her suffer.
* *
* *
Lady
Edward laughed. 'One wonders what he saw
in her, if she's so deplorable as you make out.'
'What
does one ever see in anyone?' John Bidlake spoke in a melancholy tone. Quite suddenly he had begun to feel rather
ill. An oppression in the stomach, a
feeling of sickness, a tendency to hiccough.
It often happened now. Just after
eating. Bicarbonate didn't seem to do
much good. 'In these matters,' he added,
'we're all equally insane.'
'Thanks!'
said Lady Edward, laughing.
Making
an essay to be gallant, 'Present company excepted,' he said with a smile and a
little bow. He stifled another
hiccough. How miserable he was feeling! 'Do you mind if I sit down?' he asked. 'All this standing about ...' He dropped heavily into his chair.
Lady
Edward looked at him with a certain solicitude, but said nothing. She knew how much he hated all references to
age, or illness, or physical weakness.
'It
must have been that caviar,' he was thinking.
'That beastly caviar.' He
violently hated caviar. Every sturgeon
in the Black Sea was his personal enemy.
'Poor
Walter!' said Lady Edward, taking up the conversation where it had been
dropped. 'And he has such a talent.'
John
Bidlake snorted contemptuously.
Lady
Edward perceived that she had said the wrong thing - by mistake, genuinely by
mistake, this time. She changed the
subject.
'And
Elinor and Quarles?'
'Leaving
Bombay tomorrow,' John Bidlake answered
telegraphically. He was too busy
thinking of the caviar and his visceral sensations to be more responsive.