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Perhaps it did, but all the same, six weeks later,
towards the middle of June, the moment when Mrs Prest
undertook her annual migration, I had made no measurable advance. I was obliged to confess to her that I had no
results to speak of. My first step had
been unexpected rapid, but there was no appearance it would be followed by a
second. I was a thousand miles from
taking tea with my hostesses - that privilege of which, as I reminded my good
friend, we both had had a vision. She
reproached me with lacking boldness and I answered that even to be bold you
must have an opportunity: you may push on through a breach, but you can't
batter down a dead wall. She returned
that the breach I had already made was big enough to admit an army, and accused
me of wasting precious hours in whimpering in her salon when I ought to have
been carrying on the struggle in the field.
It is true that I went to see her very often - all on the theory that it
would console me (I freely expressed my discouragement) for my want of success
on my own premises. But I began to feel
that it didn't console me to be perpetually chaffed for my scruples, especially
since I was really so vigilant; and I was rather glad when my ironic friend
closed her house for the summer. She had
expected to draw amusement from the drama of my intercourse with the Misses
Bordereau, and was disappointed that the intercourse, and consequently the
drama, had not come off. 'They'll lead
you on to your ruin,' she said before she left
It was a
fact that up to that time I had not, save on a single brief occasion, had even
a moment's contact with my queer hostess.
The exception had occurred when I carried them according to my promise
the terrible three thousand francs. Then
I found Miss Tina awaiting me in the hall, and she took the money from my hand
with a promptitude that prevented my seeing her aunt. The old lady had promised to receive me, yet
apparently thought nothing of breaking that vow. The money was contained in a bag of chamois
leather, of respectable dimensions, which my banker had given me, and Miss Tina
had to make a big fist to receive it.
This she did with extreme solemnity, though I tried to treat the affair
a little as a joke. It was in no jocular
strain, yet it was with a clearness akin to a
brightness that she inquired, weighing the money in her two palms: 'Don't you
think it's too much?' To which I replied
that this would depend on the amount of pleasure I should get for it. Hereupon she turned away from me quickly, as
she had done the day before, murmuring in a tone different from any she had
used hitherto: 'Oh pleasure, pleasure - there's no pleasure in this house!'
After that,
for a long time, I never saw her, and I wondered the common chances of the day
shouldn't have helped us to meet. It
could only be evident that she was immensely on her guard against them; and in
addition to this the house was so big that for each other we were lost in it. I used to look out for her hopefully as I
crossed the sala in my comings and goings, but I was
not rewarded with a glimpse of the tail of her dress. It was as if she never peeped out of her
aunt's apartment. I used to wonder what
she did there week after week and year after year. I had never met so stiff a policy of
seclusion; it was more than keeping quiet - it was like hunted creatures
feigning death. The two ladies appeared
to have no visitors whatever and no sort of contact with the world. I judged at least that people couldn't have
come to the house and that Miss Tina couldn't have gone out without my catching
some view of it. I did what I disliked
myself for doing - considering it but as once in a way: I questioned my servant
about their habits and let him infer that I should be interested in any
information he might glean. But he
gleaned amazingly little for a knowing Venetian: it must be added that where
there is a perpetual fast there are very few crumbs on the floor. His ability in other ways was sufficient, if
not quite all I had attributed to him on the occasion of my first interview
with Miss Tina. He had helped my
gondolier to bring me round a boatload of furniture; and when these articles
had been carried to the top of the palace and distributed according to our
associated wisdom he organised my household with such dignity as answered to
its being composed exclusively of himself.
He made me in short as comfortable as I could be with my indifferent
prospects. I should have been glad if he
had fallen in love with Miss Bordereau's maid, or, failing this, had taken her
in aversion: either event might have brought about some
catastrophe, and a catastrophe might have led to some parley. It was my idea that should would have been
sociable, and I myself on various occasions saw her
flit to and fro on domestic errands, so that I was sure she was
accessible. But I tasted of no gossip
from that fountain, and I afterwards learned that Pasquale's affections were
fixed upon an object that made him heedless of other women. This was a young lady with a powdered face, a
yellow cotton gown and much leisure, who used often to come to see him. She practised, at her convenience, the art of
a stringer of beads - these ornaments are made in
It struck
me as a proof of the old woman's resolve to have nothing to do with me that she
should never have sent me a receipt for my three months' rent. For some days I looked out for it and then,
when I had given it up, wasted a good deal of time in wondering what her reason
had been for neglecting so indispensable and familiar a form. At first I was tempted to send her a
reminder; after which I put by the idea - against my judgement as to what was
right in the particular case - on the general ground of wishing to keep
quiet. If Miss Bordereau suspected me of
ulterior aims she would suspect me less if I should be businesslike, and yet I
consented not to be. It was possible she
intended her omission as an impertinence, a visible
irony, to show how she could overreach people who attempted to overreach
her. On that hypothesis it was well to
let her see that one didn't notice her little tricks. The real reading of the matter, I afterwards
gathered, was simply the poor lady's desire to emphasise the fact that I was in
the enjoyment of a favour as rigidly limited as it had been liberally
bestowed. She had given me part of her
house, but she wouldn't add to that so much as a morsel of paper with her name
on it. Let me say that even at first it
didn't make me too miserable, for the whole situation had the charm of its
oddity. I foresaw that I should have a
summer after my own literary heart, and the sense of playing with my
opportunity was much greater after all than any sense of being played
with. There could be no Venetian
business without patience, and since I adored the place I was much more in the
spirit of it for having laid in a large provision. That spirit kept me perpetual company and
seemed to look out at me from the revived immortal face - in which all his
genius shone - of the great poet who was my prompter. I had invoked him and he had come; he hovered
before me half the time; it was as if his bright ghost had returned to earth to
assure me he regarded the affair as his own no less than as mine and that we
should see it fraternally and fondly to a conclusion. It was as if he had said: 'Poor dear, be easy
with her; she has some natural prejudices; only give her time. Strange as it may appear to you she was very
attractive in 1820. Meanwhile, aren't we
in
I lingered
in the sala when I went to and fro; I used to watch -
as long as I thought decent - the door that led to Miss Bordereau's part of the
house. A person observing me might have
supposed I was trying to cast a spell on it or attempting some odd experiment
in hypnotism. But I was only praying it
might open or thinking what treasure probably lurked behind it. I hold it singular, as I look back, that I
should never have doubted for a moment that the sacred relics were there; never
have failed to know the joy of being beneath the same roof with them. After all they were under my hand - they had
not escaped me yet - and they made my life continuous, in a fashion, with the
illustrious life they had touched at the other end. I lost myself in this satisfaction to the
point of assuming - in my quiet extravagance - that poor Miss Tina also went
back, and still went back, as I used to phrase it. She did indeed, the gentle spinster, but not
quite so far as Jeffery Aspern, who was simple
hearsay to her quite as he was to me.
Only she had lived for years with Juliana, she had seen and handled all momentoes and - even though she was stupid - some esoteric
knowledge had rubbed off on her. That
was what the old woman represented - esoteric knowledge; and this was the idea
with which my critical heart used to thrill.
It literally beat faster often of an evening when I had been out, as I
stopped with my candle in the re-echoing hall on my way up to bed. It was as if at such a moment as that, in the
stillness and after the long contradiction of the day, Miss Bordereau's secrets
were in the air, the wonder of her survival more vivid. These were the acute impressions. I had them in another form, with more of a
certain shade of reciprocity, during the hours I sat in the garden looking up
over the top of my book at the closed windows of my hostess. In these windows no sign of life ever
appeared; it was as if, for fear of my catching a glimpse of them, the two
ladies passed their days in the dark.
But this only emphasised their having matters to conceal; which was what
I had wished to prove. Their motionless
shutters became as expressive as eyes consciously closed, and I took comfort in
the probability that, though invisible themselves, they kept me in view between
lashes.
I made a
point of spending as much time as possible in the garden, to justify the
picture I had originally given of my horticultural passion. And I not only spent time, but (hang it! as I
said) spent precious money. As soon as I
had got my rooms arranged and could give the question proper thought I surveyed
the place with a clever expert and made terms for having it put in order. I was sorry to do this, for personally I
liked it better as it was, with its weeds and its wild rich tangle, its sweet
characteristic Venetian shabbiness. I
had to be consistent, to keep my promise that I would smother the house in
flowers. Moreover I clung to the fond
fancy that by flowers I should make my way - I should succeed by big
nosegays. I would batter the old women
with lilies - I would bombard their citadel with roses. Their door would have to yield to the
pressure when a mound of fragrance should be heaped against it. The place in truth had been brutally
neglected. The Venetian capacity for
dawdling is of the largest, and for a good many days unlimited litter was all
my gardener had to show for his ministrations.
There was a great digging of holes and carting about of earth, and after
a while I grew so impatient that I had thoughts of sending for my 'results' to
the nearest stand. But I felt sure my
friends would see though the chinks of their shutters where such tribute couldn't
have been gathered, and might so make up their minds against my veracity. I possessed my soul, and finally, though the
delay was long, perceived some appearances of bloom. This encouraged me, and I waited serenely
enough till they multiplied. Meanwhile
the real summer days arrived and began to pass, and as I look back upon them
they seem to me almost the happiest of my life.
I took more and more care to be in the garden whenever it was not too
hot. I had an arbour arranged and a low
table and an armchair put into it; and I carried out books and portfolios - I
had always some business of writing in hand - and worked and waited and mused
and hoped, while the garden hours elapsed and the plants drank in the light and
the inscrutable old palace turned pale and then, as the day waned, began to
recover and flush and my papers rustled in the wandering breeze of the
Adriatic.
Considering
how little satisfaction I got from it at first it is wonderful I shouldn't have
grown more tired of trying to guess what mystic rites of ennui the Misses
Bordereau celebrated in their darkened rooms; whether this had always been the
tenor of their life and how in previous years they had escaped elbowing their
neighbours. It was supposable they had
then had other habits, forms and resources; that they must once have been young
or at least middle-aged. There was no
end to the questions it was possible to ask about them and no end to the
answers it was not possible to frame. I
had known many of my country-people in
I asked
myself these things as I sat spinning theories about her in my arbour and the
bees droned in the flowers. It was
incontestable that, whether for right or for wrong, most readers of certain of Aspern's poems (poems not as ambiguous as the sonnets -
scarcely more divine, I think - of Shakespeare) had taken for granted that
Juliana had not always adhered to the steep footway of renunciation. There hovered about her name a perfume of
impenitent passion, an intimation that she had not been exactly as the
respectable young person in general. Was
this a sign that her singer had betrayed her, had given her away, as we say nowadays,
to posterity? Certain it is that it
would have been difficult to put one's finger on the passage in which her fair
name suffered injury. Moreover was not
any fame fair enough that was so sure of duration and was associated with works
immortal through their beauty? It was a
part of my idea that the young lady had had a foreign lover - and say an unedifying tragical rupture
- before her meeting with Jeffery Aspern. She had lived with her father and sister in a
queer old-fashioned expatriated artistic