OR
CARNAL SACRIFICE
Long Prose
Copyright © 2012 John O'Loughlin
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CHAPTER
ONE
Keith Logan hadn't been
to a party in years and, now that he had met the hostess and been escorted into
the tightly packed room where the festivities were taking place, he felt
curiously shy and embarrassed, like a young adolescent on his first date. The room was certainly more crowded than
expectations had led him to believe, and with the crowd went the noise of
chatter and laughter, occasional coughs and shouts, elaborate gestures and
sudden jerks.
Casting around for psychological support amidst the welter of
strange faces, Logan's gaze fell upon the rather large head of the art critic
Martin Thurber, and he immediately set about drawing the man's attention with a
clear if rather brief wave of his hand, which, as if by a miracle, duly
produced positive results. It was
Thurber who had invited him along to the party in the first place, so it was
only proper that the one familiar and vaguely sedate face in the room should
act as a kind of life-support harness and straightaway come floating to his
rescue through the choppy sea of animated faces swimmingly at large there. The hostess, who had so promptly answered the
door to him a moment before, was already being pulled away by the call of duty to
answer it to someone else, leaving Logan stranded in her turbulent wake just
inside the large brightly lit drawing room in which he now floundered. Hence the curious shyness
and embarrassment which had so suddenly descended upon him, in the absence of his
customary self-confidence.
But Martin Thurber was
coming to his rescue, brimming over, it appeared, with
self-confidence and pleasure. "So
glad you could make it, Keith," he announced, extending what seemed like a
life-saving hand to the new arrival's nearest shoulder
and gently patting it a few times.
"I was beginning to fear you weren't coming."
Logan smiled in an ambivalent cross between apology and
reassurance at the fair-haired, clean-shaven face before him, the light-blue
eyes of which twinkled mysteriously and even a shade mischievously, it seemed
to him, in the festive atmosphere. It
was a wonder to himself that he had actually come, since the prospect of visiting
this Highgate house unaccompanied, and without any foreknowledge whatsoever of
who or what he would encounter there, had more than once cast a serious shadow
of doubt over his prior resolution to turn up.
But to have backed down at the last moment, after he had assured Thurber
of his pressing desire to attend, would hardly have contributed towards the
friendship which had recently sprung-up between them and, since he had precious
few friends anyway, he thought it expedient not to disappoint the poor
fellow. "I didn't want to turn up
too early," he averred, following the termination of his ambiguous smile.
"And no difficulty finding your way here, I trust?"
Thurber remarked.
"Nothing to grumble about,"
"Good."
Thurber's eyes twinkled in an even more mysterious, not to say
mischievous, fashion. He was just about to
add some banality about no address being easier to find when a burst of
piercing laughter from a group of revellers to their left interrupted the flow
of his thoughts, inducing him, instead, to say: "Well, now that you've
arrived, allow me to introduce you to our host."
A few yards to their right a well-groomed, silver-haired man of
average build but more than average height was standing on the edge of one such
group, gracefully chatting to an attractive young woman with light-green eyes
who peered into his handsome face like a person intent
upon discovering the secrets of the universe there. It was towards him that Thurber boldly
advanced, dragging his reluctant acquaintance along by the sleeve.
"Allow me to introduce a highly talented novelist by name
of Keith Logan," he requestfully interposed,
compelling the man's attention.
"Keith, this is Edward Hurst, our magnanimous host!"
Hurst smiled magnanimously before extending a rather clammy
hand, which the newcomer dutifully clasped.
"Delighted to meet you," he announced, focusing a sharp pair
of dark-grey eyes upon the latter's aquiline nose. "I've heard a little about you from
Martin, though I haven't yet got round to reading any of your books. But let me introduce you to someone who may
have - Miss Greta Ryan, who is something of a writer in her own way."
He was of course referring to the attractive young woman beside
him, whose attention had, in the meantime, shifted down a gear, so to speak, in
its change of direction. She extended a
slender hand and smiled shyly through a moist pair of sensuous lips. "I'm afraid I'll have to disappoint you
too," she confessed, as
"He's purely an abstractionist," Thurber revealed,
coming to his social rescue again.
"So what he writes is senseless from a representational or, rather,
narrative and descriptive standpoint."
"Really?"
"Not 'completely',"
The dark-haired woman to whom he had just been introduced
wanted to know why readers should be made conscious of the 'sound and symbolic
nature' of words instead of being told a story, as with most novels. It didn't quite make sense to her, she
confessed.
"It's not supposed to make sense!"
"No, in actual fact it only makes sense from a
philosophical and avant-garde angle," said
"Even to the extent of writing meaningless novels?"
"Absolutely,"
This opinion could hardly be expected to win much approval from
people like Edward Hurst and Greta Ryan, who were already a trifle tipsy and
therefore not particularly interested in hearing what a sober abstract novelist
had to say concerning the justification of his craft. If
It wasn't really, but Logan pretended otherwise, saying:
"Yes, a beer would do fine," as he briefly turned towards the table
on which bottles of wine, sherry, gin, whisky, and beer stood packed closely
together waiting, like whores in a brothel, for prospective clients. Although the table was partly obscured by
intervening guests, enough of it was visible from where he stood to leave him
in no doubt as to the heterogeneous nature of its alcoholic contents, about
which he felt obliged to entertain a private misgiving.
But Greta Ryan, who was less under the influence than their
magnanimous host, seemed unwilling to let the matter rest where Logan had so
awkwardly dropped it and asked him, in a slightly-strained and mocking
tone-of-voice, whether he really thought what he wrote would induce people to
turn away from symbols and dedicate themselves to the elusive attainment of
pure knowledge and enlightenment instead?
Wasn't it more likely that they would simply become bored with it and
return to something more meaningful?
"Well, whether or not they do, the essential thing is that
I should continue to explore the field in which I'm working until it wins wider
approval, and not be disheartened or deflected by the indifference and even
hostility it may incur from various people in the meantime," Logan replied
confidently. "As a pioneer in the
realm of literary progress, I must continue to forge ahead, in accordance with
an appropriately pertinent response to the contemporary urban environment, no
matter what others might think. If a
majority of the reading public prefer straightforward stories of one kind or
another, that's too bad! I can't force
everyone up to a level transcending the fictional or, indeed, expect them to
appreciate what I'm doing when they're insufficiently motivated or qualified to
do so. I can only set an example, lead
the way forwards in response to my duty as a serious writer, and hope that the
comparatively small percentage of persons who now appreciate my work will be
augmented, in due course, by a much wider public. By which time, however, the equivalent of the
present few will doubtless have given-up reading altogether, having attained to
a more transcendental context than currently exists, in which abstract
literature, no less than abstract music or art, would have ceased to appeal to
them."
Thurber had meanwhile returned with a glass of foaming beer,
which he handed straight to
"Yes, I feel that it may be of some significance in
furthering the rapidly escalating process of de-intellectualization upon which
we're currently embarked, and thus contribute towards freeing us from the
tyranny of verbal concepts," the abstract novelist averred. "It's merely a milestone on the road to total
emancipation, timeless bliss. Whether we outgrow language, and hence literature, in another
century or after several centuries ... is relatively unimportant. The essential thing is that we should eventually outgrow it,
and I have no doubt that this is what we're currently engaged in doing - each
according to his own fashion. If
primitive men were beneath language, then it seems not
unlikely that future men will be above it, especially the most advanced future
men - those on the point of becoming godlike."
Thurber shook his head slightly and tipped back a stiff draught
of wine. The conversation was much too
serious for his liking, and hardly the kind of thing he expected Eddie Hurst
would take kindly to, bearing in mind his hedonistic nature. The beer in
"Well, in a way I suppose I do," Thurber replied
half-heartedly, unsure of whether to take a conservative or a libertarian
stance. "At least I'm of the
opinion that, largely thanks to media like cinema and television, we're now
taking pure seeing and abstract contemplation more seriously than ever
before. Some of us are, at any
rate."
"And would you agree that we're in the process of becoming
godlike?" Greta asked, an ironic smile on her
lips. "Or even goddess-like?"
she added, as an afterthought.
Thurber glanced uneasily at Keith Logan and noted the slightly
pained expression on the latter's ordinarily bland face. "Well, that's not really for me to
say," he confessed, "since I don't make a
study of such matters - unlike my, er, learned friend
here. But for what it's worth, I do
believe that we're closer to the godly these days than to the beastly. We're advanced men of sorts."
"Yes, I think it's fair to say that the principal tendency
of human evolution is towards the godlike,"
"And how, pray, do you conceive of the godlike?"
Greta wanted to know, taking up the challenge.
"Yes, how do you?"
Unruffled, Logan replied: "The godlike appertains to a
condition of life beyond man, in which the superconscious
completely triumphs over the subconscious, and consequently egocentric dualism,
appertaining to man at virtually any stage of his evolution, is
transcended."
"The superconscious?"
"Neither had I," Greta echoed, with a titter of
disrespectful laughter.
"Well we do, which is why we happen to have a
consciousness,"
"Really?"
"More correctly, the fusion-point between the subconscious
and superconscious parts of the psyche which,
translated into physiological terminology, corresponds to what have been called
the old brain and the new brain, as discussed by Koestler
in, amongst other works, Janus - A Summing Up,"
Logan replied, "the old brain being predominantly an emotional and
sensuous phenomenon, the new brain, by contrast, having intellectual and
spiritual implications which set it morally apart."
"I'm afraid I haven't read the book in question,"
"Well, whether or not you've read it," the writer
rejoined, "the fact remains that a dichotomy in the psyche has long been
acknowledged by psychologists and thinkers, and this dichotomy should be
equated, in psychological terminology, with the subconscious and the superconscious, the meeting-point of which gives rise to
everyday consciousness as we generally understand it."
Edward Hurst appeared to be even more perplexed than
before. He didn't like the idea that
Freud and the few other psychologists he had bothered to read in the past may
not have said the last word on the psyche or, indeed, that what they had said may not always
have corresponded to absolute truth. He
didn't like it one little bit! Even so,
he wasn't prepared to believe that this abstract novelist, whom he hadn't even
set eyes on prior to Thurber's impertinent intrusion, was in possession of a
more comprehensive assessment of the psyche than the textbook authorities
themselves, irrespective of whether the textbooks he happened to have read
weren't exactly the most up-to-date ones but, like their authors, a shade
time-worn. Still, let the novelist
speak, let him entertain! Consciousness,
then, was a consequence of the fusion of subconscious and superconscious
minds, and all one had to do to become godlike was transcend this fusion and
break away into - what?
"Pure spirit, in which the ego ceases to have any say and
we attain to the post-human millennium, to the blissful salvation which, in its
wisdom, Christianity has been promising us for centuries,"
"You mean our future descendants will," interposed
Thurber, who was reminded of what he had already learnt on the subject from
previous discussions with the novelist.
"Yes, precisely!" the latter rejoined. "Not us personally but, rather, those
who'll correspond to the culmination of human evolution and thus vindicate,
through their spiritual perfection, the long and often difficult struggle of
humanity to perpetuate itself. We exist,
believe it or not, as mortal links in the chain of human evolution, as means to
a higher end, torchbearers on the road to ultimate truth. Even the great mystics, such as Saint Teresa
and St John of the Cross, were no more than links, if relatively important
ones, in the evolutionary chain - pointers, as it were, in the general
direction of millennial salvation. Their
occasional moments of ecstasy, of spiritual enlightenment, during which the ego
was eclipsed by the superconscious, would indeed
appear paltry by comparison with the ecstatic experiences of people living,
say, hundreds of years into the future, who will doubtless be able to tune-in,
as it were, to their superconscious minds on a much
more frequent, not to say intensive, basis.
And compared with beings who spent all of their time in the superconscious, who had become completely godlike, such
transient ecstasies of transcendent beatitude as were experienced by the
leading mystics of the past would indeed pale to a comparative insignificance -
highly significant though they undoubtedly were to their recipients at the
moment of experience! But anyone who had
transcended the subconscious - and hence egocentric reference - to the extent
of existing wholly in the superconscious wouldn't be
concerned with what had gone before anyway, with the comparatively modest degree
of enlightenment attained by those who'd had the misfortune to have been born
into a lower stage of human evolution.
For his consciousness would be totally immersed in the divine light,
and, as such, no reflections on the thorny subject of spiritual progress
through the centuries would occur to him.
He would have ceased to relate to the world of human evolution, having
left the last vestiges of humanity behind."
At this point, Greta Ryan cast a dubious glance at her host and
sought temporary refuge in the sweet wine to-hand. For his part,
No, he didn't like the idea of being no more than a fragile
link in a terribly long chain one little bit!
Yet although he was impatient with the conversational trend, and annoyed
that a perfectly frivolous evening was becoming, in spite of alcoholic
indulgence, a matter of serious debate, he couldn't resist the temptation to
ask his guest what he thought about the Afterlife - in other words, about the
prospect of life-after-death - and whether it didn't have more applicability to
salvation than this business of a post-human millennium. "I mean, don't you think that salvation
will come, if it's to come at all, the other side of the grave?"
Keith Logan emphatically shook his head. "I've no use for traditional concepts of
life-after-death," he confessed, casting his gaze upon all three listeners
successively. "Neither in the sense
of a paradise to which the Good are admitted, nor in the rather more puzzling
sense of a disembodied state which enables spirits to travel around, visit
elderly females and dictate messages, dream their own dreams, perform miraculous
feats of a mathematical order, or do any number of other things scarcely
imaginable to the living."
"What about the Oriental concept of a posthumous Clear
Light ... with which the spirits of the dead either merge, and thus experience
spiritual salvation in undiluted transcendence or, assuming they can't bring
themselves to do that, continue to dream their past and, indeed, certain future
experiences until such time as, circumstances permitting, they can return to
the world in the guise of a new-born child?" This time it was Greta who was putting the
question, and she was of course alluding to the type of afterlife hypothesis
explored by Aldous Huxley in Time Must Have a Stop
- a novel in which Eustace Barnack, its principal
character and afterlife 'guinea pig', is given a choice between merging with
the Clear Light of the Void or retaining his egocentric personality, and
eventually opts for the latter, thereby necessitating reincarnation.
Again
"That isn't a view Aldous Huxley
would have agreed with," Greta countered, recalling to mind what the great
author had written on the subject of the Ground and its relation to the Father
in The
Devils of Loudun.
"I quite agree,"
"So, according to your assessment of religious evolution,
the Ground is purely illusory," Greta rejoined in a solemn tone-of-voice.
"I find it difficult not to believe so," confirmed
Logan, who was now obliged to compromise with the reference he had made to
Huxley's theory and not deepen the discussion to include a distinction between
the Creator as Jehovah and the Creator as Father, Judaic and Christian
alternatives, and the possible closer association of the Ground to the former
than to the latter, which, after all, was less an Oriental extrapolation from,
in all probability, a major star of the Galaxy ... than one partly
extrapolated, in Occidental fashion, from the sun and partly from the phallus
of pagan precedent, in order to accommodate both the earthly Mother and the
lunar Son - a thing which the Jews, with their religious objectivity in regard
to the concept of Creator, had been unprepared to do. And for good reason, since there is no
contiguity between what is truly stellar on the alpha plane of creative deity
and what is extrapolated from the moon as a 'Son of God', and therefore no
possibility of a solar Father in the Christian sense. "All that really concerns us as
post-Christian transcendentalists," he went on, "is this intimation
of God - as joy, light, spirit, etc., - in the superconscious
mind. Outside of it there is just the
world, the planets, stars, galaxies. If
the Holy Spirit is to emerge from anywhere, it can only be from the superconscious."
Having maintained a discreet if peeved silence during the
preceding rather too esoteric conversation for his liking, Edward Hurst now
ventured to ask the novelist whether he really thought that man would
eventually become godlike by transcending the subconscious mind
altogether. "After all," he
continued, snorting slightly in supercilious detachment, "isn't it
somewhat unlikely that man will ever desire to live wholly in a transcendent
state-of-mind, and thus forsake all consciousness of the outside world?"
Greta endorsed this question with a snigger. "And how would he survive?" she
wanted to know.
"Obviously, I'm not in a position to know for sure what
will happen,"
At this remark,
"I shouldn't be at all surprised,"
"Really?"
"Well, I'd find it extremely difficult to believe that we
just appeared on the face of the earth, kind of out-of-the-blue, especially in
a world where everything can be claimed to have evolved from something lower, including
the apes themselves," Logan retorted, frankly surprised by Hurst's
naiveté. "After all, we know that
the earliest men tended to look more beastly, more ape-like in appearance, than
their properly human successors. In all
probability, their immediate predecessors were if not apes then certainly
something correspondingly bestial and pre-human. They doubtless went on four legs, or two legs
and two arms, more often than they walked."
"And presumably they were subject to subconscious
dominion," Greta suggested, returning to the fray.
"Certainly to a greater extent than the earliest
men,"
"For a life form completely dominated by the
subconscious," he went on, warming to his theme, "one has to turn to
the plant world - to vegetables, trees, flowers, shrubs, etc., which are wholly
sensuous and constitute the lowest level of organic life, a level which
evolution is gradually working away from in the guise of man who, if he subsequently
succeeds in transcending his humanity, should attain to a level radically
antithetical to that of subconscious stupor ... in superconscious
bliss, and thus bring evolution to completion.
Thus it isn't so much the beasts that are antithetical to the godlike as
... the plants - those victims of perpetual darkness. And because a life form exists which
signifies complete enslavement to the subconscious, we have no reason to doubt
that a life form can't eventually be brought into existence which will signify
complete freedom from the subconscious and, consequently, total allegiance to
the superconscious.
The fact of the existence of the one presupposes the possibility of the
future existence of the other - the former in diversity, the latter in
unity. We have no reason, therefore, to
deride it out-of-hand."
"So it would appear that earthly evolution is a journey,
so to speak, from plants to gods or, rather, the godlike," Thurber
remarked, feeling it was about time he contributed something to the debate again,
"and that animals and men are the in-between developments en route, the
sharers of utilitarian consciousness."
"Precisely!"
"You must have a poor opinion of nature," Greta
deduced, following a short pause.
"Generally speaking I suppose I have,"
"But surely nature is a part of God's creation,"
Hurst objected, frowning menacingly, "and that if one is to worship God,
one should do so through His creations, through the beauty of the flowers and
the goodness and wholesomeness of the fruit, vegetables, grain, etc., which He
has caused to grow. Not to mention
through the beauty of the autonomous life-forms He has also made."
"It's all very well to worship what you call God through
such natural creations as we can take pleasure in or deduce some profit
from," Logan retorted. "But what of those creations that we can't? What, for example, of all the stinging nettles
that exist and would doubtless exist in far greater abundance if man didn't
take the trouble to root them out or cut them back? What of all the weeds that likewise would
exist in far greater abundance if allowed to do so? What of those trees or bushes upon which grow
various types of poison berry? What of
the prickly thorns, dense bracken, destructive creepers, poisonous toadstools,
hurtful brambles? What, too, of the disease-ridden
swamps, treacherous quicksands, man-eating plants,
active volcanoes, periodic earthquakes, suffocating jungles? What of tarantulas, vipers, piranhas, sharks,
mosquitoes, vultures, lice, rats, skunks, barracudas, stingrays, men-of-war,
wolves, foxes, pythons, flies, gnats, crocodiles, locusts, wasps, etc., ad nauseam?
Tiger, tiger, burning bright
In the forests of the night.
What immortal hand or eye
Dare frame thy fearful symmetry?
"And what of all those creatures who go on two legs whom
one is unable to take pleasure in - congenital lunatics and criminals, ruthless
oppressors and exploiters, mass murderers and torturers, hypocrites and liars,
bullies and vandals, rapists and perverts, et al? Is one to thank God for having put them into the world,
too?" He looked from face to face,
dwelling more lengthily on
"So you assume!" snapped Hurst with the air of a man
who knew better, and, desiring to restore himself to the party spirit the
intellectual intrusion of Keith Logan had effectively dampened, he abruptly
turned away from the three people in whose presence he had spent the past
thirty minutes and swiftly headed in the direction of a vivacious group of
conversationalists across the far side of the room, whose revelry suggested
that they were oblivious of anything Logan might have said.
"Well," sighed Greta, suddenly conscious of an uneasy
vacuum created by their host's departure, "I suppose I ought to refill my
wine glass while the opportunity prevails." And, so saying, she took herself off in the
general direction of the booze.
Thurber shook his head slightly and sought temporary refuge in
his own glass of wine. The evening
hadn't really turned out as he had hoped, and largely because he hadn't
expected
"Well," Logan sighed in turn, after he had taken
stock of the room's other human contents, most of whom looked pretty
unprepossessing to him, "is there anyone else you wish to introduce me
to?"
"Er, yes, I suppose there
is," Thurber responded somewhat shamefacedly, and this time he emitted a
faint but audible grunt of despair.