Thomas Mann's
DEATH IN VENICE
Translated by H.T. Lowe-Porter
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GUSTAVE
ASCHENBACH - or von Aschenbach, as he had been known
officially since his fiftieth birthday - had set out alone from his house in
Prince Regent Street, Munich, for an extended walk. It was a spring afternoon in that year of
grace 19---, when Europe sat upon the anxious seat beneath a menace that hung
over its head for months. Aschenbach had sought the open soon after tea. He was overwrought by a morning of hard,
nerve-taxing work, work which had not ceased to exact his uttermost in the way
of sustained concentration, conscientiousness, and tact; and after the noon
meal found himself powerless to check the onward sweep
of the productive mechanism within him, that motus
animi continuus in
which, according to Cicero, eloquence resides.
He had sought but not found relaxation in sleep - though the wear and
tear upon his system had come to make a daily nap more and more imperative -
and now undertook a walk, in the hope that air and exercise might send him back
refreshed to a good evening's work.
May had begun, and after weeks of cold and
wet a mock summer had set in. The
English Gardens, though in tenderest leaf, felt as
sultry as in August and were full of vehicles and pedestrians near the
city. But towards Aumeister
the paths were solitary and still, and Aschenbach
strolled thither, stopping awhile to watch the lively crowds in the restaurant
garden with its fringe of carriages and cabs.
Thence he took his homeward way outside the park and across the sunset
fields. By the time he reached the North
Cemetery, however, he felt tired, and a storm was brewing above Föhring; so he waited at the stopping-place for a train to
carry him back to the city.
He found the neighbourhood quite
empty. Not a wagon in sight, either on
the paved Ungerstrasse, with its gleaming tramlines
stretching off towards Schwabing, nor on the Föhring highway.
Nothing stirred behind the hedge in the stonemason's yard, where
crosses, monuments, and commemorative tablets made a supernumerary and
untenanted graveyard opposite the real one.
The mortuary chapel, a structure in Byzantine style, stood facing it,
silent in the gleam of the ebbing day.
Its façade was adorned with Greek crosses and tinted hieratic designs,
and displayed a symmetrically arranged selection of scriptural texts in gilded
letters, all of them with a bearing upon the future life, such as: 'They are
entering into the House of the Lord' and 'May the Light Everlasting shine upon
them.' Aschenbach
beguiled some minutes of his waiting with reading these formulas and letting
his mind's eye lose itself in their mystical meaning. He was brought back to reality by the sight
of a man standing in the portico, above the two apocalyptic beasts that guarded
the staircase, and something not quite usual in the man's appearance gave his
thoughts a fresh turn.
Whether he had come out of the hall
through the bronze doors or mounted unnoticed from outside, it was impossible
to tell. Aschenbach
casually inclined to the first idea. He
was of medium height, thin, beardless, and strikingly snub-nosed; he belonged
to the red-haired type and possessed its milky, freckled skin. He was obviously not Bavarian; and the broad,
straight-brimmed straw hat he had on even made him look distinctly exotic. True, he had the indigenous rucksack buckled
on his back, wore a belted suit of yellowish woollen stuff, apparently frieze,
and carried a grey mackintosh cape across his left forearm, which was propped
against his waist. In his right hand,
slantwise to the ground, he held an iron-shod stick, and braced himself against
its crook, with his legs crossed. His
chin was up, so that the Adam's apple looked very bald in the lean neck rising
from the loose shirt: and he stood there sharply peering up into space out of
colourless, red-lashed eyes, while two pronounced perpendicular furrows showed
on his forehead in curious contrast to his little turned-up nose. Perhaps his heightened and heightening
position helped out the impression Aschenbach
received. At any rate, standing there as
though at survey, the man had a bold and domineering, even a ruthless, air, and
his lips completed the picture by seeming to curl back, either by reason of
some deformity or else because he grimaced, being blinded by the sun in his
face; they laid bare the long, white, glistening teeth to the gums.
Aschenbach's
gaze, though unawares, had very likely been inquisitive and tactless; for he
became suddenly conscious that the stranger was returning it, and indeed so
directly, with such hostility, such plain intent to force the withdrawal of the
other's eyes, that Aschenbach felt an unpleasant
twinge, and turning his back began to walk along the hedge, hastily resolving
to give the man no further heed. He had
forgotten him the next minute. Yet whether
the pilgrim air the stranger wore kindled his fantasy or whether some other
physical or psychical influence came into play, he could not tell; but he felt
the most surprising consciousness of a widening of inward barriers, a kind of
vaulting unrest, a youthfully ardent thirst for distant scenes - a feeling so
lively and so new, or at least so long outgrown and forgot, that he stood there
rooted to the spot, his eyes on the ground and his hands clasped behind him,
exploring these sentiments of his, their bearing and scope.
True, what he felt was no more than a longing
to travel; yet coming upon him with such suddenness and passion as to resemble
a seizure, almost a hallucination.
Desire projected itself visually: his fancy, not quite yet lulled since
morning, imaged the marvels and terrors of the manifold earth. He saw.
He beheld a landscape, a tropical marshland, beneath a reeking sky,
steaming, monstrous, rank - a kind of primeval
wilderness-world of islands, morasses, and alluvial channels. Hairy palm-trunks rose near and far out of
lush brakes of fern, out of buttons of crass vegetation, fat, swollen, thick
with incredible bloom. There were trees,
misshapen as a dream, that dropped their naked roots
straight through the air into the ground or into water that was stagnant and
shadowy and glassy-green, where mammoth milk-white blossoms floated, and
strange high-shouldered birds with curious bills stood gazing sidewise without
sound or stir. Among the knotted joints
of a bamboo thicket the eyes of a crouching tiger gleamed - and he felt his
heart throb with terror, yet with a longing inexplicable. Then the vision vanished. Aschenbach, shaking
his head, took up his march once more along the hedge of the stonemason's yard.
He had, at least ever since he commanded
means to get about the world at will, regarded travel as a necessary evil, to
be endured now and again willy-nilly for the sake of one's health. Too busy with the tasks imposed upon him by
his own ego and the European soul, too laden with the care and duty to create,
too preoccupied to be an amateur of the gay outer world, he had been content to
know as much of the earth's surface as he could without stirring far outside
his own sphere - had, indeed, never even been tempted to leave Europe. Now more than ever, since his life was on the
wane, since he could no longer brush aside as fanciful his artist fear of not
having done, of not being finished before the works ran down, he had confined
himself to close range, had hardly stepped outside the charming city which he
had made his home and the rude country house he had built in the mountains,
whither he went to spend the rainy summers.
And so the new impulse which thus late and
suddenly swept over him was speedily made to conform to the pattern of
self-discipline he had followed from his youth up. He had meant to bring his work, for which he
lived, to a certain point before leaving for the country,
and the thought of a leisurely ramble across the globe, which should take him
away from his desk for months, was too fantastic and upsetting to be seriously
entertained. Yet the source of the
unexpected contagion was known to him only too well. This yearning for new and distant scenes,
this craving for freedom, release, forgetfulness - they were, he admitted to
himself, an impulse towards flight, flight from the spot which was the daily
theatre of a rigid, cold, and passionate service. That service he loved,
had even almost come to love the enervating daily struggle between a proud,
tenacious, well-tried will and this growing fatigue, which no-one must suspect,
nor the finished product by any faintest sign that his inspiration could ever
flag or misfire. On the other hand, it
seemed the part of common sense not to span the bow too far, not to suppress
summarily a need that so unequivocally asserted itself. He thought of his work, and the place where
yesterday and again today he had been forced to lay it down, since it would not
yield either to patient effort or a swift coup de main. Again and again he had tried to break or
untie the knot - only to retire at last from the attack with a shiver of
repugnance. Yet the difficulty was
actually not a great one; what sapped his strength was distaste for the task,
betrayed by a fastidiousness he could not longer satisfy. In his youth, indeed, the nature and inmost
essence of the literary gift had been, to him, this very scrupulosity; for it
had bridled and tempered his sensibilities, knowing full well that feeling is
prone to be content with easy gains and blithe half-perfection. So now, perhaps, feeling, thus tyrannized,
avenged itself by leaving him, refusing from now on to carry and wing his art,
and taking away with it all the ecstasy he had known in form and
expression. Not that he was doing bad
work. So much, at least, the years had
brought him, that at any moment he might feel tranquilly assured of
mastery. But he got no joy of it - not
though a nation paid it homage. To him
it seemed his work had ceased to be marked by that fiery play of fancy which is
the product of joy, and more, and more potently, than any intrinsic content,
forms in turn the joy of the receiving world.
He dreaded the summer in the country, alone with the maid who prepared
his food and the man who served him; dreaded to see the familiar mountain peaks
and walls that would shut him up again with his heavy discontent. What he needed was a break, an interim
existence, a means of passing time, other air and a new stock of blood, to make
the summer tolerable and productive.
Good, then, he would go on a journey.
Not far - not all the way to the tigers.
A night in a wagon-lit, three or four weeks of lotus-eating at
some of the gay world's playgrounds in the lovely south....
So ran his thoughts, while the clang of
the electric tram drew nearer down the Ungerstrasse;
and as he mounted the platform he decided to devote the evening to a study of
maps and railway guides. Once in, he
bethought him to look back after the man in the straw hat, the companion of
this brief interval which had after all been so fruitful. But he was not in his former place, nor in
the tram itself, nor yet at the next stop; in short, his
whereabouts remained a mystery.
Gustave Aschenbach was born
at L----, a country town in the province of Silesia. He was the son of an upper official in the
judicature, and his forbears had all been officers, judges, departmental
functionaries - men who lived their strict, decent, sparing lives in the
service of king and state. Only once
before had a livelier mentality - in the quality of a clergyman - turned up
among them; but swifter, more perceptive blood had in the generation before the
poet's flowed into the stock from the mother's side, she being the daughter of
a Bohemian musical conductor. It was
from her he had the foreign traits that betrayed themselves in his
appearance. The union of dry,
conscientious officialdom and ardent, obscure impulse, produced an artist - and
this particular artist: author of the lucid and vigorous prose epic on the life
of Frederick the Great; careful, tireless weaver of the richly patterned
tapestry entitled Maia, a novel that gathers
up the threads of many human destinies in the warp of a single idea; creator of
that powerful narrative The Abject, which taught a whole grateful
generation that a man can still be capable of moral resolution even after he
has plumbed the depths of knowledge; and lastly - to complete the tale of works
of his mature period - the writer of that impassioned discourse on the theme of
Mind and Art whose ordered force and antithetical eloquence led serious critics
to rank it with Schiller's Simple and Sentimental Poetry.
Aschenbach's
whole soul, from the very beginning, was bent on fame - and thus, while not
precisely precocious, yet thanks to the unmistakable trenchancy of his personal
accent he was early ripe and ready for a career. Almost before he was out of high school he
had a name. Ten years later he had
learned to sit at his desk and sustain and live up to his growing reputation,
to write gracious and pregnant phrases in letters that must needs be brief, for
many claims press upon the solid and successful man. At forty, worn down by the strains and
stresses of his actual task, he had to deal with a daily post heavy with
tributes from his own and foreign countries.
Remote on the one hand from the banal, on
the other from the eccentric, his genius was calculated to win at once the
adhesion of the general public and the admiration, both sympathetic and
stimulating, of the connoisseur. From
childhood up he was pushed on every side to achievement,
and achievement of no ordinary kind; and so his young days never knew the sweet
idleness and blithe laissez allez that belong
to youth. A nice observer once said of
him in company - it was at the time when he fell ill in Vienna in his
thirty-fifth year: 'You see, Aschenbach has always
lived like this' - here the speaker closed the fingers of his left hand to a
fist - 'never like this' - and he let his open hand hang relaxed from the back
of his chair. It was apt. And this attitude was the more morally
valiant in that Aschenbach was not by nature robust -
he was only called to the constant tension of his career, not actually born to
it.
By medical advice he had been kept from
school and educated at home. He had
grown up solitary, without comradeship; yet had early been driven to see that
he belonged to those whose talent is not so much out of the common as is the
physical basis on which talent relies for its fulfilment. It is a seed that gives early of its fruit,
whose powers seldom reach a ripe old age.
But his favourite motto was 'Hold fast'; indeed, in his novel on the
life of Frederick the Great he envisaged nothing else than the apotheosis of
the old hero's word of command, 'Durchhalten'',
which seemed to him the epitome of fortitude under suffering. Besides, he deeply desired to live to a good
old age, for it was his conviction that only the artist to whom it has been
granted to be fruitful on all stages of our human scene can be truly great, or
universal, or worthy of honour.
Bearing the burden of his genius, then,
upon such slender shoulders and resolved to go so far, he had the more need of
discipline - and discipline, fortunately, was his native inheritance from the
father's side. At forty, at fifty, he
was still living as he had commenced to live in the years when others are prone
to waste and revel, dream high thoughts and postpone fulfilment. He began his day with a cold shower over
chest and back; then, setting a pair of tall wax candles in silver holders at
the head of his manuscript, he sacrificed to art, in two or three hours of
almost religious fervour, the powers he had assembled in sleep. Outsiders might be pardoned for believing
that his Maia world and the epic
amplitude revealed by the life of Frederick were a manifestation of great power
working under high pressure, that they came forth, as
it were, all in one breath. It was the
more triumph for his morale; for the truth was that they were heaped up to
greatness in layer after layer, in long days of work, out of hundreds and
hundreds of single inspirations; they owed their excellence, both of mass and
detail, to one thing and one alone: that their creator could hold out for years
under the strain of the same piece of work, with an endurance and a tenacity of
purpose like that which had conquered his native province of Silesia, devoting
to actual composition none but the best and freshest hours.
For an intellectual product of any value
to exert an immediate influence which shall also be deep and lasting, it must
rest on an inner harmony, yes, an affinity, between the personal destiny of its
author and that of his contemporaries in general. Men do not know why they award fame to one
work of art rather than another. Without
being in the faintest connoisseurs, they think to justify the warmth of their
commendations by discovering in it a hundred virtues, whereas the real ground
of their applause is inexplicable - it is sympathy. Aschenbach had once
given direct expression - though in an unobtrusive place - to the idea that
almost everything conspicuously great is great in despite: has come into being
in defiance of affliction and pain, poverty, destitution, bodily weakness,
vice, passion, and a thousand other obstructions. And that was more than observation - it was
the fruit of experience, it was precisely the formula of his life and fame, it
was the key to his work. What wonder,
then, if it was also the fixed character, the outward gesture, of his most
individual figures?
The new type of hero favoured by Aschenbach, and recurring many times in his works, had
early been analysed by a shrewd critic: 'The conception of an intellectual and
virginal manliness, which clenches its teeth and stands in modest defiance of
the swords and spears that pierce its side.'
That was beautiful, it was spirituel,
it was exact, despite the suggestion of too great
passivity it held. Forbearance in the
face of fate, beauty constant under torture, are not
merely passive. They are a positive
achievement, an explicit triumph; and the figure of Sebastian is the most
beautiful symbol, if not of art as a whole, yet certainly of the art we speak
of here. Within that world of Aschenbach's creation were exhibited many phases of his
theme: there was the aristocratic self-command that is eaten out within and for
as long as it can conceals its biologic decline from the eyes of the world; the
sere and ugly outside, hiding the embers of smouldering fire - and having power
to fan them to so pure a flame as to challenge supremacy in the domain of
beauty itself; the pallid languors of the flesh, contrasted
with the fiery ardours of the spirit within., which
can fling a whole proud people down at the foot of the Cross, at the feet of
its own sheer self-abnegation; the gracious bearing preserved in the stern,
stark service of form; the unreal, precarious existence of the born intrigant with its swiftly enervating alternation of
schemes and desires - all these human fates and many more of their like one
read in Aschenbach's pages, and reading them might
doubt the existence of any other kind of heroism than the heroism born of
weakness. And, after all, what kind
could be truer to the spirit of the times?
Gustave Aschenbach
was the poet-spokesman of all those who labour at the edge of exhaustion; of
the over-burdened, of those who are already worn out but still hold themselves
upright; of all our modern moralizers of accomplishment, with stunted growth
and scanty resources, who yet contrive by skilful husbanding and prodigious
spasms of will to produce, at least for a while, the effect of greatness. There are many such,
they are the heroes of the age. And in Aschenbach's pages they saw themselves; he justified, he
exalted them, he sang their praise - and they, they were grateful, they
heralded his fame.
He had been young and crude with the times
and by them badly counselled. He had
taken false steps, blundered, exposed himself, offended in speech and writing
against tact and good sense. But he had
attained to honour, and honour, he used to say, is the natural goal towards
which every considerable talent presses with whip and spur. Yes, one might put it that his whole career
had been one conscious and overweening ascent to honour, which left in the rear
all the misgivings or self-derogation which might have hampered him.
What pleases the public is lively and
vivid delineation which makes no demands on the intellect; but passionate and
absolutist youth can only be enthralled by a problem. And Aschenbach was
as absolute, as problematical, as any youth of them all. He had done homage to intellect, had overworked
the soil of knowledge and ground up her seed-corn; had turned his back on the
'mysteries', called genius itself in question, held up art to scorn - yes, even
while his faithful following revelled in the characters he created, he, the
young artist, was taking away the breath of the twenty-year-olds with his cynic
utterances on the nature of art and the artist life.
But it seems that a noble and active mind
blunts itself against nothing so quickly as the sharp and bitter irritant of
knowledge. And certain it is that the
youth's constancy of purpose, no matter how painfully conscientious, was
shallow beside the mature resolution of the master of his craft, who made a
right-about-face, turned his back on the realm of knowledge, and passed it by
with averted face, lest it lame his will or power of action, paralyse his
feelings or his passions, deprive any of these of their conviction or
utility. How else interpret the
oft-cited story of The Abject than as a rebuke to the excesses of a
psychology-ridden age, embodied in the delineation of the weak and silly fool
who manages to lead fate by the nose; driving his wife, out of sheer innate
pusillanimity, into the arms of a beardless youth, and making this disaster an
excuse for trifling away the rest of his life?
With rage the author rejects the rejected,
casts out the outcast - and
the measure of his fury is the measure of his condemnation of all
moral shilly-shallying. Explicitly he
renounces sympathy with the abyss, explicitly he refutes the flabby humanitarianism
of the phrase: ''Tout comprendre c'est tout pardonner.' What was here unfolding, or rather was
already in full bloom, was the 'miracle of regained detachment', which a little
later became the theme of one of the author's dialogues, dwelt upon not without
a certain oracular emphasis. Strange
sequence of thought! Was it perhaps an
intellectual consequence of this rebirth, this new austerity, that from now on
his style showed an almost exaggerated sense of beauty, a lofty purity,
symmetry, and simplicity, which gave his productions a stamp of the classic, of
conscious and deliberate mastery? And
yet: this moral fibre, surviving the hampering and disintegrating effect of
knowledge, does it not result in its turn in a dangerous simplification, in a
tendency to equate the world and the human soul, and thus to strengthen the
hold of the evil, the forbidden, and the ethically impossible? And has not form two
aspects? Is it not moral and immoral at
once; moral insofar as it is the expression and result of discipline, immoral -
yes, actually hostile to morality - in that of its very essence it is
indifferent to good and evil, and deliberately concerned to make the moral
world stoop beneath its proud and undivided sceptre?
Be that as it may. Development is destiny; and why should a
career attended by applause and adulation of the masses necessarily take the
same course as one which does not share the glamour and the obligations of
fame? Only the incorrigible bohemian
smiles or scoffs when a man of transcendent gifts outgrows his carefree
apprentice stage, recognizes his own worth and forces the world to recognize it
too and pay it homage, though he puts on a courtly bearing to hide his bitter
struggles and his loneliness. Again, the
play of a developing talent must give its possessor joy, if of a wilful,
defiant kind. With time, an official
note, something almost expository, crept into Gustave
Aschenbach's method.
His later style gave up the old sheer audacities, the fresh and subtle
nuances - it became fixed and exemplary, conservative, formal, even
formulated. Like Louis XIV - or as
tradition has it of him - Aschenbach, as he went on
in years, banished from his style every common word. It was at this time that the school
authorities adopted selections from his works into their textbooks. And he found it only fitting - and had not
thought but to accept - when a German prince signalized his accession to the
throne by conferring upon the poet-author of the life of Frederick the Great on
his fiftieth birthday the letters-patent of nobility.
He had roved about for a few years, trying
this place and that as a place of residence, before choosing, as he soon did,
the city of Munich for his permanent home.
And there he lived, enjoying among his
fellow-citizens the honour which is in rare cases the reward of intellectual
eminence. He married young, the daughter
of a university family; but after a brief term of wedded happiness his wife had
died. A daughter, already married,
remained to him. A son he never had.
Gustave von Aschenbach was somewhat below middle height, dark and
smooth-shaven, with a head that looked rather too large for his almost delicate
figure. He wore his hair brushed back;
it was thin at the parting, bushy and grey on the
temples, framing a lofty, rugged, knotty brow - if one may so characterize
it. The nose-piece of his rimless gold
spectacles cut into the base of his thick, aristocratically hooked nose. The mouth was large, often lax, often
suddenly narrow and tense; the cheeks lean and furrowed, the pronounced chin
slightly cleft. The vicissitudes of
fate, it seemed, must have passed over his head, for he held it, plaintively,
rather on one side; yet it was art, not the stern discipline of an active career, that had taken over the office of modelling these
features. Behind this brow were born the
flashing thrust and parry of the dialogue between Frederick and Voltaire on the
theme of war; these eyes, weary and sunken, gazing through their glasses, had
beheld the blood-stained inferno of the hospitals in the Seven Years' War. Yes, personally speaking too, art heightens
life. She gives deeper joy, she consumes
more swiftly. She engraves adventures of
the spirit and the mind in the faces of her
votaries; let them lead outwardly a life of the most cloistered calm,
she will in the end produce in them a fastidiousness, an over-refinement, a
nervous fever and exhaustion, such as a career of extravagant passions and
pleasures can hardly show.
Eager
though he was to be off, Aschenbach was kept in
Munich by affairs both literary and practical for some two weeks after that
walk of his. But at length he ordered
his country home put ready against his return within the next few weeks, and on
a day between the middle and the end of May took the evening train to Trieste,
where he stopped only twenty-four hours, embarking for Pola
the next morning but one.
What he sought was a fresh scene, without
associations, which should yet be not too out-of-the-way; and accordingly he
chose an island in the Adriatic, not far off the Istrian
coast. It had been well known some years
for its splendidly rugged cliff formations on the side next to the open sea,
and its population, clad in a bright flutter of rags and speaking an outlandish
tongue. But there was rain and heavy
air; the society at the hotel was provincial Austrian, and limited; besides, it
annoyed him not to be able to get at the sea - he missed the close and soothing
contact which only a gentle sandy slope affords. He could not feel this was the place he
sought; an inner impulse made him wretched, urging him on he knew not wither;
he racked his brains, he looked up boats, than all at once his god stood plain
before his eyes. But of course! When one wanted to arrive overnight at the
incomparable, the fabulous, the like-nothing-else-in-the-world, where was it
one went? Why, obviously; he had
intended to go there, what ever was he doing here? A blunder. He made all haste to correct it, announcing
his departure at once. Ten days after
his arrival on the island a swift motorboat bore him and his luggage in the
misty dawning back across the water to the naval station, where he landed only
to pass over the landing-stage and on to the wet decks of a ship lying there
with steam up for the passage to Venice.
It was an ancient hulk belonging to an
Italian line, obsolete, dingy, grimed with soot. A dirty hunchbacked sailor, smirking polite,
conducted him at once belowships to a cavernous, lamplit cabin. There
behind a table sat a man with a beard like a goat's; he had his hat on the back
of his head, a cigar-stump in the corner of his mouth; he reminded Aschenbach of an old-fashioned circus director. This person put the usual questions and wrote
out a ticket to Venice, which he issued to the traveller with many commercial
flourishes.
'A ticket for Venice,' he repeated,
stretching out his arm to dip the pen into the thick ink in a tilted
ink-stand. 'One
first-class to Venice! Here you
are, signore mio.' He made some scrawls on the paper, strewed bluish
sand on it out of a box, thereafter letting the sand run off into an earthen
vessel, folded the paper with bony yellow fingers, and wrote on the
outside. 'An excellent choice,' he
rattled on. 'Ah,
Venice! What a glorious
city! Irresistibly
attractive to the cultured man for her past history as well as her present
charm.' His copious gesturings and empty phrases gave the odd impression that
he feared the traveller might alter his mind.
He changed Aschenbach's note, laying the money
on the spotted table-cover with the glibness of a crupier. 'A pleasant visit to you, signore,'
he said, with a melodramatic bow. 'Delighted to serve you.'
Then he beckoned and called out: 'Next' as though a stream of passengers
stood waiting to be served, though in point of fact there was not one. Aschenbach returned
to the upper deck.
He leaned an arm on the railing and looked
at the idlers lounging along the quay to watch the boat go out. Then he turned his attention to his
fellow-passengers. Those of the second
class, both men and women, were squatted on their bundles of luggage on the
forward deck. The first cabin consisted
of a group of lively youths, clerks from Pola,
evidently, who had made up a pleasure excursion to Italy and were not a little
thrilled at the prospect, bustling about and laughing with satisfaction at the
stir they made. They leaned over the
railings and shouted, with a glib command of epithet, derisory remarks at such
of their fellow-clerks as they saw going to business along the quay; and these
in turn shook their sticks and shouted as good back again. One of the party, in
a dandified buff suit, a rakish panama with a coloured scarf, and a red cravat,
was loudest of the loud: he outcrowed all the
rest. Aschenbach's
eye dwelt on him, and he was shocked to see that the apparent youth was no
youth at all. He was an old man, beyond
a doubt, with wrinkles and crow's-feet round eyes and mouth; the dull carmine
of the cheeks was rouge, the brown hair a wig.
His neck was shrunken and sinewy, his turned-up moustaches and small
imperial were dyed, and the unbroken double row of yellow teeth he showed when
he laughed were but too obviously a cheapish false
set. He wore a seal ring on each
forefinger, but the hands were those of an old man. Aschenbach was
moved to shudder as he watched the creature and his association with the rest
of the group. Could they not see he was
old, that he had no right to wear the clothes they wore or pretend to be one of
them? But they were used to him, it
seemed; they suffered him among them, they paid back his jokes in kind and the
playful pokes in the ribs he gave them.
How could they? Aschenbach put his hand to his brow, he covered his eyes,
for he had slept little, and they smarted.
He felt not quite canny, as though the world were suffering a dreamlike
distortion of perspective which he might arrest by shutting it all out for a few
minutes and then looking at it afresh.
But instead he felt a floating sensation, and opened his eyes with
unreasoning alarm to find that the ship's dark sluggish bulk was slowly leaving
the jetty. Inch by inch, with the
to-and-fro motion of her machinery, the strip of iridescent dirty water
widened, the boat manoeuvred clumsily and turned her bow to the open sea. Aschenbach moved
over to the starboard side, where the hunchbacked sailor had set up a deckchair
for him, and a steward in a greasy dresscoat asked
for orders.
The sky was grey, the wind humid. Harbour and island dropped behind, all sight
of land soon vanished in mist. Flakes of
sodden, clammy soot fell upon the still undried
deck. Before the boat was an hour out a
canvas had to be spread as a shelter from the rain.
Wrapped in his cloak, a book in his lap,
our traveller rested; the hours slipped by unawares. It stopped raining, the canvas was taken
down. The horizon was visible right
round: beneath the sombre dome of the sky stretched the vast plain of empty
sea. But immeasurable unarticulated
space weakens our power to measure time as well: the time-sense falters and
grows dim. Strange, shadowy figures
passed and repassed - the elderly coxcomb, the
goat-bearded man from the bowels of the ship - with vague gesturings
and mutterings through the traveller's mind as he lay. He fell asleep.
At midday he was summoned to luncheon in a
corridor-like saloon with the sleeping-cabins giving off it. He ate at the head of a long table; the party
of clerks, including the old man, sat with the jolly captain at the other end,
where they had been carousing since ten o'clock. The meal was wretched, and soon done. Aschenbach was
driven to seek the open and look at the sky - perhaps it would lighten presently
above Venice.
He had not dreamed it could be otherwise,
for the city had ever given him a brilliant welcome. But sky and sea remained leaden, with spurts
of fine, mistlike rain; he reconciled himself to the
idea of seeing a different Venice from that he had always approached on the
landward side. He stood by the foremast,
his gaze on the distance, alert for the first glimpse of the coast. And he thought of the melancholy and
susceptible poet who had once seen the towers and turrets of his dreams rise
out of these waves; repeated the rhythms born of his awe, his mingled emotions
of joy and suffering - and easily susceptible to a prescience already shaped
with him, he asked his own sober, weary heart if a new enthusiasm, a new
preoccupation, some late adventure of the feelings could still be in store for
the idle traveller.
The flat coast showed on the right, the
sea was soon populous with fishing-boats.
The Lido appeared and was left behind as the ship guided at half speed
through the narrow harbour of the same name, coming to a full stop on the
lagoon in sight of garish, badly built houses.
Here it waited for the boat bringing the sanitary inspector.
An hour passed. One had arrived - and yet not. There was no conceivable haste - yet one felt
harried. The youths from Pola were on deck, drawn hither by the martial sound of
horns coming across the water from the direction of the Public Gardens. They had drunk a good deal of Asti and were moved to shout and hurrah at the drilling bersaglieri.
But the young-old man was a truly repulsive sight in the condition
to which his company with youth had brought him. He could not carry his wine like them: he was
pitiably drunk. He swayed as he stood -
watery-eyed, a cigarette between his shaking fingers, keeping upright with
difficulty. He could not have taken a
step without falling and knew better than to stir, but his spirits were
deplorably high. He buttonholed anyone
who came within reach, he stuttered, he giggled, he leered, he fatuously shook
his beringed old forefinger; his tongue kept seeking
the corner of his mouth in a suggestive motion ugly to behold. Aschenbach's brow
darkened as he looked, and there came over him once more a dazed sense, as
though things about him were just slightly losing their ordinary perspective,
beginning to show a distortion that might merge into the grotesque. He was prevented from dwelling on the
feeling, for now the
machinery began to thud again, and the ship took up its passage
through the Canal di San Marco which had been
interrupted so near the goal.
He saw it once more, that landing-place
that takes the breath away, that amazing group of incredible structures the
Republic set up to meet the awe-struck eye of the approaching seafarer: the
airy splendour of the palace and Bridge of Sighs, the columns of lion and saint
on the shore, the glory of the projecting flank of the fairy temple, the vista
of gateway and clock. Looking, he
thought that to come to Venice by the station is like entering a palace by the
back door. No-one should approach, save
by the high seas as he was doing now, this most improbable of cities.
The engines stopped. Gondolas pressed alongside, the
landing-stairs were let down, customs officials came on board and did their
office, people began to go ashore. Aschenbach ordered
a gondola. He meant to take up his abode
by the sea and needed to be conveyed with his luggage to the landing-stage of
the little steamers that ply between the city and the Lido. They called down his order to the surface of
the water where the gondoliers were quarrelling in dialect. Then came another
delay while his trunk was worried down the ladder-like stairs. Thus he was forced to endure the
importunities of the ghastly young-old man, whose drunken state obscurely urged
him to pay the stranger the honour of a formal farewell. 'We wish you a very pleasant sojourn,' he
babbled, bowing and scraping. 'Pray keep
us in mind. Au revoir, excusez et bon jour, votre Excellence.' He drooled, he blinked, he licked the corner
of his mouth, the little imperial bristled on his
elderly chin. He put the tips of two
fingers to his mouth and said thickly: 'Give her our love, will you, the
p-pretty little dear' - here his upper plate came away and fell down on the
lower one.... Aschenbach escaped. 'Little sweety-sweety-sweetheart'
he heard behind him, gurgled and stuttered, as he climbed down the rope stair
into the boat.
Is there anyone but must repress a secret
thrill, on arriving in Venice for the first time - or returning thither after
long absence - and stepping into a Venetian gondola? That singular conveyance, come down unchanged
from ballad times, black as nothing else on earth except a coffin - what
pictures it calls up of lawless, silent adventures in the plashing night; or
even more, what visions of death itself, the bier and solemn rites and last
soundless voyage! And has anyone
remarked that the seat is such a bark, the armchair lacquered in coffin-black,
and dully black-upholstered, is the softest, most luxurious, most relaxing seat
in the world? Aschenbach
realized it when he had let himself down at the gondolier's feet, opposite his
luggage, which lay neatly composed on the vessel's beak. The rowers still gestured fiercely; he heard
their harsh, incoherent tones. But the
strange stillness of the water-city seemed to take up their voices gently, to
disembody and scatter them over the sea.
It was warm here in the harbour.
The lukewarm air of the sirocco breathed upon him, he leaned back among
his cushions and gave himself to the yielding element, closing his eyes for
very pleasure in an indolence as unaccustomed as
sweet. 'The trip will be short,' he
thought, and wished it might last forever.
They gently swayed away from the boat with its bustle and clamour of voices.
It grew still and stiller all about. No sound but the splash of the oars, the
hollow slap of the wave against the steep, black, halberd-shaped beak of the
vessel, and one sound more - a muttering by fits and starts, expressed as it
were by the motion of his arms, from the lips of the gondolier. He was talking to himself, between his
teeth. Aschenbach
glanced up and saw with surprise that the lagoon was widening, his vessel was
headed for the open sea. Evidently it
would not do to give himself up to sweet far niente;
he must see his wishes carried out.
'You are to take me to the steamboat
landing, you know,' he said, half turning round towards it. The muttering stopped. There was no reply.
'Take me to the steamboat landing,' he
repeated, and this time turned quite round and looked up into the face of the
gondolier as he stood there on his little elevated deck, high against the pale
grey sky. The man had an unpleasing,
even brutish face, and wore blue clothes like a sailor's, with a yellow sash; a
shapeless straw hat with the braid torn at the brim perched rakishly on his
head. His facial structure, as well as
the curling blond moustache under the short snub nose, showed him to be of
non-Italian stock. Physically rather
undersized, so that one would not have expected him to be very muscular, he
pulled vigorously at the oar, putting all his body-weight behind each
stroke. Now and then the effort he made
curled back his lips and bared his white teeth to the gums. He spoke in a decided, almost curt voice,
looking out to sea over his fare's head: 'The signore is going to the
Lido.'
Aschenbach
answered: 'Yes, I am. But I only took
the gondola to cross over to San Marco.
I am using the vaporetto from
there.'
'But the signore
cannot use the vaporetto.'
'And why not?'
'Because the vaporetto does not take luggage.'
It was true. Aschenbach
remembered it. He made no answer. But the man's gruff, overbearing manner, so
unlike the usual courtesy of his countrymen towards the stranger, was
intolerable. Aschenbach
spoke again: 'That is my own affair. I
may want to give my luggage in deposit.
You will turn round.'
No answer.
The oar splashed, the wave struck dull against the prow. And the muttering began anew, the gondolier
talked to himself, between his teeth.
What should the traveller do? Alone on the water with this tongue-tied,
obstinate, uncanny man, he saw no way of enforcing his will. And if only he did not excite himself, how pleasantly
he might rest! Had he not wished the
voyage might last forever? The wisest
thing - and how much the pleasantest! - was to let matters take their own
course. A spell of indolence was upon
him; it came from the chair he sat in - this low, black-upholstered armchair,
so gently rocked at the hands of the despotic boatman in his rear. The thoughts passed dreamily through Aschenbach's brain that perhaps he had fallen into the
clutches of a criminal; it had not power to rouse him to action. More annoying was the simpler explanation:
that the man was only trying to extort money.
A sense of duty, a recollection, as it were, that this ought to be
prevented, made him collect himself to say:
'How much do you ask for the trip?'
And the gondolier, gazing out over his
head, replied: 'The signore will pay.'
There was an established reply to this; Aschenbach made it, mechanically:
'I will pay nothing whatever if you do not
take me where I want to go.'
'The signore wants to go to the Lido.'
'But not with you.'
'I am a good rower, signore,
I will row you well.'
'So much is true,' thought Aschenbach, and again he relaxed. 'That is true, you row me well. Even if you mean to rob me,
even if you hit me in the back with your oar and send me down to the kingdom of
Hades, even then you will have rowed me well.'
But nothing of the sort happened. Instead, they fell in with company: a boat
came alongside and waylaid them, full of men and women singing to guitar and
mandolin. They rowed persistently bow to
bow with the gondola and filled the silence that had rested on the waters with
their lyric love of gain. Aschenbach tossed money into the hat they held out. The music stopped at once, they rowed
away. And once more the gondolier's
mutter became audible as he talked to himself in fits and snatches.
Thus they rowed on, rocked by the wash of
a steamer returning citywards. At the landing two municipal officials were
walking up and down with their hands behind their backs and their faces turned
towards the lagoon. Aschenbach
was helped on shore by the old man with a boathook who is the permanent feature
of every landing-stage in Venice; and having no small change to pay the
boatman, crossed over into the hotel opposite.
His wants were supplied in the lobby, but when he came back his
possessions were already on a hand-car on the quay, and gondola and gondolier
were gone.
'He ran away, signore,'
said the old boatman. 'A
bad lot, a man without a licence.
He is the only gondolier without one.
The others telephoned over, and he knew we were on the look-out, so he
made off.'
Aschenbach
shrugged.
'The signore has had a ride for nothing,' said the old man, and held out
his hat. Aschenbach
dropped some coins. He directed that his
luggage be taken to the Hôtel des Bains
and followed the hand-car through the avenue, that white-blossoming avenue with
taverns, booths, and pensions on either side of it, which runs across the
island diagonally to the beach.
He entered the hotel from the garden
terrace at the back and passed through the vestibule and hall into the
office. His arrival was expected, and he
was served with courtesy and dispatch.
The manager, a small soft dapper man with a black moustache and a
caressing way with him, wearing a French frock-coat, himself took him up in the
lift and showed him his room. It was a
pleasant chamber, furnished in cherrywood, with lofty
windows looking out to sea. It was
decorated with strong-scented flowers. Aschenbach, as soon as he was alone, and while they brought
in his trunk and bags and disposed them in the room, went up to one of the
windows and stood looking out upon the beach in its afternoon emptiness, and at
the sunless sea, now full and sending long, low waves with rhythmic beat upon
the sand.
A solitary, unused to speaking of what he
sees and feels, has mental experiences which are at once more intense and less
articulate than those of a gregarious man.
They are sluggish, yet more wayward, and never without a melancholy
tinge. Sights and impressions which
others brush aside with a glance, a light comment, a smile, occupy him more
than their due; they sink silently in, they take on meaning, they become
experience, emotion, adventure. Solitude
gives birth to the original in us, to beauty unfamiliar and perilous - to
poetry. But also, it gives birth to the
opposite: to the perverse, the illicit, the
absurd. Thus the traveller's mind still
dwelt with disquiet on the episodes of his journey hither: on the horrible old
fop with his drivel about a mistress, on the outlaw boatman and his lost tip. They did not offend his reason, they hardly
afforded food for thought; yet they seemed by their very nature fundamentally
strange, and thereby vaguely disquieting.
Yet here was the sea; even in the midst of such thoughts he saluted it
with his eyes, exulting that Venice was near and accessible. At length he turned round, disposed his
personal belongings and made certain arrangements with the chambermaid for his
comfort, washed, and was conveyed to the ground floor by the green-uniformed
Swiss who ran the lift.
He took tea on the terrace facing the sea
and afterwards went down and walked some distance along the shore promenade in
the direction of the Hôtel Excelsior. When he came back it seemed to be time to
change for dinner. He did so, slowly and
methodically as his way was, for he was accustomed to work while he dressed;
but even so he found himself a little early when he entered the hall, where a
large number of guests had collected - strangers to each other and affecting
mutual indifference, yet united in expectancy of the meal. He picked up a paper, sat down in a leather
armchair, and took stock of the company, which compared most favourably with
that he had just left.
This was a broad and tolerant atmosphere,
of wide horizons. Subdued voices were
speaking most of the principal European tongues. That uniform of civilization, the
conventional evening dress, gave outward conformity to the varied types. There were long, dry Americans, large-familied Russians, English ladies, German children with
French bonnes.
The Slavic element predominated, it seemed. In Aschenbach's
neighbourhood Polish was being spoken.
Round a wicker table next to him was
gathered a group of young folk in the charge of a governess or companion -
three young girls, perhaps fifteen to seventeen years old, and a long-haired
boy of about fourteen. Aschenbach noticed with astonishment the lad's perfect
beauty. His face recalled the noblest
moment of Greek sculpture - pale, with a sweet reserve, with clustering
honey-coloured ringlets, the brow and nose descending in one line, the winning
mouth, the expression of pure and godlike
serenity. Yet with all this chaste
perfection of form it was of such unique personal charm that the observer
thought he had never seen, either in nature or art, anything so utterly happy
and consummate. What struck him further
was the strange contrast the group afforded, a difference in educational
method, so to speak, shown in the way the brother and sisters were clothed and
treated. The girls, the eldest of whom
was practically grown up, were dressed with an almost disfiguring
austerity. All three wore half-length
slate-coloured frocks of cloister-like plainness, arbitrarily unbecoming in
cut, with white turn-over collars as their only adornment. Every grace of outline was wilfully
suppressed; their hair lay smoothly plastered to their heads, giving them a
vacant expression, like a nun's. All
this could only be by the mother's orders; but there was no trace of the same
pedagogic severity in the case of the boy.
Tenderness and softness, it was plain, conditioned his existence. No scissors had been put to the lovely hair
that (like the Spinnario's) curled about his brows, above
his ears, longer still in the neck. He
wore an English sailor suit, with quilted sleeves that narrowed round the
delicate wrists of his long and slender though still childish hands. And the suit, with its breastknot,
lacings, and embroideries, lent the slight figure something 'rich and strange',
a spoilt, exquisite air. The observer
saw him in half profile, with one foot in its black patent leather advanced,
one elbow resting on the arm of his basketchair, the
cheek nestled into the closed hand in a pose of easy grace, quite unlike the
stiff subservient mien which was evidently habitual to his sisters. Was he delicate? His facial tint was ivory-white against the
golden darkness of his clustering locks.
Or was he simply a pampered darling, the object of a self-willed and
partial love? Aschenbach
inclined to think the latter. For in almost every artistic nature in inborn a wanton and
treacherous proneness to side with the beauty that breaks hearts, to single out
aristocratic pretensions and pay them homage.
A waiter announced, in English, that
dinner was served. Gradually the company
dispersed through the glass doors into the dining-room. Late-comers entered from the vestibule or the
lifts. Inside, dinner was being served;
but the young Poles still sat and waited about their wicker table. Aschenbach felt
comfortable in his deep armchair, he enjoyed the beauty before his eyes, he waited with them.
The governess, a short stout red-faced
person, at length gave the signal. With
lifted brows she pushed back her chair and made a bow to the tall woman,
dressed in palest grey, who now entered the hall. This lady's abundant jewels were pearls, her
manner was cool and measured; the fashion of her gown and the arrangement of
her lightly powdered hair had the simplicity prescribed in certain circles
whose piety and aristocracy are equally marked.
She might have been, in Germany, the wife of some high official. But there was something faintly fabulous,
after all, in her appearance, though lent it solely by the pearls she wore:
they were well-nigh priceless, and consisted of earrings and a three-stranded
necklace, very long, with gems the size of cherries.
The brother and sisters had risen
briskly. They bowed over their mother's
hand to kiss it, she turning away from them with a slight smile on her face,
which was carefully preserved but rather sharp-nosed and worn. She addressed a few words in French to the
governess, then moved towards the glass door. The children followed, the girls in order of
age, then the governess, and last the boy.
He chanced to turn before he crossed the threshold, and as there was
no-one else in the room his strange twilight grey eyes met Aschenbach's,
as our traveller sat there with the paper on his knee, absorbed in looking after
the group.
There was nothing singular, of course, in
what he had seen. They had not gone in to dinner before their mother, they had
waited, given her a respectful salute, and but observed the right and proper
forms on entering the room. Yet they had
done all this so expressly, with such self-respecting dignity, discipline, and
sense of duty that Aschenbach was impressed. He lingered still a few minutes, then he, too, went into the dining-room, where he was shown
to a table far off from the Polish family, as he noted at once, with a stirring
of regret.
Tired, yet mentally alert, he beguiled the
long, tedious meal with abstract, even with transcendent matters: pondered the
mysterious harmony that must come to subsist between the individual human being
and the universal law, in order that human beauty may result; passed on to
general problems of form and art, and came at length to the conclusion that
what seemed to him fresh and happy thoughts were like the flattering inventions
of a dream, which the waking sense proves worthless and insubstantial. He spent the evening in the park, that was sweet with the odours of evening - sitting,
smoking, wandering about; went to bed betimes, and passed the night in deep
unbroken sleep, visited, however, by varied and lively dreams.
The weather next day was no more
promising. A land breeze blew. Beneath a colourless, overcast sky the sea lay sluggish and as it were shrunken, so far withdrawn
as to leave bare several rows of long sandbanks. The horizon looked close and prosaic. When Aschenbach
opened his window he thought he smelt the stagnant odour of the lagoons.
He felt suddenly out of sorts and already
began to think of leaving. Once, years
before, after weeks of bright spring weather, this wind had found him out; it
had been so bad as to force him to flee from the city like a fugitive. And now it seemed beginning again - the same
feverish distaste, the pressure on his temples, the heavy eyelids. It would be a nuisance to change again; but
if the wind did not turn, this was no place for him. To be on the safe side he did not entirely
unpack. At nine o'clock he went down to
the buffet, which lay between the hall and the dining-room and served as
breakfast-room.
A solemn stillness reigned here, such as
it is the ambition of all large hotels to achieve. The waiters moved on noiseless feet. A rattling of tea-things, a
whispered word - and no other sounds.
In a corner diagonally to the door, two tables off his
own, Aschenbach saw the Polish girls with
their governess. They sat there very
straight, in their stiff blue linen frocks with little turn-over collars and
cuffs, their ash-blond hair newly brushed flat, their eyelids red from sleep,
and handed each other the marmalade.
They had nearly finished their meal.
The boy was not there.
Aschenbach
smiled. 'Aha, little Phaeax,'
he thought. 'It seems you are privileged
to sleep yourself out.' With sudden
gaiety he quoted:
'Oft veränderten Schmuck und warme Bäder und Ruhe.''
He took a leisurely breakfast. The porter came up with his braided cap in
his hand to deliver some letters that had been sent on. Aschenbach lighted
a cigarette and opened a few letters, and thus was still seated to witness the
arrival of the sluggard.
He entered through the glass doors and
walked diagonally across the room to his sisters at their table. He walked with extraordinary grace - the
carriage of the body, the action of the knee, the way he set down his foot in
its white shoe - it was all so light, it was at once dainty and proud, it wore
an added charm in the childish shyness which made him twice turn his head as he
crossed the room, made him give a quick glance and then drop his eyes. He took his seat, with a smile and a murmured
word in his soft and blurry tongue; and Aschenbach,
sitting so that he could see him in profile, was astonished anew, yes,
startled, at the godlike beauty of the human being. The lad had on a light sailor suit of blue
and white striped cotton, with a red silk breastknot
and a simple white standing collar round the neck - a not very elegant effect -
yet above this collar the head was poised like a flower, in incomparable
loveliness. It was the head of Eros,
with the yellowish bloom of Parian marble, with fine
serious brows, and dusky clustering ringlets standing out in soft plenteousness
over temples and ears.
'Good, oh, very good indeed!' thought Aschenbach, assuming the patronizing air of the connoisseur
to hide, as artists will, their ravishment over a masterpiece. 'Yes,' he went on to himself, 'if it were not
that sea and beach were waiting for me, I should sit here as long as you
do.' But he went out on that, passing
through the hall, beneath the watchful eye of the functionaries, down the steps
and directly across the boardwalk to the section of the beach reserved for the
guests of the hotel. The bathing-master,
a barefoot old man in linen trousers and sailor blouse, with a straw hat,
showed him the cabin that had been rented for him, and Aschenbach
had him set up table and chair on the sandy platform before it. Then he dragged the reclining-chair through
the pale yellow sand, closer to the sea, sat down, and composed himself.
He delighted, as always, in the scene on
the beach, the sight of sophisticated society giving itself over to a simple
life at the edge of the element. The
shallow grey sea was already gay with children wading, with swimmers, with
figures in bright colours lying on the sandbanks with arms behind their heads. Some were rowing in little keelless boats painted red and blue, and laughing when they
capsized. A long row of capanne ran down the beach, with platforms,
where people sat as on verandas, and there was social life, with bustle and
with indolent repose; visits were paid, amid much chatter, punctilious morning
toilettes hobnobbed with comfortable and privileged dishabille. On the hard wet sand close to the sea figures
in white bathrobes or loose wrappings in garish colours strolled up and down. A mammoth sand-hill had been built up on Aschenbach's right, the work of children, who had stuck it
full of tiny flags. Vendors of
seashells, fruit, and cakes knelt beside their wares spread out on the
sand. A row of cabins on the left stood
obliquely to the others and to the sea, thus forming the boundary of the enclosure
on this side; and on the little veranda in front of one of these a Russian
family was encamped; bearded men with strong white teeth, ripe, indolent women,
a Fräulein from the Baltic provinces, who sat at an
easel painting the sea and tearing her hair in despair; two ugly but
good-natured children and an old maidservant in a headcloth,
with the caressing, servile manner of the born dependent. There they sat together in grateful enjoyment
of their blessings: constantly shouting at their romping children, who paid not
the slightest heed; making jokes in broken Italian to the funny old man who
sold them sweetmeats, kissing each other on the cheeks - not a jot concerned
that their domesticity was overlooked.
'I'll stop,' thought Aschenbach. 'Where could it be better than here?' With his hands clasped in his lap he let his
eyes swim in the wideness of the sea, his gaze lose
focus, blur, and grow vague in the misty immensity of space. His love of the ocean had profound sources:
the hard-worked artist's longing for rest, his yearning to seek refuge from the
thronging manifold shapes of his fancy in the bosom of the simple and vast; and
another yearning, opposed to his art and perhaps for that very reason a lure,
for the unorganized, the immeasurable, the eternal - in short, for
nothingness. He whose preoccupation is
with excellence longs fervently to find rest in perfection; and is not
nothingness a form of perfection? As he
sat there dreaming thus, deep, deep into the void, suddenly the margin line of
the shore was cut by a human form. He
gathered up his gaze and withdrew it from the illimitable, and lo, it was the
lovely boy who crossed his vision coming from the left along the sand. He was barefoot, ready for wading,
the slender legs uncovered above the knee, and moved slowly, yet with such a
proud, light tread as to make it seem he had never worn shoes. He looked towards the diagonal row of cabins;
and the sight of the Russian family, leading their lives there in joyous
simplicity, distorted his features in a spasm of angry disgust. His brow darkened, his lips curled, one
corner of the mouth was drawn down in a harsh line that marred the curve of the
cheek, his frown was so heavy that the eyes seemed to sink in as they uttered
beneath the black and vicious language of hate.
He looked down, looked threateningly back once more; then giving it up
with a violent and contemptuous shoulder-shrug, he
left his enemies in the rear.
A feeling of delicacy, a qualm, almost
like a sense of shame, made Aschenbach turn away as
though he had not seen; he felt unwilling to take advantage of having been, by
chance, privy to this passionate reaction.
But he was in troth both moved and exhilarated - that is to say, he was
delighted. This childish exhibition of
fanaticism, directed against the good-natured simplicity in the world - it gave
to the godlike and inexpressive the final human touch. The figure of the half-grown lad, a
masterpiece from nature's own hand, had been significant enough when it
gratified the eye alone; and now it evoked sympathy as well - the little
episode had set it off, lent it a dignity in the onlooker's eyes that was
beyond its years.
Aschenbach
listened with still averted head to the boy's voice announcing his coming to
his companions at the sand-heap. The
voice was clear, though a little weak, but they answered, shouting his name -
or his nickname - again and again. Aschenbach was not without curiosity to learn it, but could
make out nothing more exact than two musical syllables, something like Adgio - or, often still, Adjiu,
with a long drawn-out u at the end.
He liked the melodious sound, and found it fitting; said it over to
himself a few times and turned back with satisfaction to his papers.
Holding his travelling-pad on his knees,
he took his fountain-pen and began to answer various items of his
correspondence. But presently he found
it too great a pity to turn his back, and the eyes of his mind, for the sake of
mere commonplace correspondence, to this scene which was, after all, the most
rewarding one he knew. He put aside his
papers and swung round to the sea; in no long time, beguiled by the voices of
the children at play, he had turned his head and sat resting it against the
chair-back, while he gave himself up to contemplating the activities of the
exquisite Adgio.
His eye found him at once, the red breastknot was unmistakable. With some nine or ten companions, boys and
girls of his own age and younger, he was busy putting in place an old plank to
serve as a bridge across the ditches between the sandpiles. He directed the work by shouting and
motioning with his head, and they were all chattering in many tongues - French,
Polish, and even some of the Balkan languages.
But his was the name oftenest on their lips, he was plainly sought
after, wooed, admired. One lad in
particular, a Pole like himself, with a name that sounded something like Jaschiu, a sturdy lad with brilliantined
black hair, in a belted linen suit, was his particular liegeman and
friend. Operations at the sandpile being ended for the time, they two walked away
along the beach, with their arms round each other's waists, and once the lad Jaschiu gave Adgio a kiss.
Aschenbach felt
like shaking a finger at him. 'But you, Critobulus,' he thought with a smile, 'you I advise to take
a year's leave. That
long, at least, you will need for complete recovery.' A vendor came by with strawberries, and Aschenbach made his second breakfast of the great luscious,
dead-ripe fruit. It had grown very warm,
although the sun had not availed to pierce the heavy layer of mist. His mind felt relaxed, his senses revelled in
this vast and soothing communion with the silence of the sea. The grave and serious man found sufficient
occupation in speculating what name it could be that sounded like Adgio. And with the
help of a few Polish memories he at length fixed on Tadzio,
a shortened form of Thaddeus, which sounded, when called, like Tadziu or Adziu.
Tadzio was
bathing. Aschenbach
had lost sight of him for a moment, then descried him far out in the water,
which was shallow a very long way - saw his head, and his arm striking out like
an oar. But his watchful family were
already on the alert; the mother and governess called from the veranda in front
of their bathing-cabin, until the lad's name, with its softened consonants and
long-drawn u sound, seemed to possess the beach like a rallying-cry; the
cadence had something sweet and wild: 'Tadziu! Tadziu!' He turned and ran back against the water,
churning the waves to a foam, his had flung high. The sight of this living figure, virginally
pure and austere, with dripping locks, beautiful as a tender young god,
emerging from the depths of sea and sky, outrunning the element - it conjured
up mythologies, it was like a primeval legend, handed down from the beginning
of time, of the birth of form, of the origin of the gods. With closed lids Aschenbach
listened to this poesy hymning itself silently within him, and anon he thought
it was good to be here and that he would stop awhile.
Afterwards Tadzio
lay on the sand and rested from his bathe, wrapped in his white sheet, which he
wore drawn underneath the right shoulder, so that his head was cradled on his
bare right arm. And even when Aschenbach read, without looking up, he was conscious that
the lad was there; that it would cost him but the slightest turn of the head to
have the rewarding vision once more in his purview. Indeed, it was almost as though he sat there
to guard the youth's repose; occupied, of course, with his own affairs, yet
alive to the presence of that noble human creature close at hand. And his heart was stirred, it felt a father's
kindness: such an emotion as the possessor of beauty can inspire in one who has
offered himself up in spirit to create beauty.
At midday he left the beach, returned to
the hotel, and was carried up in the lift to his room. There he lingered a little time before the
glass and looked at his own grey hair, his keen and weary face. And he thought of his fame, and how people
gazed respectfully at him in the streets, on account of his unerring gift of
words and their power to charm. He called
up all the worldly successes his genius had reaped, all he could remember, even
his patent of nobility. Then went to
luncheon down in the dining-room, sat at his little table and ate. Afterwards he mounted again in the lift, and
a group of young folk, Tadzio among them, pressed
with him into the little compartment. It
was the first time Aschenbach had seen him close at
hand, not merely in perspective, and could see and take account of the details
of his humanity. Someone spoke to the
lad, and he, answering, with an indescribably lovely smile, stepped out again,
as they had come to the first floor, backwards, with his eyes cast down. 'Beauty makes people self-conscious,' Aschenbach thought, and considered within himself imperatively why this should be. He had noted, further, that Tadzio's teeth were imperfect, rather jagged and bluish,
without a healthy glaze, and of that peculiar brittle transparency which the
teeth of chlorotic people often show. 'He is delicate, he is sickly,' Aschenbach thought.
'He will most likely not live to grow old.' He did not try to account for the pleasure
the idea gave him.
In the afternoon he spent two hours in his
room, then took the vaporetto
to Venice, across the foul-smelling lagoon.
He got out at San Marco, had his tea in the Piazza, and then, as his
custom was, took a walk through the streets.
But this walk of his brought about nothing less than a revolution in his
mood and an entire change in all his plans.
There was a hateful sultriness in the
narrow streets. The air was so heavy
that all the manifold smells wafted out of houses, shops, and cook-shops -
smells of oil, perfumery, and so forth - hung low, like exhalations, not
dissipating. Cigarette smoke seemed to
stand in the air, it drifted so slowly away.
Today the crowd in these narrow lanes oppressed the stroller instead of
diverting him. The longer he walked, the
more was he in tortures under that state, which is the product of the sea air
and the sirocco and which excites and enervates at once. He perspired painfully. His eyes rebelled, his chest was heavy, he
felt feverish, the blood throbbed in his temples. He fled from the huddled, narrow streets of
the commercial city, crossed many bridges, and came into the poor quarter of
Venice. Beggars waylaid him, the canals sickened him with their evil
exhalations. He reached a quiet square,
one of those that exist at the city's heart, forsaken of God and man; there he
rested awhile on the margin of a fountain, wiped his brow, and admitted to
himself that he must be gone.
For the second time, and now quite
definitely, the city proved that in certain weathers it could be directly
inimical to his health. Nothing but
sheer unreasoning obstinacy would linger on, hoping for an unprophesiable
change in the wind. A quick decision was
in place. He could not go home at this
stage, neither summer nor winter quarters would be ready. But Venice had not a monopoly of sea and
shore: there were other spots where these were to be had without the evil
concomitants of lagoon and fever-breeding vapours. He remembered a little bathing-place not far
from Trieste of which he had had a good report. Why not go thither? At once, of course, in
order that his second change might be worth the making. He resolved, he rose to his feet and sought
the nearest gondola-landing, where he took a boat and was conveyed to San Marco
through the gloomy windings of many canals, beneath balconies of delicate
marble traceries flanked by carven lions; round slippery corners of wall, past
melancholy façades with ancient business shields reflected in the rocking
water. It was not too easy to arrive at
his destination, for his gondolier, being in league with various lace-makers
and glass-blowers, did his best to persuade his fare
to pause, look, and be tempted to buy.
Thus the charm of this bizarre passage through the heart of Venice, even
while it played upon his spirit, yet was sensibly cooled by the predatory
commercial spirit of the fallen queen of the seas.
Once back in his hotel, he announced at
the office, even before dinner, that circumstances unforeseen obliged him to
leave early next morning. The management
expressed its regret, it changed his money and
receipted his bill. He dined, and spent
the lukewarm evening in a rocking-chair on the rear terrace, reading the
newspapers. Before he went to bed, he
made his luggage ready against the morning.
His sleep was not of the best, for the
prospect of another journey made him restless.
When he opened his window next morning, the sky was still overcast, but
the air seemed fresher - and there and then his rue began. Had he not given notice too soon? Had he not let himself be
swayed by and slight and momentary indisposition? If he had only been patient, not lost heart
so quickly, tried to adapt himself to the climate, or
even waited for a change in the weather before deciding! Then, instead of a hurry and flurry of
departure, he would have before him now a morning like yesterday's on the
beach. Too late! He must go on wanting what he had wanted
yesterday. He dressed and at eight
o'clock went down to breakfast.
When he entered the breakfast-room it was
empty. Guests came in while he sat
waiting for his order to be filled. As
he sipped his tea he saw the Polish girls enter with their governess, chaste
and morning-fresh, with sleep-reddened eyelids.
They crossed the room and sat down at their table in the window. Behind them came the porter, cap in hand, to
announce that it was time for him to go.
The car was waiting to convey him and other travellers to the Hôtel Excelsior, whence they could go by motorboat through
the company's private canal to the station.
Time pressed. But Aschenbach found it did nothing of the sort. There still lacked more than an hour of
train-time. He felt irritated at the
hotel habit of getting the guests out of the house earlier than necessary; and
requested the porter to let him breakfast in peace. The man hesitated and withdrew, only to come
back again five minutes later. The car
could wait no longer. Good, then it
might go, and take his trunk with it, Aschenbach
answered with some heat. He would use
the public conveyance, in his own time; he begged them to leave the choice of
it to him. The functionary bowed. Aschenbach, pleased
to be rid of him, made a leisurely meal, and even had a newspaper off the
waiter. When at length he rose, the time
was grown very short. And it so happened
that at that moment Tadzio came through the glass
doors into the room.
To reach his own table he crossed the
traveller's path, and modestly cast down his eyes before the grey-haired man of
the lofty brows - only to lift them again in that sweet way he had and direct
his full soft gaze upon Aschenbach's face. Then he was past. 'For the last time, Tadzio,'
thought the elder man. 'It was all too
brief!' Quite unusually for him, he
shaped a farewell with his lips, he actually uttered it, and added: 'May God
bless you!' Then he went out,
distributed tips, exchanged farewells with the mild little manager in the
frock-coat, and, followed by the porter with his hand-luggage, left the
hotel. On foot as he had come, he passed
through the white-blossoming avenue, diagonally across the island to the
boat-landing. He went on board at once -
but the tale of his journey across the lagoon was a tale of woe, a passage through
the very valley of regrets.
It was the well-known route: through the
lagoon, past San Marco, up the Grand Canal.
Aschenbach sat on the circular bench in the
bows, with his elbow on the railing, one hand shading his eyes. They passed the Public Gardens, once more the
princely charm of the Piazzetta rose up before him
and then dropped behind, next came the great row of palaces, the canal curved,
and the splendid marble arches of the Rialto came in sight. The traveller gazed - and his bosom was torn. The atmosphere of the city, the faintly
rotten scent of swamp and sea, which had driven him to leave - in what deep,
tender, almost painful draughts he breathed it in! How was it he had not known,
had not thought, how much his heart was set upon it all! What this morning had been slight regret,
some little doubt of his own wisdom, turned now to grief, to actual
wretchedness, a mental agony so sharp that it repeatedly brought tears to his
eyes, while he questioned himself how he could have foreseen it. The hardest part, the part that more than
once it seemed he could not bear, was the thought that he should never more see
Venice again. Since now for the second
time the place had made him ill, since for the second time he had had to flee
for his life, he must henceforth regard it as a forbidden spot, to be forever
shunned; senseless to try it again, after he had proved himself unfit. Yes, if he fled it now, he felt that wounded
pride must prevent his return to this spot where twice he had made actual bodily
surrender. And this conflict between inclination and capacity all at once
assumed, in this middle-aged man's mind, immense weight and importance; the
physical defeat seemed a shameful thing, to be avoided at whatever cost; and he
stood amazed at the ease with which on the day before he had yielded to it.
Meanwhile the steamer neared the station
landing; his anguish of irresolution amounted almost to panic. To leave seemed to the
sufferer impossible, to remain not less so. Torn thus between two alternatives, he
entered the station. It was very late, he had not a moment to lose. Time pressed, it scourged him onward. He hastened to buy his ticket and looked
round in the crowd to find the hotel porter.
The man appeared and said that the trunk had already gone off. 'Gone already?' 'Yes, it has gone to Como.' 'To Como?' A hasty exchange of words - angry questions
from Aschenbach, and puzzled replies from the porter
- at length made it clear that the trunk had been put with the wrong luggage
even before leaving the hotel, and in company with other trunks was now well on
its way in precisely the wrong direction.
Aschenbach found
it hard to wear the right expression as he heard this news. A reckless joy, a deep incredible
mirthfulness shook him almost as with a spasm.
The porter dashed off after the lost trunk, returning very soon, of
course, to announce that his efforts were unavailing. Aschenbach said he
would not travel without his luggage; that he would go back and wait at the Hôtel des Bains until it turned
up. Was the company's motorboat still
outside? The man said yes, it was at the
door. With his native eloquence he
prevailed upon the ticket-agent to take back the ticket already purchased; he
swore that he would wire, that no pains should be spared, that the trunk would
be restored in the twinkling of an eye.
And the unbelievable thing came to pass; the traveller, twenty minutes
after he had reached the station, found himself once more on the Grand Canal on
his way back to the Lido.
What a strange adventure indeed, this
right-about face of destiny - incredible, humiliating, whimsical as any
dream! To be passing again, within the
hour, these scenes from which in profoundest grief he had but now taken leave
forever! The little swift-moving vessel,
a furrow of foam at its prow, tacking with droll agility between steamboats and
gondolas, went like a shot to its goal; and he, its sole passenger, sat hiding
the panic and thrills of a truant schoolboy beneath a mask of forced
resignation. His breast still heaved
from time to time with a burst of laughter over the contretemps. Things could not, he told himself, have
fallen out more luckily. There would be
the necessary explanations, a few astonished faces - then all would be well
once more, a mischance prevented, a grievous error set right; and all he had
thought to have left forever was his own once more, his for as long as he
liked.... And did the boat's swift motion deceive him, or was the wind now
coming from the sea?
The waves struck against the tiled sides
of the narrow canal. At Hôtel Excelsior the automobile omnibus awaited the returned
traveller and bore him along by the crisping waves back to the Hôtel des Bains. The little moustachioed manager in the
frock-coat came down the steps to greet him.
In dulcet tones he deplored the mistake,
said how painful it was to the management and himself; applauded Aschenbach's resolve to stop on until the errant trunk came
back; his former room, alas, was already taken, but another as good awaited his
approval. 'Pas de chance, monsieur,'
said the Swiss lift-porter, with a smile, as he conveyed him upstairs. And the fugitive was soon quartered in
another room which in situation and furnishings almost precisely resembled the
first.
He laid out the contents of his hand-bag
in their wonted places; then, tired out, dazed by the whirl of the
extraordinary forenoon, subsided into the armchair by the open window. The sea wore a pale-green cast, the air felt
thinner and purer, the beach with its cabins and boats had more colour,
notwithstanding the sky was still grey. Aschenbach, his hands folded in his lap, looked out. He felt rejoiced to be back, yet displeased
with his vacillating moods, his ignorance of his own real desires. Thus for nearly an hour he sat, dreaming,
resting, barely thinking. At midday he
saw Tadzio, in his stupid sailor suit with red breastknot, coming up from the sea, across the barrier and
along the boardwalk to the hotel. Aschenbach recognized him, even at this height, knew it was
he before he actually saw him, had it in mind to say to himself: 'Well, Tadzio, so here you are again too!' But the casual greeting
died away before it reached his lips, slain by the truth in his heart. He felt the rapture of his blood, the
poignant pleasure, and realized that it was for Tadzio's
sake the leave-taking had been so hard.
He sat quiet still, unseen at his high
post, and looked within himself. His
features were lively, he lifted his brows; a smile, alert, inquiring, vivid,
widened the mouth. Then he raised his
head and with both hands, hanging limp over the chair-arms, he described a slow
motion, palms outward, a lifting and turning movement, as though to indicate a
wide embrace. It was a gesture of
welcome, a calm and deliberate acceptance of what might come.
Now
daily the naked god with cheeks aflame drove his four fire-breathing steeds
through heaven's spaces; and with him streamed the strong east wind that
fluttered his yellow locks. A sheen, like white satin, lay over all the idly rolling
sea's expanse. The sand was burning
hot. Awnings of rust-coloured canvas
were spanned before the bathing-huts, under the ether's quivering silver-blue;
one spent the morning hours within the small, sharp square of shadow they
purveyed. But evening too was rarely
lovely: balsamic with the breath of flowers and shrubs from the nearby park,
while overhead the constellations circled in their spheres, and the murmuring
of the night-girded sea swelled softly up and whispered to the soul. Such nights as these contained the joyful
promise of a sunlit morrow, brimful of sweetly ordered idleness, studded thick
with countless precious possibilities.
The guest detained here by so happy a
mischance was far from finding the return of his luggage a ground for setting
out anew. For two days he had suffered
slight inconvenience and had to dine in the large salon in his travelling
clothes. Then the lost trunk was set
down in his room, and he hastened to unpack, filling presses and drawers with
his possessions. He meant to stay on -
and on; he rejoiced in the prospect of wearing a silk suit for the hot morning
hours on the beach and appearing in acceptable evening dress at dinner.
He was quick to fall in with the pleasing
monotony of this manner of life, readily enchanted by its mild soft brilliance
and ease. And what a spot it is, indeed!
- uniting the charms of a luxurious bathing-resort by a southern sea with the
immediate nearness of a unique and marvellous city. Aschenbach was not
pleasure-loving. Always, wherever and
whenever it was the order of the day to be merry, to refrain from labour and
make glad the heart, he would soon be conscious of the imperative summons - and
especially was this so in his youth - back to the high fatigues, the sacred and
fasting service that consumed his days.
This spot and this alone had power to beguile him, to relax his
resolution, to make him glad. At times -
of a forenoon perhaps, as he lay in the shadow of his awning, gazing out
dreamily over the blue of the southern sea, or in the mildness of the night,
beneath the wide starry sky, ensconced among the cushions of the gondola that
bore him Lido-wards after an evening on the Piazza, while the gay lights faded
and the melting music of the serenades died away on his ear - he would think of
his mountain home, the theatre of his summer labours. There clouds hung low and trailed through the
garden, violent storms extinguished the lights of the house at night, and the
ravens he fed swung in the tops of the fir trees. And he would feel transported to Elysium, to
the ends of the earth, to a spot most carefree for the sons of men, where no
snow is, and no winter, no storms or downpours of rain; where Oceanus sends a mild and cooling breath, and days flow on
in blissful idleness, without effort or struggle, entirely dedicated to the sun
and the feasts of the sun.
Aschenbach saw
the boy Tadzio almost constantly. The narrow confines of their world of hotel
and beach, the daily round followed by all alike, brought him in close, almost
uninterrupted touch with the beautiful lad.
He encountered him everywhere - in the salons of the hotel, on the
cooling rides to the city and back, among the splendours of the Piazza, and
besides all this in many another going and coming as chance vouchsafed. But it was the regular morning hours on the
beach which gave him his happiest opportunity to study and admire the lovely
apparition. Yes, this immediate
happiness, this daily recurring boon at the hand of circumstance, this it was
that filled him with content, with joy in life, enriched his stay, and lingered
out the row of sunny days that fell into place so pleasantly one behind the
other.
He rose early - as early as though he had
a panting press of work - and was among the first on the beach, when the sun
was still benign and the sea dazzling white in its morning slumber. He gave the watchman a friendly good-morning
and chattered with a barefoot, white-haired old man who prepared his place,
spread the awning, trundled out the chair and table on
to the little platform. Then he settled
down; he had three or four hours before the sun reached its height and the
fearful climax of its power; three or four hours while the sea went deeper and
deeper blue; three or four hours in which to watch Tadzio.
He would see him coming up, on the left,
along the margin of the sea; or from behind, between the cabins; or, with a
start of joyful surprise, would discover that he himself was late, and Tadzio already down, in the blue and white bathing-suit
that was now his only wear on the beach; there and engrossed in his usual
activities in the sand, beneath the sun.
It was a sweetly idle, trifling, fitful life, of play and rest, of
strolling, wading, digging, fishing, swimming, lying on the sand. Often the women sitting on the platform would
call out to him in their high voices: 'Tadzio! Tadzio!' and he would come running and waving his arms,
eager to tell them what he had found, what caught - shells, seahorses,
jellyfish, and sidewards-running crabs. Aschenbach
understood not a word he said; it might be the sheerest commonplace, in his ear
it became mingled harmonies. Thus the
lad's foreign birth raised his speech to music; a wanton sun showered splendour
on him, and the noble distances of the sea formed the background which set off
his figure.
Soon the observer knew every line and pose
of this form that limned itself so freely against sea and sky; its every
loveliness, though conned by heart, yet thrilled him each day afresh; his
admiration knew no bounds, the delight of his eye was unending. Once the lad was summoned
to speak to a guest who was waiting for his mother at their cabin. He ran up, ran dripping wet out of the sea,
tossing his curls, and put out his hand, standing with his weight on one leg,
resting the other foot on his toes; as he stood there in a posture of suspense
the turn of his body was enchanting, while his features wore a look half
shamefaced, half conscious of the duty breeding laid upon him to please. Or he would lie at full length, with his bathrobe
around him, one slender young arm resting on the sand, his chin in the hollow
of his hand; the lad they called Jaschiu squatting
beside him, paying him court. There
could be nothing lovelier on earth than the smile and look with which the
playmate thus singled out rewarded his humble friend and vassal. Again, he might be at the water's edge,
alone, removed from his family, quite close to Aschenbach;
standing erect, his hands clasped at the back of his neck, rocking slowly on
the balls of his feet, daydreaming away into blue space, while little waves ran
up and bathed his toes. The ringlets of
honey-coloured hair clung to his temples and neck, the fine down along the
upper vertebrae was yellow in the sunlight; the thin envelope of flesh covering
the torso betrayed the delicate outlines of the ribs and the symmetry of the
breast-structure. His armpits were still
as smooth as a statue's, smooth the glistening hollows behind the knees, where
the blue network of veins suggested that the body was formed of some stuff more
transparent than mere flesh. What discipline, what precision of thought were expressed by the
tense youthful perfection of this form!
And yet the pure, strong will which had laboured in darkness and
succeeded in bringing this godlike work of art to the light of day - was it not
known and familiar to him, the artist?
Was not the same force at work in himself when
he strove in cold fury to liberate from the marble mass of language the slender
forms of his art which he saw with the eye of his mind and would body forth to
men as the mirror and image of spiritual beauty?
Mirror and image! His eyes took in the proud bearing of that
figure there at the blue water's edge; with an outburst of rapture he told
himself that what he saw was beauty's very essence; form as a divine thought,
the single and pure perfection which resides in the mind, of which an image and
likeness, rare and holy, was here raised up for adoration. This was very frenzy - and without a scruple,
nay, eagerly, the ageing artist bade it come.
His mind was in travail, his whole mental background in a state of
flux. Memory flung up in him the
primitive thoughts which are youth's inheritance, but which with him had
remained latent, never leaping up into a blaze.
Has it not been written that the sun beguiles our attention from things
of the intellect to fix it on things of the sense? The sun, they say,
dazzles; so bewitching reason and memory that the soul for very pleasure
forgets its actual state, to cling with doting on the loveliest of all the
objects she shines on. Yes, and then it
is only through the medium of some corporeal being that it can raise itself
again to contemplation of higher things.
Amor, in sooth, is like the mathematician who
in order to give children a knowledge of pure form must do so in the language
of pictures; so, too, the god, in order to make visible the spirit, avails
himself of the forms and colours of human youth, gilding it with all imaginable
beauty that it may serve memory as a tool, the very sight of which then sets us
afire with pain and longing.
Such were the devotee's thoughts, such the
power of his emotions. And the sea, so
bright with glancing sunbeams, wove in his mind a spell and summoned up a
lovely picture: there was the ancient plane-tree outside the walls of Athens, a
hallowed, shady spot, fragrant with willow-blossom and adorned with images and
votive offerings in honour of the nymphs and Achelous. Clear ran the smooth-pebbled stream at the
foot of the spreading tree. Crickets
were fiddling. But on the gentle grassy
slope, where one could lie yet hold the head erect, and shelter from the
scorching heat, two men reclined, an elder with a younger, ugliness paired with
beauty and wisdom with grace. Here
Socrates held forth to youthful Phaedrus upon the
nature of virtue and desire, wooing him with insinuating wit and charming turns
of phrase. He told him of the shuddering
and unwonted heat that comes upon him whose heart is open, when his eye beholds
an image of eternal beauty; spoke of the impious and corrupt, who cannot
conceive beauty though they see its image, and are incapable of awe; and of the
fear and reverence felt by the noble soul when he beholds a godlike face or a
form which is a good image of beauty: how as he gazes he worships the beautiful
one and scarcely dares to look upon him, but would offer sacrifice as to an
idol or a god, did he not fear to be thought stark mad. 'For beauty, my Phaedrus,
beauty alone is lovely and visible at once.
For, mark you, it is the sole aspect of the spiritual which we can
perceive through our senses, or bear so to perceive. Else what should become of us, if the divine,
if reason and virtue and truth, were to speak to us through the senses? Should we not perish and be consumed by love,
as Semele aforetime was by
Zeus? So beauty, then, is the
beauty-lover's way to the spirit - but only the way, only the means, my little Phaedrus.' - And then, sly arch-lover that he was, he said
the subtlest thing of all: that the lover was nearer the divine than the
beloved; for the god was in the one but not in the other - perhaps the tenderest, most mocking thought that ever was thought, and
source of all the guile and secret bliss the lover knows.
Thought that can emerge wholly into
feeling, feeling that can merge wholly into thought - these are the artist's
highest joy. And our solitary felt in
himself at this moment power to command and wield a thought that thrilled with
emotion, an emotion as precise and concentrated as thought: namely, that nature
herself shivers with ecstasy when the mind bows down in homage before
beauty. He felt a sudden desire to
write. Eros, indeed, we are told, loves
idleness, and for idle hours alone was he created. But in this crisis the violence of our
sufferer's seizure was directed almost wholly towards production, its occasion
almost a matter of indifference. News
had reached him on his travels that a certain problem had been raised, the
intellectual world challenged for its opinion on a great and burning question
of art and taste. By nature and
experience the theme was his own: and he could not resist the temptation to set
it off in the glistening foil of his words.
He would write, and moreover he would write in Tadzio's
presence. This lad should be in a sense
his model, his style should follow the lines of this
figure that seemed to him divine; he would snatch up this beauty into the
realms of the mind, as once the eagle bore the Trojan shepherd aloft. Never had the pride of the world been so
sweet to him, never had he known so well that Eros is in the word, as in those
perilous and precious hours when he sat at his rude table, within the shade of
his awning, his idol full in his view and the music of his voice in his ears,
and fashioned his little essay after the model Tadzio's
beauty set: that page and a half of choicest prose, so chaste, so lofty, so
poignant with feeling, which would shortly be the wonder and admiration of the
multitude. Verily it is well for the
world that it sees only the beauty of the completed work and not its origins
nor the conditions whence it sprang; since knowledge of the artist's
inspiration might often but confuse and alarm and so prevent the full effect of
its excellence. Strange hours, indeed,
these were, and strangely unnerving the labour that filled them! Strangely fruitful intercourse this, between
one body and another mind! When Aschenbach put aside his work and left the beach he felt
exhausted, he felt broken - conscience reproached him, as it were after a
debauch.
Next morning on leaving the hotel he stood
at the top of the stairs leading down from the terrace and saw Tadzio in front on him on his way to the beach. The lad had just reached the gate in the
railings, and he was alone. Aschenbach felt, quite simply, a wish to overtake him, to
address him and have the pleasure of his reply and answering look; to put upon
a blithe and friendly footing his relation with this being who all
unconsciously had so greatly heightened and quickened his emotions. The lovely youth moved at a loitering pace -
he might be easily overtaken; and Aschenbach hastened
his own step. He reached him on the
boardwalk that ran behind the bathing-cabins, and all but put out his hand to
lay it on shoulder or head, while his lips parted to utter a friendly
salutation in French. But - perhaps from
the swift pace of his last few steps - he found his heart throbbing unpleasantly
fast, while his breath came in such quick pants that he could only have gasped
had he tried to speak. He hesitated,
sought after self-control, was suddenly panic-stricken lest the boy notice him
hanging there behind him and look round. Then he gave up, abandoned his plan, and
passed him with bent head and hurried step.
'Too late! Too
late!' he thought as he went by. But was
it too late? This step he had delayed to
take might so easily have put everything in a lighter key, had led to a sane
recovery from his folly. But the truth
may have been that the ageing man did not want to be cured, that his illusion
was far too dear to him. Who shall unriddle the puzzle of the artist nature? Who understands that mingling of discipline
and licence in which it stands so deeply rooted? For not to be able to want
sobriety is licentious folly. Aschenbach was no longer disposed to self-analysis. He had no taste for it; his self-esteem, the
attitude of mind proper to his years, his maturity and single-mindedness,
disinclined him to look within himself and decide whether it was constraint or
puerile sensuality that had prevented him from carrying out his project. He felt confused, he was afraid someone, if
only the watchman, might have been observing his behaviour and final surrender
- very much he feared being ridiculous.
And all the time he was laughing at himself for his serio-comic
seizure. 'Quite crestfallen,' he
thought. 'I was like the gamecock that
lets his wings droop in the battle. That
must be the Love-God himself, that makes us hang our heads at sight of beauty
and weighs our proud spirits low as the ground.' Thus he played with the idea - he embroidered
upon it, and was too arrogant to admit fear of an emotion.
The term he had set for his holiday passed
by unheeded; he had no thought of going home.
Ample funds had been sent him.
His sole concern was that the Polish family might leave and a chance
question put to the hotel barber elicited the information that they had come
only very shortly before himself. The
sun browned his face and hands, the invigorating salty air heightened his
emotional energies. Heretofore he had
wont to give out at once, in some new effort, the powers accumulated by sleep
or food or outdoor air; but now the strength that flowed in upon him with each
day of sun and sea and idleness he let go up in one extravagant gush of
emotional intoxication.
His sleep was fitful; the priceless,
equable days were divided one from the next by brief nights filled with happy
unrest. He went, indeed, early to bed,
for at nine o'clock, with the departure of Tadzio
from the scene, the day was over for him. But in the faint greyness of the morning a
tender pang would go through him as his heart was minded of its adventure; he
could no longer bear his pillow and, rising, would rap himself
against the early chill and sit down by the window to await the sunrise. Awe of the miracle filled his soul new-risen
from its sleep. Heaven, earth, and its
waters yet lay enfolded in the ghostly, glassy pallor of dawn; one paling star
still swam in the shadowy vast. But
there came a breath, a winged word from far and inaccessible abodes, that Eros
was rising from the side of her spouse, and there was
that first sweet reddening of the farthest strip of sea and sky that manifests
creation to man's sense. She neared, the
goddess, ravisher of youth, who stole away Cleitos
and Cephalus and, defying all the envious Olympians,
tasted beautiful Orion's love. At the
world's edge began a strewing of roses, a shining and a blooming ineffably
pure; baby cloudlets hung illuminated, like attendant amoretti, in the blue and
blushful haze; purple effulgence fell upon the sea, that seemed to heave it
forward on its welling waves; from horizon to zenith went quivering thrusts
like golden lances, the gleam became a glare; without a sound, with godlike
violence, glow and glare and rolling flames streamed upwards, and with flying
hoof-beats the steeds of the sun-god mounted the sky. The lonely watcher sat, the splendour of the
god shone on him, he closed his eyes and let the glory kiss his lids. Forgotten feelings, precious pangs of his
youth, quenched long since by the stern service that had been his life and now
returned so strangely metamorphosed - he recognized them with a puzzled,
wondering smile. He mused, he dreamed,
his lips slowly shaped a name; still smiling, his face turned seawards and his
hands lying folded in his lap, he fell asleep once more as he sat.
But that day, which began so fierily and
festally, was not like other days; it was transmuted and gilded with mythical
significance. For whence could come the
breath, so mild and meaningful, like a whisper from higher spheres, that played
about temple and ear? Troops of small
feathery white clouds ranged over the sky, like grazing herds of the gods. A stronger wind arose, and Poseidon's horses
ran up, arching their manes, among them too the steers of him with the purpled
locks, who lowered their horns and bellowed as they came on; while like
prancing goats the waves on the farther strand leaped among the craggy
rocks. It was a world possessed, people
by Pan, that closed round the spellbound man, and his
doting heart conceived the most delicate fancies. When the sun was going down behind Venice, he
would sometimes sit on a bench in the park and watch Tadzio,
white-clad, with gay-coloured sash, at play there on the rolled gravel with his
ball; and at such times it was not Tadzio whom he
saw, but Hyacinthus, doomed to die because two gods
were rivals for her love. Ah, yes, he
tasted the envious pangs that Zephyr knew when his rival, bow and cithara,
oracle and all forgot, played with the beauteous youth; he watched the discus,
guided by torturing jealousy, strike the beloved head; paled as he received the
broken body in his arms, and saw the flower spring up, watered by that sweet
blood and signed for evermore with his lament.
There can be no relation more strange,
more critical, than that between two beings who know each other only with their
eyes, who meet daily, yes, even hourly, eye each other with a fixed regard, and
yet by some whim or freak of convention feel constrained to act like
strangers. Uneasiness rules between
them, unslaked curiosity, a hysterical desire to give
rein to their suppressed impulse to recognize and address each other; even,
actually, a sort of strained but mutual regard.
For one human being instinctively feels respect and love for another
human being so long as he does not know him well enough to judge him; and that
he does not, the craving he feels is evidence.
Some sort of relationship and
acquaintanceship was perforce set up between Aschenbach
and the youthful Tadzio; it was with a thrill of joy
the older man perceived that the lad was not entirely unresponsive to all the
tender notice lavished on him. For
instance, what should move the lovely youth, nowadays when he descended to the
beach, always to avoid the boardwalk behind the bathing-huts and saunter along
the sand, passing Aschenbach's tent in front,
sometimes so unnecessarily close as almost to graze his table or chair? Could the power of an emotion so beyond his own so draw, so fascinate its innocent object? Daily Aschenbach
would wait for Tadzio. Then sometimes, on his approach, he would
pretend to be preoccupied and let the charmer pass unregarded
by. But sometimes he looked up, and
their glances met; when that happened both were profoundly serious. The elder's dignified and cultured mien let
nothing appear of his inward state; but
in Tadzio's eyes a question lay - he faltered in his
step, gazed on the ground, then up again with that ineffably sweet look he had;
and when he was past, something in his bearing seemed to say that only good
breeding hindered him from turning round.
But once, one evening, it fell out
differently. The Polish brother and
sisters, with their governess, had missed the evening meal, and Aschenbach had noted the fact with concern. He was restive over their absence, and after
dinner walked up and down in front of the hotel, in evening dress and a straw
hat; when suddenly he saw the nunlike sisters with
their companion appear in the light of the arc-lamps, and four paces behind
them Tadzio.
Evidently they came from the steamer-landing, having dined for some
reason in Venice. It had been chilly on
the lagoon, for Tadzio wore a dark-blue reefer-jacket
with gilt buttons, and a cap to match.
Sun and sea air could not burn his skin, it was
the same creamy marble hue as at first - though he did look a little pale,
either from the cold or in the bluish moonlight of the arc-lamps. The shapely brows were so delicately drawn,
the eyes so deeply dark - lovelier he was than words could say, and as often
the thought visited Aschenbach, and brought its own
pang, that language could but extol, not reproduce, the beauties of the sense.
The sight of that dear form was unexpected, it had appeared unhoped-for, without giving him
time to compose his features. Joy,
surprise, and admiration might have painted themselves quite openly upon his
face - and just as this second it happened that Tadzio
smiled. Smiled at Aschenbach, unabashed and friendly, a speaking, winning,
captivating smile, with slowly parting lips. With such a smile it might be that Narcissus
bent over the mirroring pool, a smile profound, infatuated, lingering, as he
put out his arms to the reflection of his own beauty; the lips just slightly
pursed, perhaps half-realizing his own folly in trying to kiss the cold lips of
his shadow - with a mingling of coquetry and curiosity and a faint unease,
enthralling and enthralled.
Aschenbach received
that smile and turned away with it as though entrusted with a fatal gift. So shaken was he that he had to flee from the
lighted terrace and front gardens and seek out with hurried steps the darkness
of the park at the rear. Reproaches
strangely mixed of tenderness and remonstrance burst from him: 'How dare you
smile like that! No-one is allowed to smile like
that!' He flung himself on a bench, his
composure gone to the winds, and breathed in the nocturnal fragrance of the
garden. He leaned back, with hanging
arms, quivering from head to foot, and quite unmanned he whispered the
hackneyed phrase of love and longing - impossible in this circumstances,
absurd, abject, ridiculous enough, yet sacred too, and not unworthy of honour
even here: 'I love you!'
In
the fourth week of his stay at the Lido, Gustave von Aschenbach made certain singular observations touching the
world about him. He noticed, in the
first place, that though the season was approaching its height, yet the number
of guests declined and, in particular, that the German tongue had suffered a
rout, being scarcely or never heard in the land. At table and on the beach he caught nothing
but foreign words. One day at the
barber's - where he was now a frequent visitor - he heard something rather
startling. The barber mentioned a German
family who had just left the Lido after a brief stay, and rattled on in his
obsequious way: 'The signore is not leaving - he has
no fear of the sickness, has he?' Aschenbach looked at him.
'The sickness?' he repeated.
Whereat the prattler fell silent, became very busy all at once, affected
not to hear. When Aschenbach
persisted he said he really knew nothing at all about it, and tried in a fresh
burst of eloquence to drown the embarrassing subject.
That was one forenoon. After luncheon Aschenbach
had himself ferried across to Venice, in a dead calm, under a burning sun;
driven by his mania he was following the Polish young folk, whom he had seen
with their companion, taking the way to the landing-stage. He did not find his idol on the Piazza. But as he sat there at tea, at a little round
table on the shady side, suddenly he noticed a peculiar odour, which, it now
seemed to him, had been in the air for days without his being aware: a
sweetish, medicinal smell, associated with wounds and disease and suspect
cleanliness. He sniffed and pondered and
at length recognized it; finished his tea and left the square at the end facing
the cathedral. In the narrow space the
stench grew stronger. At the street
corners placards were stuck up, in which the city authorities warned the
population against the danger of certain infections of the gastric system,
prevalent during the hot season; advising them not to eat oysters or other
shellfish and not to use the canal waters.
The ordinance showed every sign of minimizing an existing
situation. Little groups of people stood
about silently in the squares and on the bridges; the traveller moved among
them, watched and listened and thought.
He spoke to a shopkeeper lounging at his
door among dangling coral necklaces and trinkets of artificial amethyst, and
asked him about the disagreeable odour.
The man looked at him, heavy-eyed, and hastily pulled himself together. 'Just a formal precaution, signore,' he said, with a gesture. 'A police regulation we have to put up
with. The air is sultry - the sirocco is
not wholesome, as the signore knows. Just a
precautionary measure, you understand - probably unnecessary....' Aschenbach thanked
him and passed on. And on the boat that
bore him back to the Lido he smelt the germicide again.
On reaching his hotel he sought the table
in the lobby and buried himself in the newspapers. The foreign-language sheets had nothing. But in the German papers certain rumours were
mentioned, statistics given, then officially denied,
then the good faith of the denials called in question. The departure of the German and Austrian
contingent was thus made plain. As for
other nationals, they knew or suspected nothing - they were still
undisturbed. Aschenbach
tossed the newspapers back on the table.. 'It ought to be kept quiet,' he thought,
aroused. 'It should not be talked
about.' And he felt in his heart a
curious elation at these events impending in the world about him. Passion is like crime: it does not thrive on
the established order and the common round; it welcomes every blow dealt the
bourgeois structure, every weakening of the social fabric, because therein it
feels a sure hope of its own advantage. Those
things that were going on in the unclean alleys of Venice, under cover of an
official hushing-up policy - they gave Aschenbach a
dark satisfaction. The city's evil
secret mingled with the one in the depths of his heart - and he would have
staked all he possessed to keep it, since in his infatuation he cared for
nothing but to keep Tadzio here, and owned to
himself, not without horror, that he could not exist were the lad to pass from
his sight.
He was no longer satisfied to owe his
communion with his charmer to chance and the routine of hotel life; he had
begun to follow and waylay him. On
Sundays, for example, the Polish family never appeared on the beach. Aschenbach guessed
they went to mass at San Marco and pursued them thither. He passed from the glare of the Piazza into
the golden twilight of the holy place and found him he sought bowed in worship
over a prie-dieu.
He kept in the background, standing on the fissured mosaic pavement
among the devout populace, that knelt and muttered and made the sign of the
cross; and the crowded splendour of the oriental temple weighed voluptuously on
his sense. A heavily ornate priest
intoned and gesticulated before the altar, where little candle flames flickered
helplessly in the reek of incense-breathing smoke; and with that cloying
sacrificial smell another seemed to mingle - the odour of the sickened
city. But through all the glamour and
glitter, Aschenbach saw the exquisite creature there
in front turn his head, seek out and meet his lover's eyes.
The crowd streamed out through the portals
into the brilliant square thick with fluttering doves, and the fond fool stood
aside in the vestibule on the watch. He
saw the Polish family leave the church.
The children took ceremonial leave of their mother, and she turned
towards the Piazzetta on her way home, while his
charmer and the cloistered sisters, with their governess, passed beneath the
clock tower into the Merceria. When they were a few paces on, he followed -
he stole behind them on their walk through the city. When they paused, he did so too; when they
turned round, he fled into inns and courtyards to let them pass. Once he lost them from view, hunted
feverishly over bridges and in filthy cul-de--sacs,
only to confront them suddenly in a narrow passage whence there was no escape,
and experience a moment of panic fear. Yet it would be untrue to say he
suffered. Mind and heart were drunk with
passion, his footsteps guided by the daemonic power
whose pastime it is to trample on human reason and dignity.
Tadzio and his
sisters at length took a gondola. Aschenbach hid behind a portico or fountain while they
embarked and directly they pushed off did the same. In a furtive whisper he told the boatman he
would tip him well to follow at a little distance the other gondola, just rounding
a corner, and fairly sickened at the man's quick, sly grasp and ready
acceptance of the go-between's role.
Leaning back among soft, black cushions he
swayed gently in the wake of the other black-snouted
bark, to which the strength of his passion chained him. Sometimes it passed from his view, and then
he was assailed by an anguish of unrest.
But his guide appeared to have long practice in affairs like these;
always, by dint of shortcuts or deft manoeuvres, he contrived to overtake the
coveted sight. The air was heavy and
foul, the sun burnt down through a slate-coloured haze. Water slapped gurgling against wood and
stone. The gondolier's cry, half
warning, half salute, was answered with singular accord from far within the
silence of the labyrinth. They passed
little gardens high up the crumbling wall, hung with clustering white and
purple flowers that sent down an odour of almonds. Moorish lattices showed shadowy in the
gloom. The marble steps of a church
descended into the canal, and on them a beggar squatted, displaying his misery
to view, showing the whites of his eyes, holding out his hat for alms. Farther on a dealer in antiquities cringed
before his lair, inviting the passer-by to enter and be duped. Yes, this was Venice, this the fair frailty
that fawned and that betrayed, half fairytale, half snare; the city in whose
stagnating air the art of painting once put forth so lusty a growth, and where
musicians were moved to accords so weirdly lulling and lascivious. Our adventurer felt his senses wooed by this
voluptuousness of sight and sound, tasted his secret knowledge that the city
sickened and his its sickness for love of gain, and
bent an ever more unbridled leer on the gondola that glided on before him.
It came at last to this - that his frenzy left him capacity for nothing else but to
pursue his flame; to dream of him absent, to lavish, loverlike,
endearing terms on his mere shadow. He
was alone, he was a foreigner, he was sunk deep in
this belated bliss of his - all which enabled him to pass unblushing through
experiences well-nigh unbelievable. One
night, returning late from Venice, he paused by his beloved's chamber door in
the second storey, leaned his head against the panel, and remained there long,
in utter drunkenness, powerless to tear himself away,
blind to the danger of being caught in so mad an attitude.
And yet there were not wholly lacking
moments when he paused and reflected, when in consternation he asked himself
what path was this on which he had set his foot. Like most other men of parts and attainments,
he had an aristocratic interest in his forbears, and when he achieved a success
he liked to think he had gratified them, compelled their admiration and
regard. He thought of them now, involved
as he was in this illicit adventure, seized of these exotic excesses of
feeling; thought of their stern self-command and decent manliness, and gave a
melancholy smile. What would they have
said? What, indeed, would they have said
to his entire life, that varied to the point of
degeneracy from theirs? This life in the
bonds of art, had not he himself, in the days of his youth and in the very
spirit of those bourgeois forefathers, pronounced mocking judgement upon
it? And yet, at bottom, it had been so like their own! It
had been a service, and he a soldier, like some of
them; and art was war - a grilling, exhausting struggle that nowadays wore one
out before one could grow old. It had
been a life of self-conquest, a life against odds, dour, steadfast, abstinent; he had made it symbolical of the kind of
over-strained heroism the time admired, and he was entitled to call it manly,
even courageous. He wondered if such a
life might not be somehow specially pleasing in the
eyes of the god who had him in his power.
For Eros had received most countenance among the most valiant nations -
yes, were we not told that in their cities prowess made him flourish
exceedingly? And many heroes of olden
time had willingly borne his yoke, not counting any humiliation such as if it
happened by the god's decree; vows, prostrations, self-abasements, these were
no source of shame to the lover; rather they reaped him praise and honour.
Thus did the fond man's folly condition
his thoughts; thus did he seek to hold his dignity upright in his own
eyes. And all the while he kept doggedly
on the traces of the disreputable secret the city kept hidden at its heart,
just as he kept his own - and all that he learned fed his passion with vague,
lawless hopes. He turned over newspapers
at cafés, bent on finding a report on the progress of the disease; and in the
German sheets, which had ceased to appear on the hotel table, he found a series
of contradictory statements. The deaths,
it was variously asserted, ran to twenty, to forty, to a hundred or more; yet
in the next day's issue the existence of the pestilence was, if not roundly
denied, reported as a matter of a few sporadic cases such as might be brought
into a seaport town. After that the
warnings would break out again, and the protests against the unscrupulous game
the authorities were playing. No
definite information was to be had.
And yet our solitary felt he had a sort of
first claim on a share in the unwholesome secret; he took a fantastic
satisfaction in putting leading questions to such persons as were interested to
conceal it, and forcing them to explicit untruths by way of denial. One day he attacked the manager, that small,
soft-stepping man in the French frock-coat, who was moving about among the
guests at luncheon, supervising the service and making himself
socially agreeable. He paused at Aschenbach's table to exchange a greeting, and the guest
put a question, with a negligent, casual air: 'Why in the world are they
forever disinfecting the city of Venice?'
'A police regulation,' the adroit one replied; 'a precautionary measure,
intended to protect the health of the public during this unseasonably warm and
sultry weather.' 'Very praiseworthy of
the police,' Aschenbach gravely responded. After a further exchange of meteorological
commonplaces the manager passed on.
It happened that a band of street
musicians came to perform in the hotel gardens that evening after dinner. They grouped themselves beneath an iron
stanchion supporting an arc-light, two women and two men, and turned their
faces, that shone white in the glare, up towards the guests who sat on the
hotel terrace enjoying this popular entertainment along with their coffee and
iced drinks. The hotel lift-boys,
waiters, and office staff stood in the doorway and listened; the Russian family
displayed the usual Russian absorption in their enjoyment - they had their
chairs put down into the garden to be nearer the singers and sat there in a
half-circle with gratitude painted on their features, the old serf in her
turban erect behind their chairs.
These strolling players were adepts at
mandolin, guitar, harmonica, even compassing a reedy violin. Vocal members alternated with instrumental,
the younger woman, who had a high shrill voice, joining in a love-duet with the
sweetly falsettoing tenor. The actual head of the company, however, and
incontestably its most gifted member, was the other man, who played the
guitar. He was a sort of baritone buffo;
with no voice to speak of, but possessed of a pantomimic gift and remarkable
burlesque élan. Often he stepped
out of the group and advanced towards the terrace, guitar in hand, and his
audience rewarded his sallies with bursts of laughter. The Russians in their parterre seats were
beside themselves with delight over this display of southern vivacity; their
shouts and screams of applause encouraged him to bolder and bolder flights.
Aschenbach sat
near the balustrade, a glass of pomegranate-juice and soda-water sparkling
ruby-red before him, with which he now and then moistened his lips. His nerves drank in thirstily the unlovely
sounds, the vulgar and sentimental tunes, for passion paralyses good taste and
makes its victim accept with rapture what a man in his senses would either
laugh at or turn from with disgust. Idly
he sat and watched the antics of the buffoon with his face set in a fixed and
painful smile, while inwardly his whole being was
rigid with the intensity of the regard he bent on Tadzio,
leaning over the railing six paces off.
He lounged there, in the white-belted suit
he sometimes wore at dinner, in all his innate, inevitable grace, with his left
arm on the balustrade, his legs crossed, the right
hand on the supporting hip; and looked down on the strolling singers with an
expression that was hardly a smile, but rather a distant curiosity and polite
toleration. Now and then he straightened
himself and with a charming movement of both arms drew down his white blouse
through his leather belt, throwing out his chest. And sometimes - Aschenbach
saw it with triumph, with horror, and a sense that his reason was tottering -
the lad would cast a glance, that might be slow and cautious, or might be
sudden and swift, as though to take him by surprise, to the place where his
lover sat. Aschenbach
did not meet the glance. An ignoble
caution made him keep his eyes in leash.
For in the rear of the terrace sat Tadzio's
mother and governess; and matters had gone so far that he feared to make
himself conspicuous. Several times, on
the beach, in the hotel lobby, on the Piazza, he had seen, with a stealing
numbness, that they called Tadzio away from his
neighbourhood. And his pride revolted at
the affront, even while conscience told him it was deserved.
The performer below presently began a
solo, with guitar accompaniment, a street song in several stanzas, just then the rage all over Italy. He delivered it in a striking and dramatic
recitative, and his company joined in the refrain. He was a man of slight build, with a thin,
undernourished face; his shabby felt hat rested on the back of his neck, a
great mop of red hair sticking out in front; and he stood there on the gravel
in advance of his troupe, in an impudent, swaggering posture, twanging the
strings of his instrument and flinging a witty and rollicking recitative up to
the terrace, while the veins on his forehead swelled with the violence of his
effort. He was scarcely a Venetian type,
belonging rather to the race of Neopolitan jesters,
half bully, half comedian, brutal, blustering, an unpleasant customer, and
entertaining to the last degree. The
words of his song were trivial and silly, but on his lips, accompanied with
gestures of head, hands, arms, and body, with leers and winks and the loose
play of the tongue in the corner of his mouth, they took on meaning; an
equivocal meaning, yet vaguely offensive.
He wore a white sports shirt with a suit of ordinary clothes, and a
strikingly large and naked-looking Adam's apple rose out of the open
collar. From the pale, snub-nosed face
it was hard to judge of his age; vice sat on it, it was furrowed with
grimacing, and two deep wrinkles of defiance and self-will, almost of
desperation, stood oddly between the red brows, above the grinning mobile
mouth. But what more than all drew upon
him the profound scrutiny of our solitary watcher was that this suspicious
figure seemed to carry with it its own suspicious odour. For whenever the refrain occurred and the
singer, with waving arms and antic gestures, passed in his grotesque march
immediately beneath Aschenbach's seat, a strong smell
of carbolic was wafted up to the terrace.
After the song he began to take up money,
beginning with the Russian family, who gave liberally, and then mounting the
steps to the terrace. But here he became
as cringing as he had before been forward.
He glided between the tables, bowing and scraping, showing his strong
white teeth in a servile smile, though the two deep furrows on the brow were
still very marked. His audience looked
at the strange creature as he went about collecting his livelihood, and their
curiosity was not unmixed with disfavour.
They tossed coins with their fingertips into his hat and took care not
to touch it. Let the enjoyment be never
so great, a sort of embarrassment always comes when the comedian oversteps the
physical distance between himself and respectable people. This man felt it and sought to make his peace
by fawning. He came along the railing to
Aschenbach, and with him came that smell no-one else
seemed to notice.
'Listen!' said the solitary, in a low
voice, almost mechanically; 'they are disinfecting Venice - why?' The mountebank answered hoarsely: 'Because of
the police. Orders, signore. On account of the heat and the sirocco. The sirocco is oppressive. Not good for the health.' He spoke as though surprised that anyone
could ask, and with the flat of his hand he demonstrated how oppressive the
sirocco was. 'So there is no plague in
Venice?' Aschenbach
asked the question between his teeth, very low.
The man's expressive face fell, he put on a
look of comical innocence. 'A plague? What sort
of plague? Is the sirocco a plague? Or perhaps our police are a plague! You are making fun of us, signore! A plague!
Why should there be? The police
make regulations on account of the heat and the weather....' He gestured. 'Quite,' said Aschenbach,
once more, soft and low; and dropping an unduly large coin into the man's hat
dismissed him with a sign. He bowed very
low and left. But he had not reached the
steps when two of the hotel servants flung themselves on him and began to whisper,
their faces close to his. He shrugged,
seemed to be giving assurances, to be swearing he had said nothing. It was not hard to guess the import of his
words. They let him go at last and he
went back into the garden, where he conferred briefly with his troupe and then
stepped forward for a farewell song.
It was one Aschenbach
had never to his knowledge heard before, a rowdy air, with words in impossible
dialect. It had a laughing-refrain in
which the other three artists joined at the top of their lungs. The refrain had neither words nor accompaniment, it was nothing but rhythmical, modulated,
natural laughter, which the soloist in particular knew how to render with most
deceptive realism. Now that he was
farther off his audience, his self-assurance had come back, and this laughter
of his rang with a mocking note. He
would be overtaken, before he reached the end of the last line of each stanza;
he would catch his breath, lay his hand over his mouth, his voice would quaver
and his shoulders shake, he would lose power to contain himself longer. Just as the right moment each time., it came
whooping, bawling, crashing out of him, with a verisimilitude that never failed
to set his audience off in profuse and unpremeditated mirth that seemed to add
gusto to his own. He bent his knees, he
clapped his thigh, he held his sides, he looked ripe
for bursting. He no longer laughed, but
yelled, pointing his finger at the company there above as though there could be
in all the world nothing so comic as they; until at last they laughed in hotel,
terrace, and garden, down to the waiters, lift-boys, and servants - laughed as
though possessed.
Aschenbach could
no longer rest in his chair, he sat poised for flight. But the combined effect of the laughing, the
hospital odour in his nostrils, and the nearness of the beloved was to hold him in a spell; he felt unable to stir. Under cover of the general commotion he
looked across at Tadzio and saw that the lovely boy
returned his gaze with a seriousness that seemed the copy of his own; the
general hilarity, it seemed to say, had no power over him, he kept aloof. The grey-haired man was overpowered, disarmed
by this docile, childlike deference; with difficulty he refrained from hiding
his face in his hands. Tadzio's habit, too, of drawing himself up and taking a
deep sighing breath struck him as being due to an oppression of the chest. 'He is sickly, he will never live to grow
up,' he thought once again, with that dispassionate vision to which his madness
of desire sometimes so strangely gave way.
And compassion struggled with the reckless exultation of his heart.
The players, meanwhile, had finished and
gone; their leader bowing and scraping, kissing his hands and adorning his
leave-taking with antics that grew madder with the applause they evoked. After all the others were outside, he
pretended to run backwards full-tilt against a lamppost and slunk to the gate
apparently doubled over with pain. But
there he threw off his buffoon's mask, stood erect, with an elastic
straightening of his whole figure, ran out his tongue impudently at the guests
on the terrace, and vanished in the night.
The company dispersed. Tadzio had long since left the balustrade. But he, the lonely man, sat for long, to the
waiters' great annoyance, before the dregs of pomegranate-juice in his
glass. Time passed, the night went
on. Long ago, in his parental home, he
had watched the sand filter through an hourglass - he could still see, as
though it stood before him, the fragile, pregnant little toy. Soundless and fine the rust-red streamlet ran
through the narrow neck and made, as it declined in the upper cavity, an
exquisite little vortex.
The very next afternoon the solitary took
another step in pursuit of his fixed policy of baiting the outer world. This time he had all possible success. He went, that is, into the English travel
bureau in the Piazza, changed some money at the desk and, posing as the
suspicious foreigner, put his fateful question.
The clerk was a tweed-clad young Britisher,
with his eyes set close together, his hair parted in the middle, and radiating
that steady reliability which makes his like so strange a phenomenon in the gamin,
agile-witted south. He began: 'No ground
for alarm, sir. A mere
formality. Quite
regular in view of the unhealthy climatic conditions.' But then, looking up, he chanced to meet with
his own blue eyes the stranger's weary, melancholy gaze, fixed on his
face. The Englishman coloured. He continued in a lower voice, rather
confused: 'At least, that is the official explanation, which they see fit to
stick to. I may tell you there's a bit
more to it than that.' And then, in his
good straightforward way, he told the truth.
For the past several years Asiatic cholera
had shown a strong tendency to spread.
Its source was the hot, moist swamps of the delta of the Ganges, where
it bred in the mephitic air of that primeval island-jungle, among whose bamboo
thickets the tiger crouches, where life of every sort flourishes in rankest
abundance, and only man avoids the spot.
Thence the pestilence had spread throughout Hindustan, ranging with
great violence; moved eastwards to China, westward to Afghanistan and Persia
[Iran]; following the great caravan routes, it brought terror to Astrakhan,
terror to Moscow. Even while Europe
trembled lest the spectre be seen striding westward across country, it was
carried by sea from Syrian ports and appeared simultaneously at several points
on the Mediterranean littoral; raised its head in Toulon and Malaga, Palermo
and Naples, and soon got a firm hold in Calabria and
Apulia. Northern Italy had been spared -
so far. But in May the horrible vibrios were found on the same day in two bodies: the
emaciated, blackened
corpses of a bargee and a woman who kept a greengrocer's
shop. Both cases were hushed up. But in a week there were ten more - twenty,
thirty in different quarters of the town.
An Austrian provincial, having come to Venice on a few days' pleasure
trip, went home and died with all the symptoms of the plague. Thus was explained the fact that the
German-language papers were the first to print the news of the Venetian
outbreak. The Venetian authorities
published in reply a statement to the effect that the state of the city's
health had never been better; at the same time instituting the most necessary
precautions. But by that time the food
supplies - milk, meat, or vegetables - had probably been contaminated, for
death unseen and unacknowledged was devouring and laying waste in the narrow
streets, while a brooding, unseasonable heat warmed the waters of the canals
and encouraged the spread of the pestilence.
Yes, the disease seemed to flourish and wax strong, to redouble its
generative powers. Recoveries were
rare. Eighty out of a hundred died, and
horribly, for the onslaught was of the extremest
violence, and not infrequently of the 'dry' type, the most malignant form of
the contagion. In this form the victim's
body loses power to expel the water secreted by the blood-vessels, it shrivels
up, he passes with hoarse cries from convulsion to convulsion, his blood grows
thick like pitch and he suffocates in a few hours. He is fortunate indeed if, as sometimes
happens, the disease, after a slight malaise, takes the form of a
profound unconsciousness, from which the sufferer seldom or never rouses. By the beginning of June the quarantine
buildings of the ospedale civico had quietly filled up, the two orphan asylums
were entirely occupied, and there was a hideously brisk traffic between the Nuovo Fundamento and
the island of San Michele, where the cemetery was. But the city was not swayed by high-minded
motives or regard for international agreements.
The authorities were more actuated by fear of being out of pocket, by
regard for the new exhibition of paintings just opened in the Public Gardens,
or by apprehension of the large losses the hotels and the shops that catered to
foreigners would suffer in case of panic and blockade. And the fears of the people supported the
persistent official policy of silence and denial. The city's first medical officer, an honest
and competent man, had indignantly resigned his office and been privily replaced by a more compliant person. The fact was known; and this corruption in
high places played its part, together with the suspense as to where the walking
terror might strike next, to demoralize the baser elements in the city and
encourage those antisocial forces which shun the light of day. There was intemperance, indecency, increase of
crime. Evenings one saw many drunken
people, which was unusual. Gangs of men
in surly mood made the streets unsafe, theft and assault were said to be
frequent, even murder; for in two cases persons supposedly victims of the
plague were proved to have been poisoned by their own families. And professional vice was rampant, displaying
excesses heretofore unknown and only at home much farther south and in the
east.
Such was the substance of the Englishman's
tale. 'You would do well,' he concluded,
'to leave today instead of tomorrow. The
blockade cannot be more than a few days off.'
'Thank you,' said Aschenbach,
and left the office.
The Piazza lay in sweltering
sunshine. Innocent foreigners sat before
the cafés or stood in front of the cathedral, the centre of clouds of doves
that, with fluttering wings, tried to shoulder each other away and pick the
kernels of maize from the extended hand.
Aschenbach strode up and down the spacious
flags, feverishly excited, triumphant in possession of the truth at last, but
with a sickening taste in his mouth and a fantastic horror at his heart. One decent, expiatory course lay open to him;
he considered it. Tonight, after dinner,
he might approach the lady of the pearls and address her in words which he
precisely formulated in his mind: 'Madame, will you permit an entire stranger
to serve you with a word of advice and warning which self-interest prevents
others from uttering? Go away. Leave here at once, without delay, with Tadzio and your daughters.
Venice is in the grip of pestilence.'
Then might he lay his hand in farewell upon the head of that instrument
of a mocking deity; and thereafter himself flee the accursed morass. But he knew that he was far indeed from any
serious desire to take such a step. It
would restore him, would give him back himself once more; but he who is beside
himself revolts at the idea of self-possession.
There crossed his mind the vision of a white building with inscriptions
on it, glittering in the sinking sun - he recalled how his mind had dreamed
away into their transparent mysticism; recalled the strange pilgrim apparition
that had wakened in the ageing man a lust for strange countries and fresh
sights. And these memories again brought
in their train the thought of returning home, returning to reason,
self-mastery, an ordered existence, to the old life of effort. Alas! the bare
thought made him wince with a revulsion that was like physical nausea. 'It must be kept quiet,' he whispered
fiercely. 'I will not speak!' The knowledge that he shared the city's
secret, the city's guilt - it put him beside himself,
intoxicated him as a small quantity of wine will a man suffering from
brain-fag. His thoughts dwelt upon the
image of the desolate and calamitous city, and he was giddy with fugitive, mad,
unreasoning hopes and visions of a monstrous sweetness. That tender sentiment he had a moment ago
evoked, what was it compared with such images as these? His art, his moral sense, what were they in
the balance beside the boons that chaos might confer? He kept silence, he stopped on.
That night he had a fearful dream - if
dream be the right word for a mental and physical experience which did indeed
befall him in deep sleep, as a thing quite apart and real to his senses, yet
without his seeing himself as present in it.
Rather its theatre seemed to be his own soul, and the events burst in
from outside, violently overcoming the profound resistance of his spirit;
passed him through and left him, left the whole cultural structure of a
life-time trampled on, ravaged, and destroyed.
The beginning was fear; fear and desire,
with a shuddering curiosity. Night
reigned, and his senses were on the alert; he heard loud, confused noises from
far away, clamour and hubbub. There was a rattling, a crashing, a low dull thunder; shrill halloos
and a kind of howl with a long-drawn u--sound at the end. And with all these, dominating them all,
flute-notes of the cruellest sweetness, deep and cooing, keeping shamelessly on
until the listener felt his very entrails bewitched. He heard a voice, naming, though darkly, that
which was to come: 'The stranger god!' A
glow lighted up the surrounding mist and by it he recognized a mountain scene
like that about his country home. From
the wooded heights, from among the tree-trunks and crumbling moss-covered
rocks, a troop came tumbling and raging down, a whirling rout of men and
animals, and overflowed the hillside with flames and human forms, with clamour
and the reeling dance. The females
stumbled over the long, hairy pelts that dangled from their girdles; with heads
flung back they uttered loud hoarse cries and shook their tambourines high in
air; brandished naked daggers or torches vomiting trails of sparks. They shrieked, holding their breasts in both
hands; coiling snakes with quivering tongues they clutched about their
waists. Horned and hairy males, girt
about the loins with hides, dropped heads and lifted arms and thighs in unison,
as they beat on brazen vessels that gave out droning thunder, or thumped madly
on drums. There were troops of beardless
youths armed with garlanded staves; these ran after goats and thrust their
staves against the creatures' flanks, then clung to the plunging horns and let
themselves be borne off with triumphant shouts.
And one and all the mad rout yelled that cry, composed of soft
consonants with a long-drawn u--sound at the end, so sweet and wild it
was together, and like nothing ever heard before! It would ring through the air like the bellow
of a challenging stag, and be given back many-tongued; or they would use it to
goad each other on to dance with wild excess of tossing limbs - they never let
it die. But the deep, beguiling notes of
the flute wove in and out and over all.
Beguiling, too, it was to him who struggled in the grip of these sights
and sounds, shamelessly awaiting the coming feast and the uttermost
surrender. He trembled, he shrank, his
will was steadfast to preserve and uphold his own god against this stranger who
was sworn enemy to dignity and self-control.
But the mountain wall took up the noise and howling and gave it back
manifold; it rose high, swelled to a madness that carried him away. His senses reeled in the steam of panting
bodies, the acrid stench from the goats, the odour as of stagnant waters - and
another, too familiar smell - of wounds, uncleanliness,
and disease. His heart throbbed to the
drums, his brain reeled, a blind rage seized him, a whirling lust, he craved
with all his soul to join the ring that formed about the obscene symbol of the
godhead, which they were unveiling and elevating, monstrous and wooden, while
from full throats they yelled their rallying-cry. Foam dipped from their lips, they drove each
other on with lewd gesturings and beckoning
hands. They laughed, their howled, they
thrust their pointed staves into each other's flesh and licked the blood as it
ran down. But now the dreamer was in
them and of them, the stranger god was his own.
Yes, it was he who was flinging himself upon the animals, who bit and
tore and swallowed smoking goblets of flesh - while on the trampled moss there
now began the rites in honour of the god, an orgy of promiscuous embraces - and
in his very soul he tasted the bestial degradation of his fall.
The unhappy man woke from this dream
shattered, unhinged, powerless in the demon's grip. He no longer avoided men's eyes now cared
whether he exposed himself to suspicion.
And anyhow, people were leaving; many of the bathing-cabins stood empty,
there were many vacant places in the dining-room, scarcely any foreigners were
seen in the streets. The truth seemed to
have leaked out; despite all efforts to the contrary, panic was in the
air. But the lady of the pearls stopped
on with her family; whether because the rumours had not reached her or because
she was too proud and fearless to heed them.
Tadzio remained; and it seemed at times to Aschenbach, in his obsessed state, that death and fear
together might clear the island of all other souls and leave him there alone
with him he coveted. In the long
mornings on the beach his heavy gaze would rest, a fixed and reckless stare,
upon the lad; towards nightfall, lost to shame, he would follow him through the
city's narrow streets where horrid death stalked too, and at such time it
seemed to him as though the moral law were fallen in ruins and only the
monstrous and perverse held out a hope.
Like any lover, he desired to please; suffered agonies at the thought of failure, and brightened
his dress with smart ties and handkerchiefs and other youthful touches. He added jewellery and perfumes and spent
hours each day over his toilette, appearing at dinner elaborately arrayed and
tensely excited. The presence of the
youthful beauty that had bewitched him filled him with disgust of his own
ageing body; the sight of his own sharp features and grey hair plunged him in
hopeless mortification; he made desperate efforts to recover the appearance and
freshness of his youth and began paying frequent visits to the hotel
barber. Enveloped in the white sheet,
beneath the hands of that garrulous personage, he would lean back in the chair
and look at himself in the glass with misgiving.
'Grey,' he said, with a grimace.
'Slightly,' answered the man. 'Entirely due to neglect,
to a lack of regard for appearances.
Very natural, of course, in men of affairs, but, after all, not very
sensible, for it is just such people who ought to be above vulgar prejudice in
matters like these. Some folk have very
struck ideas about the use of cosmetics; but they never extend them to the teeth,
as they logically should. And very
disgusted other people would be if they did.
No, we are all as old as we feel, but no older, and grey hair can
misrepresent a man worse than dyed. You,
for instance, signore, have a right to your natural
colour. Surely you will permit me to
restore what belongs to you?'
'How?' asked Aschenbach.
For answer the oily one washed his
client's hair in two waters, one clear and one dark, and lo, it was as black as
in the days of his youth. He waved it
with the tongues in wide, flat undulations, and stepped back to admire the
effect.
'Now if we were just to freshen up the
skin a little,' he said.
And with that he went on from one thing to
another, his enthusiasm waxing with each new idea. Aschenbach sat
there comfortably; he was incapable of objecting to the process - rather as it
went forward it roused his hopes. He
watched it in the mirror and saw his eyebrows grow more even and arching, the
eyes gain in size and brilliance, by dint of a little application below the
lids. A delicate
carmine glowed on his cheeks where the skin had been so brown and
leathery. The dry, anaemic lips grew
full, they turned the colour of ripe strawberries, the
lines round eyes and mouth were treated with a facial cream and gave place to
youthful bloom. It was a young man who
looked back at him from the glass - Aschenbach's
heart leaped at the sight. The artist in
cosmetics at last professed himself satisfied; after
the manner of such people, he thanked his client profusely for what he had done
himself. 'The merest trifle, the merest,
signore,' he said as he added the final touches. 'Now the signore
can fall in love as soon as he likes.' Aschenbach went off as in a dream, dazed between joy and
fear, in his red necktie and broad straw hat with its gay striped band.
A lukewarm storm-wind had come up. It rained a little now and then,
the air was heavy and turbid and smelt of decay. Aschenbach, with
fevered cheeks beneath the rouge, seemed to hear rushing and flapping sounds in
his ears, as though storm-spirits were abroad - unhallowed ocean harpies who
follow those devoted to destruction, snatch away and defile their viands. For the heat took away his
appetite and thus he was haunted with the idea that his food was infected.
One afternoon he pursued his charmer deep
into the stricken city's huddled heart.
The labyrinthine little streets, squares, canals, and bridges, each one
so like the next, at length quite made him lose his bearings. He did not even know the points of the
compass; all his care was not to lose sight of the figure after which his eyes
thirsted. He slunk under walls, he
lurked behind buildings or people's backs; and the sustained tension of his
senses and emotions exhausted him more and more, though for a long time he was
unconscious of fatigue. Tadzio walked behind the others, he let them pass ahead in
the narrow alleys, and as he sauntered slowly after, he would turn his head and
assure himself with a glance of his strange, twilit grey eyes that his lover
was still following. He saw him - and he
did not betray him. The knowledge
enraptured Aschenbach. Lured by those eyes, led on the
leading-string of his own passion and folly, utterly lovesick, he stole upon
the footsteps of his unseemly hope - and at the end found himself cheated. The Polish family crossed a small vaulted
bridge, the height of whose archway hid them from his sight, and when he
climbed it himself they were nowhere to be seen. He hunted in three directions - straight
ahead and on both sides of the narrow, dirty quay - in vain. Worn quite out and unnerved, he had to give
over the search.
His head burned, his body was wet with
clammy sweat, he was plagued by intolerable
thirst. He looked about for refreshment,
of whatever sort, and found a little fruit-shop where he bought some strawberries. They were overripe and soft; he ate them as
he went. The street he was on opened out
into a little square, one of those charmed, forsaken spots he liked; he
recognized it as the very one where he had sat weeks ago and conceived his
abortive plan of flight. He sank down on
the steps of the well and leaned his head against its stone rim. It was quiet here. Grass grew between the stones and rubbish lay
about. Tall, weather-beaten houses
bordered the square, one of them rather palatial, with vaulted windows, gaping
now, and little lion balconies. In the
ground floor of another was an apothecary's shop. A waft of carbolic acid was borne on a warm
gust of wind.
There he sat, the master: this was he who
had found a way to reconcile art and honours; who had written The Abject,
and in a style of classic purity renounced bohemianism and all
its works, all sympathy with the abyss and the troubled depths of the
outcast human soul. This was he who had
put knowledge underfoot to climb so high; who had outgrown the ironic pose and
adjusted himself to the burdens and obligations of fame; whose renown had been
officially recognized and his name ennobled, whose style was set for a model in
the schools. There he sat. His eyelids were closed,
there was only a swift, sidelong glint of the eyeballs now and again, something
between a question and a leer; while the rouged and flabby mouth uttered single
words of the sentences shaped in his disordered brain by the fantastic logic
that governs our dreams.
'For mark you, Phaedrus,
beauty alone is both divine and visible; and so it is the sense's way, the
artist's way, little Phaedrus, to the spirit. But, now tell me, my dear boy, do you believe
that such a man can ever attain wisdom and true manly worth, for whom the path
to the spirit must lead through the senses?
Or do you rather think - for I leave the point to you - that it is a
path of perilous sweetness, a way of transgression, and must surely lead him
who walks in it astray? For you know
that we poets cannot walk the way of beauty without Eros as our companion and
guide. We may be heroic after our
fashion, disciplined warriors after our craft, yet we are all like women, for
we exult in passion, and love is still our desire - our craving and our shame. And from this you will perceive that we poets
can be neither wise nor worthy citizens.
We must needs be wanton, must needs rove at
large in the realm of feeling. Our
magisterial style is all folly and pretence, our honourable repute a farce, the
crowd's belief in us is merely laughable.
And to teach youth, or the populace, by means of art is a dangerous
practice and ought to be forbidden. For
what good can an artist be as a teacher, when from his birth up he is headed
direct for the pit? We may want to shun
it and attain to honour in the world; but however we turn, it draws us
still. So, then, since knowledge might
destroy us, we will have none of it. For
knowledge, Phaedrus, does not make him who possesses
it dignified or austere. Knowledge is all-knowing,
understanding, forgiving; it takes up no position, sets no store by form. It has compassion with the abyss - it is the
abyss. So we reject it, firmly, and
henceforward our concern shall be with beauty only. And by beauty we mean simplicity, largeness,
and renewed severity of discipline; we mean a return to detachment and to
form. But detachment, Phaedrus, and preoccupation with form lead to intoxication
and desire, they may lead the noblest among us to frightful emotional excesses,
which his own stern cult of the beautiful would make him the first to
condemn. So they too, they too, lead to
the bottomless pit. Yes, they lead us
thither, I say, us who are poets - who by our natures are prone not to
excellence but to excess. And now, Phaedrus, I will go.
Remain here; and only when you can no longer see me, then do you depart
also.'
A few days later, Gustave
Aschenbach left his hotel rather later than usual in
the morning. He was not feeling well and
had to struggle against spells of giddiness only half physical in their nature,
accompanied by a swiftly mounting dread, a sense of futility and hopelessness -
but whether this referred to himself or to the other world he could not
tell. In the lobby he saw a quantity of
luggage lying strapped and ready; asked the porter whose it was, and received
in answer the name he already knew he should hear - that of the Polish
family. The expression of his ravaged
features did not change; he only gave that quick lift of the head with which we
sometimes receive the uninteresting answer to a casual query. But he put another: 'When?' 'After luncheon,' the man replied. He nodded, and went down to the beach.
It was an unfriendly scene. Little crisping shivers ran all across the
wide stretch of shallow water between the shore and the first sandbank. The whole beach, once so full of colour and
life, looked now autumnal, out of season; it was nearly deserted and not even
very clean. A camera on a tripod stood
at the edge of the water, apparently abandoned; its black cloth snapped in the
freshening wind.
Tadzio was
there, in front of his cabin, with the three or four playfellows still left
him. Aschenbach
set up his chair some half-way between the cabins and the water, spread a rug
over his knees, and sat looking on. The
game this time was unsupervised, the elders being probably busy with the
packing, and it looked rather lawless and out-of-hand. Jaschiu, the sturdy
lad in the belted suit, with the black brilliantined
hair, became angry at a handful of sand thrown in his eyes; he challenged Tadzio to a fight, which quickly ended in the downfall of
the weaker. And perhaps the coarser
nature saw here a chance to avenge himself at last, by one cruel act, for his
long weeks of subserviency: the victor would not let
the vanquished get up, but remained kneeling on Tadzio's
back, pressing Tadzio's face into the sand - for so
long a time that it seemed the exhausted lad might even suffocate. He made spasmodic efforts to shake the other
off, lay still and then began a feeble twitching. Just as Aschenbach
was about the spring indignantly to the rescue, Jaschiu
let his victim go. Tadzio,
very pale, half sat up, and remained so, leaning on one arm, for several
minutes, with darkening eyes and rumpled hair.
Then he rose and walked slowly away.
The others called him, at first gaily, then imploringly; he would not
hear. Jaschiu
was evidently overtaken by swift remorse; he followed his friend and tried to
make his peace, but Tadzio motioned him back with a
jerk of one shoulder and went down to the water's edge. He was barefoot and wore his striped linen
suit with the red breastknot.
There he stayed a little, with bent head,
tracing figures in the wet sand with one toe; then stepped into the shallow
water, which at its deepest did not wet his knees; waded idly through it and
reached the sandbar. Now he paused again
with his face turned seaward; and next began to move slowly leftwards along the
narrow strip of sand the sea left bare.
He paced there, divided by an expanse of water from the shore, from his
mates by his moody pride; a remote and isolated figure with floating locks, out
there in sea and wind, against the misty inane.
Once more he paused to look: with a sudden recollection, or by an
impulse, he turned from the waist up, in an exquisite movement, one hand
resting on his hip, and looked over his shoulder at the shore. The watcher sat just as he had sat that time
in the lobby of the hotel when first the twilit grey eyes had met his own. He rested his head against the chair-back and
followed the movements of the figure out there, then lifted it, as it were in
answer to Tadzio’s gaze. It sank on his breast,
the eyes looked out beneath their lids, while his whole face took on the
relaxed and brooding expression of deep slumber. It seemed to him the pale and lovely Summoner out there smiled at him and beckoned; as though
with the hand he lifted from his hip, he pointed outward as he hovered on
before into an immensity of richest expectation.
Some minutes passed before anyone hastened
to the aid of the elderly man sitting there collapsed in his chair. They bore him to his room. And before nightfall a shocked and respectful
world received the news of his decease.
1911
JOHN O'LOUGHLIN'S OPERA D'OEUVRE