THE summer evening had begun to
fold the world in its mysterious embrace.
Far away in the west the sun was setting and the last glow of all too
fleeting day lingered lovingly on sea and strand, on the proud promontory of
dear old Howth guarding as ever the waters of the
bay, on the weedgrown rocks along Sandymount
shore and, last but not least, on the quiet church whence there streamed forth
at times upon the stillness the voice of prayer to her who is in her pure
radiance a beacon ever to the stormtossed heart of
man, Mary, star of the sea.
The three girl friends
were seated on the rocks, enjoying the evening scene and the air which was
fresh but not too chilly. Many a time
and oft were they wont to come there to that favourite rock to have a cosy chat
beside the sparkling waves and discuss matters feminine, Cissy
Caffrey and Edy Boardman
with the baby in the pushcar and Tommy and Jacky Caffrey, two little curlyheaded
boys, dressed in sailor suits with caps to match and the name H.M.S. Belleisle printed on both.
For Tommy and Jacky Caffrey were twins, scarce
four years old and very noisy and spoiled twins sometimes but for all that
darling little fellows with bright merry faces and endearing ways about
them. They were dabbling in the sand
with their spades and buckets, building castles as children do, or playing with
their big coloured ball, happy as the day was long. And Edy Boardman
was rocking the chubby baby to and fro in the pushcar
while that young gentleman fairly chuckled with delight. He was but eleven months and nine days old
and, though still a tiny toddler, was just beginning
to lisp his first babyish words. Cissy Caffrey bent over him to
tease his fat little plucks and the dainty dimple in his chin.
- Now, baby, Cissy Caffrey said. Say out big, big. I want a drink of water.
And baby prattled after
her:
- A jink a jink a jawbo.
Cissy
Caffrey cuddled the wee chap for she was awfully fond
of children, so patient with little sufferers and Tommy Caffrey
could never be got to take his castor oil unless it was Cissy
Caffrey that held his nose and promised him the scatty heel of the loaf of brown bread with golden syrup
on. What a persuasive power that girl
had! But to be sure baby was as good as
gold, a perfect little dote in his new fancy bib. None of your spoilt beauties, Flora MacFlimsy sort, was Cissy Caffrey. A truerhearted lass never drew the
breath of life, always with a laugh in her gipsylike
eyes and a frolicsome word on her cherryripe red
lips, a girl lovable in the extreme. And
Edy Boardman laughed too at the quaint language of
little brother.
But just then there was
a slight altercation between Master Tommy and Master Jacky. Boys will be boys and our two twins were no
exception to this golden rule. The apple
of discord was a certain castle of sand which Master Jacky
had built and Master Tommy would have it right go wrong that it was to
be architecturally improved by a frontdoor like the
Martello tower had. But if Master Tommy
was headstrong Master Jacky was selfwilled too and,
true to the maxim that every little Irishman's house is his castle, he fell
upon his hated rival and to such purpose that the wouldbe
assailant came to grief and (alas to relate!) the coveted castle too. Needless to say the cries of discomfited
Master Tommy drew the attention of the girl friends.
- Come here, Tommy, his
sister called imperatively, at once! And you, Jacky, for shame to throw poor Tommy in the dirty sand. Wait till I catch you for that.
His eyes misty with
unshed tears Master Tommy came at her call for their big sister's word was law
with the twins. And in a sad plight he
was after his misadventure. His little
man-o'-war top and unmentionables were full of sand but Cissy
was a past mistress in the art of smoothing over life's tiny troubles and very
quickly not one speck of sand was to be seen on his smart little suit. Still the blue eyes were glistening with hot
tears that would well up so she kissed away the hurtness
and shook her hand at Master Jacky the culprit and said if she was near him she
wouldn't be far from him, her eyes dancing in admonition.
- Nasty bold Jacky! she cried.
She put an arm round
the little mariner and coaxed winningly:
- What's your
name? Butter and
cream?
- Tell us who is your
sweetheart, spoke Edy Boardman. Is Cissy your
sweetheart?
- Nao,
tearful Tommy said.
- Is Edy Boardman your sweetheart? Cissy
queried.
- Nao,
Tommy said.
- I know, Edy Boardman said none too amiably with an arch glance from
her shortsighted eyes. I know who is Tommy's
sweetheart, Gerty is Tommy's sweetheart.
- Nao,
Tommy said on the verge of tears.
Cissy's
quick motherwit guessed what was amiss and she
whispered to Edy Boardman to take him there behind
the pushcar where the gentlemen couldn't see and to
mind he didn't wet his new tan shoes.
But who was Gerty?
Gerty
MacDowell who was seated near her companions, lost in
thought, gazing far away into the distance, was in very truth as fair a
specimen of winsome Irish girlhood as one could wish to see. She was pronounced beautiful by all who knew
her though, as folks often said, she was more a Giltrap
than a MacDowell.
Her figure was slight and graceful, inclining even to fragility but
those iron jelloids she had been taking of late had
done her a world of good much better than the Widow Welch's female pills and
she was much better of those discharges she used to get and that tired
feeling. The waxen pallor of her face
was almost spiritual in its ivorylike purity though
her rosebud mouth was a genuine Cupid's bow, Greekly perfect.
Her hands were of finely veined alabaster with tapering fingers and as
white as lemon juice and queen of ointments could make them though it was not
true that she used to wear kid gloves in bed or take a milk footbath
either. Bertha Supple told that once to Edy Boardman, a deliberate lie, when she was black out at
daggers drawn with Gerty (the girl chums had of
course their little tiffs from time to time like the rest of mortals) and she
told her not let on whatever she did that it was her that told her or she'd
never speak to her again. No. Honour where honour is due. There was an innate refinement, a languid
queenly hauteur about Gerty which was
unmistakably evidenced in her delicate hands and higharched
instep. Had kind fate but willed her to
be born a gentlewoman of high degree in her own right and had she only received
the benefit of a good education Gerty MacDowell might easily have held her own beside any lady in
the land and have seen herself exquisitely gowned with jewels on her brown and
patrician suitors at her feet vying with one another to pay their devoirs to
her. Mayhap it was this, the love that
might have been, that lent to her softlyfeatured face
at whiles a look, tense with suppressed meaning, that
imparted a strange yearning tendency to the beautiful eyes a charm few could
resist. Why have women such eyes of
witchery? Gerty's
were of the bluest Irish blue, set off by lustrous lashes and dark expressive
brows. Time was when those brows were
not so silkilyseductive. It was Madame Vera Verity, directress of the
Woman Beautiful page of the Princess novelette, who had first advised her to
try eyebrowleine which gave that haunting expression
to the eyes, so becoming in leaders of fashion, and she had never regretted
it. Then there was blushing
scientifically cured and how to be tall increase your height and you have a
beautiful face but your nose? That would
suit Mrs Dignam because she had a button one. But Gerty's
crowning glory was her wealth of wonderful hair. It was dark brown with a natural wave in
it. She had cut it that very morning on
account of the new moon and it nestled about her pretty head in a profusion of
luxuriant clusters and pared her nails too, Thursday for wealth. And just now at Edy's
words as a telltale flush, delicate as the faintest rosebloom,
crept into her cheeks she looked so lovely in her sweet girlish shyness that of
a surety God's fair
For an instant she was
silent with rather sad downcast eyes.
She was about to retort but something checked the words on her
tongue. Inclination prompted her to
speak out: dignity told her to be silent.
The pretty lips pouted a while but then she glanced up and broke out
into a joyous little laugh which had in it all the freshness of a young May
morning. She knew right well, no-one
better, what made squinty Edy say that because of him
cooling in his attentions when it was simply a lovers' quarrel. As per usual somebody's nose was out of joint
about the boy that had the bicycle always riding up and down in front of her
window. Only now his father kept him in
the evenings studying hard to get an exhibition in the
intermediate that was on and he was going to Trinity college to study
for a doctor when he left the high school like his brother W.H. Wylie who was
racing in the bicycle races in Trinity college university. Little recked he perhaps for what she felt, that dull aching void in her
heart sometimes, piercing to the core.
Yet he was young and perchance he might learn to love her in time. They were protestants
in his family and of course Gerty knew Who came first
and after Him the blessed Virgin and then
Gerty
was dressed simply but with the instinctive taste of a votary of Dame Fashion
for she felt that there was just a might that he might be out. A neat blouse of electric blue, selftinted by dolly dyes (because it was expected in the Lady's
Pictorial that electric blue would be worn), with a smart vee opening down to the division and kerchief pocket (in
which she always kept a piece of cottonwool scented
with her favourite perfume because the handkerchief spoiled the sit) and a navy
threequarter skirt cut to the stride showed off her
slim graceful figure to perfection. She
wore a coquettish little love of a hat of wideleaved
nigger straw contrast trimmed with an underbrim of eggblue chenille and at the side a butterfly bow to
tone. All Tuesday week afternoon she was
hunting to match that chenille but at last she found what she wanted at Clery's summer sales, the very it, slightly shopspoiled but you would never notice, seven fingers two
and a penny. She did it up all by
herself and what joy was hers when she tried it on then, smiling at the lovely
reflection which the mirror gave back to her!
And when she put it on the waterjug to keep
the shape she knew that that would take the shine out of some people she
knew. Her shoes were the newest thing in
footwear (Edy Boardman prided herself that she was
very petite but she never had a foot like Gerty
MacDowell, a five, and never would ash, oak or elm)
with patent toecaps and just one smart buckle at her higharched
instep. Her wellturned
ankle displayed its
perfect proportions beneath her skirt and just the proper amount
and no more of her shapely limbs encased in finespun
hose with high spliced heels and wide garter tops. As for undies they
were Gerty's chief care and who that knows the
fluttering hopes and fears of sweet seventeen (though Gerty
would never see seventeen again) can find it in his heart to blame her? She had four dinky sets, with awfully pretty stitchery, three garments and nighties
extra, and each set slotted with different coloured ribbons, rosepink, pale blue, mauve and peagreen
and she aired them herself and blued them when they came home from the wash and
ironed them and she had a brickbat to keep the iron on because she wouldn't
trust those washerwomen as far as she'd see them scorching the things. She was wearing the blue for luck, hoping against
hope, her own colour and the lucky colour too for a bride to have a bit of blue
somewhere on her because the green she wore that day week brought grief because
his father brought him in to study for the intermediate exhibition and because
she thought perhaps he might be out because when she was dressing that morning
she nearly slipped up the old pair on her inside out and that was for luck and
lovers' meetings if you put those things on inside out so long as it wasn't of
a Friday.
And yet and yet! That strained look on her face! A gnawing sorrow is there all the time. Her very soul is in her eyes and she would
give worlds to be in the privacy of her own familiar chamber where, giving way
to tears, she could have a good cry and relieve her pentup
feelings. Though not too much because she
knew how to cry nicely before the mirror.
You are lovely, Gerty, it said. The paly light of
evening falls upon a face infinitely sad and wistful. Gerty MacDowell yearns in vain.
Yes, she had known from the first that her daydream of a marriage has been
arranged and the weddingbells ringing for Mrs Reggy Wylie. T.C.D.
(because the one who married the elder brother would be Mrs Wylie) and in the
fashionable intelligence Mrs Gertrude Wylie was wearing a sumptuous confection
of grey trimmed with expensive blue fox was not to be. He was too young to understand. He would not believe in love, a woman's
birthright. The night of the party long
ago in Stoers' (he was still in short trousers) when
they were alone and he stole an arm round her waist she went white to the very
lips. He called her little one in a
strangely husky voice and snatched a half kiss (the first!) but it was only the
end of her nose and then he hastened from the room with a remark about
refreshments. Impetuous fellow! Strength of character had never been Reggy Wylie's strong point and he who would woo and win Gerty MacDowell must be a man
among men. But waiting, always waiting
to be asked and it was leap year too and would soon be over. No prince charming is her beau ideal to lay a
rare and wondrous love at her feet but rather a manly man with a strong quiet
face who had not found his ideal, perhaps his hair slightly flecked with grey,
and who would understand, take her in his sheltering arms, strain her to him in
all the strength of his deep passionate nature and comfort her with a long
kiss. It would be like heaven. For such a one she yearns this balmy summer
eve. With all the heart of her she longs
to be his only, his affianced bride for riches for poor, in sickness in health,
till death us two part, from this to this day forward.
And while Edy Boardman was with little Tommy behind the pushcar she was just thinking would the day ever come when
she could call herself his little wife to be.
Then they could talk about her till they went blue in the face, Bertha
Supple too, and Edy, the spitfire, because she would
be twentytwo in November. She would care for him with creature comforts
too for Gerty was womanly wise and knew that a mere
man liked that feeling of hominess. Her
griddlecakes done to a goldenbrown hue and queen
Ann's pudding of delightful creaminess had won golden opinions from all because
she had a lucky hand also for lighting a fire, dredge in the fine selfraising flower and always stir in the same direction
then cream the milk and sugar and whisk well the white of eggs though she
didn't like the eating part when there were any people that made her shy and
often she wondered why you couldn't eat something poetical like violets or
roses and they would have a beautifully appointed drawingroom
with pictures and engravings and the photograph of grandpapa Giltrap's lovely dog Garryowen
that almost talked, it was so human, and chintz covers for the chairs and that
silver toastrack in Clery's
summer jumble sales like they have in rich houses. He would be tall with broad shoulders (she
had always admired tall men for a husband) with glistening white teeth under
his carefully trimmed sweeping moustache and they would go on the continent for
their honeymoon (three wonderful weeks!) and then, when they settled down in a
nice snug and cosy little homely house, every morning they would both have brekky, simple but perfectly served, for their own two
selves and before he went out to business he would give his dear little wifey a good hearty hug and gaze for a moment deep down
into her eyes.
Edy
Boardman asked Tommy Caffrey was he done and he said
yes, so then she buttoned up his little knickerbockers for him and told him to
run off and play with Jacky and to be good now and not to fight. But Tommy said he wanted the ball and Edy told him no that baby was playing with the ball and if
he took it there's be wigs on the green but Tommy said it was his ball and he
wanted his ball and he pranced on the ground, if you please. The temper of him! O, he was a man already was little Tommy Caffrey since he was out of pinnies. Edy told him no, no
and to be off now with him and she told Cissy Caffrey not to give in to him.
- You're not my sister,
naughty Tommy said. It's my ball.
But Cissy
Caffrey told baby Boardman to look up, look up high
at her finger and she snatched the ball quickly and threw it along the sand and
Tommy after it in full career, having won the day.
- Anything for a quiet
life, laughed Ciss.
And she tickled tiny
tot's two cheeks to make him forget and played here's the lord mayor, here's
his two horses, here's his gingerbread carriage and here he walks in, chinchopper, chinchopper, chinchopper chin.
But Edy got as cross as two sticks about him
getting his own way like that from everyone always petting him.
- I'd like to give him
something, she said, so I would, where I won't say.
- On the beetoteetom, laughed Cissy
merrily.
Gerty
MacDowell bent down her head and crimsoned at the
idea of Cissy saying an unladylike thing like that
out loud she'd be ashamed of her life to say, flushing a deep rosy red, and Edy Boardman said she was sure the gentleman opposite heard
what she said. But not a pin cared Ciss.
- Let him! she said with a pert toss of her head and a piquant tilt of
her nose. Give it to him too on the same
place as quick as I'd look at him.
Madcap Ciss with her golliwog curls. You had to laugh at her sometimes. For instance when she asked you would you
have some more Chinese tea and jaspberry ram and when
she drew the jugs too and the men's faces on her nails with red ink made you
split your sides or when she wanted to go where you know she said she wanted to
run and pay a visit to the Miss White.
That was just like Cissycums. O, and will you ever
forget the evening she dressed up in her father's suit and hat and the burned
cork moustache and walked down Tritonville road,
smoking a cigarette? There was none to
come up to her for fun. But she was
sincerity itself, one of the bravest and truest hearts heaven
ever made, not one of your twofaced things, too sweet to be wholesome.
And then there came out
upon the air the sound of voices and the pealing anthem of the organ. It was the men's temperance retreat conducted
by the missioner, the reverend John Hughes S.J.,
rosary, sermon and benediction of the Most Blessed Sacrament. They were there gathered together without
distinction of social class (and a most edifying spectacle it was to see) in
that simple fane beside the waves, after the storm of this weary world, kneeling
before the feet of the immaculate, reciting the litany of Our Lady of Loreto,
beseeching her to intercede for them, the old familiar words, holy Mary, holy
virgin of virgins. How sad to poor Gerty's ears! Had
her father only avoided the clutches of the demon drink, by taking the pledge
or those powders the drink habit cured in Pearson's Weekly, she might now be
rolling in her carriage, second to none.
Over and over had she told herself that as she mused by the dying embers
in a brown study without the lamp because she hated two lights or oftentimes
gazing out of the window dreamily by the hour at the rain falling on the rusty
bucket, thinking. But that vile
decoction which has ruined so many hearths and homes had cast its shadow over
her childhood days. Nay, she had even
witnessed in the home circle deeds of violence caused by intemperance and had
seen her own father, a prey to the fumes of intoxication, forget himself
completely for if there was one thing of all things that Gerty
knew it was the man who lifts his hand to a woman save in the way of kindness
deserves to be branded as the lowest of the low.
And still the voices
sang in supplication to the Virgin most powerful, Virgin most merciful. And Gerty, wrapt in
thought, scarce saw or heard her companions or the twins at their boyish
gambols or the gentleman off Sandymount green that Cissy Caffrey called the man that
was so like himself passing along the strand taking a short walk. You never saw him anyway screwed but still
and for all that she would not like him for a father because he was too old or
something or on account of his face (it was a palpable case of doctor Fell) or
his carbuncly nose with the pimples on it and his
sandy moustache a bit white under his nose.
Poor father! With all his faults
she loved him still when he sang Tell me, Mary, how to woo thee or My
love and cottage near Rochelle and they had stewed cockles and lettuce with
Lazenby's salad dressing for supper and when he sang The
moon hath raised with Mr Dignam that died
suddenly and was buried, God have mercy on him, from a stroke. Her mother's birthday that was and Charley
was home on his holidays and Tom and Mr Dignam and
Mrs and Patsy and Freddy Dignam and they were to have
had a group taken. No-one would have thought
the end was so near. Now he was laid to
rest. And her mother said to him to let
that be a warning to him for the rest of his days and he couldn't even go to
the funeral on account of the gout and she had to go into town to bring him the
letters and samples from his office about Catesby's
cork lino, artistic standard designs, fit for a palace, gives tiptop wear and
always bright and cheery in the home.
A sterling good
daughter was Gerty just like a
second mother in the house, a ministering angel too with a little heart
its weight in gold. And when her mother
had those raging splitting headaches who was it rubbed on the menthol cone on
her forehead but Gerty though she didn't like her
mother taking pinches of snuff and that was the only single thing they ever had
words about, taking snuff. Everyone
thought the world of her for her gentle ways.
It was Gerty who turned off the gas at the
main every night and it was Gerty who tacked up on
the wall of that place where she never forgot every fortnight the chlorate of
lime Mr Tunney the grocer's christmas
almanac the picture of halcyon days where a young gentleman in the costume they
used to wear then with a threecornered hat was
offering a bunch of flowers to his ladylove with oldtime
chivalry through her lattice window. You
could see there was a story behind it.
The colours were done something lovely.
She was in a soft clinging white in a studied attitude and the gentleman
was in chocolate and he looked a thorough aristocrat. She often looked at them dreamily when there
for a certain purpose and felt her own arms that were white and soft just like
hers with the sleeves back and thought about those times because she had found
out in
The twins were now
playing in the most approved brotherly fashion, till at last Master Jacky who
was really as bold as brass there was no getting behind that deliberately
kicked the ball as hard as ever he could down towards the seaweedy
rocks. Needless to say poor Tommy was
not slow to voice his dismay but luckily the gentleman in black who was sitting
there by himself came gallantly to the rescue and intercepted the ball. Our two champions claimed their plaything with
lusty cries and to avoid trouble Cissy Caffrey called to the gentleman to throw it to her
please. The gentleman aimed the ball
once or twice and then threw it up the strand towards Cissy
Caffrey but it rolled down the slope and stopped
right under Gerty's skirt near the little pool by the
rock. The twins clamoured again for it
and Cissy told her to kick it away and let them fight
for it so Gerty drew back her foot but she wished
their stupid ball hadn't come rolling down to her and she gave a kick but she
missed and Edy and Cissy
laughed.
- If you fail try
again, Edy Boardman said.
Gerty
smiled assent and bit her lip. A
delicate pink crept into her pretty cheek but she was determined to let them
see so she just lifted her skirt a little but just enough and took good aim and
gave the ball a jolly good kick and it went ever so far and the two twins after
it down towards the shingle. Pure
jealousy of course it was nothing else to draw attention on account of the gentleman
opposite looking. She felt the warm
flush, a danger signal always with Gerty MacDowell, surging and flaming into her cheeks. Till then they had only exchanged glances of
the most casual but now under the brim of her new hat she ventured a look at
him and the face that met her gaze there in the twilight, wan and strangely
drawn, seemed to her the saddest she had ever seen.
Through the open window
of the church the fragrant incense was wafted and with it the fragrant names of
her who was conceived without stain of original sin, spiritual vessel, pray for
us, honourable vessel, pray for us, vessel of singular devotion, pray for us,
mystical rose. And careworn hearts were
there and toilers for their daily bread and many who had erred and wandered, their
eyes wet with contrition but for all that bright with hope for the reverend
father Hughes had told them what the great saint Bernard said in his famous
prayer of Mary, the most pious Virgin's intercessory power that it was not
recorded in any age that those who implored her powerful protection were ever
abandoned by her.
The twins were now
playing again right merrily for the troubles of childhood are but as fleeting
summer showers. Cissy
played with baby Boardman till he crowed with glee, clapping baby hands in
air. Peep she cried behind the hood of
the pushcar and Edy asked
where was Cissy gone and
then Cissy popped up her head and cried ah! and, my word, didn't the little chap enjoy that! And then she told him to say papa.
- Say papa, baby. Say pa pa pa pa pa
pa pa.
And baby did his level
best to say it for he was very intelligent for eleven months everyone said and
big for his age and the picture of health, a perfect little bunch of love, and
he would certainly turn out to be something great, they said.
- Haja
ja ja
haja.
Cissy
wiped his little mouth with the dribbling bib and wanted him to sit up
properly, and say pa pa pa
but when she undid the strap she cried out, holy saint Denis, that he was possing wet and to double the halfblanket
the other way under him. Of course his
infant majesty was most obstreperous at such toilet formalities and he let
everyone know it:
- Habaa
baaaahabaaa baaaa.
And
two great big lovely big tears coursing down his cheeks. It was all no use soothering
him with no, nono, baby, no and telling him about the
geegee and where was the puffpuff
but Ciss, always readywitted,
gave him in his mouth the teat of the suckingbottle
and the young heathen was quickly appeased.
Gerty
wished to goodness they would take their squalling baby home out of that and
not get on her nerves no hour to be out and the little brats of twins. She gazed out towards the distant sea. It was like the paintings that man used to do
no the pavement with all the coloured chalks and such a pity too leaving them
there to be all blotted out, the evening and the clouds coming out and the Baily light of Howth and to hear
the music like that and the perfume of those incense they burned in the church
like a kind of waft. And while she gazed
her heart went pitapat. Yes, it was her he was looking at and there
was meaning in his look. His eyes burned
into her as though they would search her through and through, read her very
soul. Wonderful eyes they were, superbly
expressive, but could you trust them?
People were so queer. She could
see at once by his dark eyes and his pale intellectual face that he was a
foreigner, the image of the photo she had of Martin Harvey, the matinee idol,
only for the moustache which she preferred because she wasn't stagestruck like Winny Rippingham that wanted they two to always dress the same on
account of a play but she could not see whether he had an aquiline nose or a
slightly retroussé from where he was
sitting. He was in deep mourning, she
could see that, and the story of a haunting sorrow was written on his
face. She would have given worlds to
know what it was. He was looking up so
intently, so still and saw her kick the ball and perhaps he could see the
bright steel buckles of her shoes if she swung them like that thoughtfully with
the toes down. She was glad that
something told her to put on the transparent stockings thinking Reggy Wylie might be out but that was far away. Here was that of which she had so often
dreamed. It was he who mattered and
there was joy on her face because she wanted him because she felt instinctively
that he was like no-one else. The very
hearth of the girlwoman went out to him, her dreamhusband,
because she knew on the instant it was him.
If he had suffered, more sinned against than sinning, or even, even, if
he had been himself a sinner, a wicked man, she cared not. Even if he was a protestant or methodist she could convert him easily if he truly loved
her. There were wounds that wanted
healing with heartbalm. She was a womanly woman not like other
flighty girls, unfeminine, he had known, those cyclists showing off what they
hadn't got and she just yearned to know all, to forgive all if she could make
him fall in love with her, make him forget the memory of the past. Then mayhap he would embrace her gently, like
a real man, crushing her soft body to him, and love her, his ownest girlie, for herself alone.
Refuge
of sinners. Comfortress of the afflicted. Ora pro nobis. Well has it been said that whosoever prays to
her with faith and constancy can never be lost or cast away: and fitly is she
too a haven of refuge for the afflicted because of the seven dolours which transpierced her
own heart. Gerty
could picture the whole scene in the church, the stained glass windows lighted
up, the candles, the flowers and the blue banners of the blessed Virgin's
sodality and Father Conroy was helping Canon O'Hanlon at the altar, carrying
things in and out with his eyes cast down.
He looked almost a saint and his confessionbox
was so quiet and clean and dark and his hands were just like white wax and if
ever she became a Dominican nun in their white habit perhaps he might come to
the convent for the novena of Saint Dominic.
He told her that time when she told him about that in confession
crimsoning up to the roots of her fair for fear he could see, not to be
troubled because that was only the voice of nature and we were all subject to
nature's laws, he said, in this life and that that was no sin because that came
from the nature of woman instituted by God, he said, and that Our Blessed Lady
herself said to the archangel Gabriel be it done unto me according to Thy
Word. He was so kind and holy and often
and often she thought and thought could she work a ruched
teacosy with embroidered floral design for him as a
present or a clock but they had a clock she noticed on the mantlepiece
white and gold with a canary bird that came out of a little house to tell the
time the day she went there about the flowers for the forty hours' adoration
because it was hard to know what sort of
a present to give or perhaps an album of illuminated views of Dublin or some
place.
The exasperating little
brats of twins began to quarrel again and Jacky threw the ball out towards the
sea and they both ran after it. Little monkeys common as ditchwater. Someone ought to take them and give them a
good hiding for themselves to keep them in their places, the both of them. And Cissy and Edy shouted after them to come back because they were
afraid the tide might come in on them and be drowned.
- Jacky! Tommy!
Not they! What a great notion they had! So Cissy said it
was the very last time she'd ever bring them out. She jumped up and called them and she ran
down the slope past him, tossing her hair behind her which had a good enough
colour if there had been more of it but all the thingamerry
she was always rubbing into it she couldn't get it to grow long because it
wasn't natural so she could just go and throw her hat at it. She ran with long gandery
strides it was a wonder she didn't rip up her skirt at the side that was too
tight on her because there was a lot of the tomboy about Cissy
Caffrey and she was a forward piece whenever she
thought she had a good opportunity to show off and just because she was a good
runner she ran like that so that he could see all the end of her petticoat
running and her skinny shanks up as far as possible. It would have served her just right if she
had tripped up over something accidentally on purpose with her high crooked
French heels on her to make her look tall and got a fine tumble. Tableau!
That would have been a very charming expose for a gentleman like
that to witness.
Queen of angels, queen
of patriarchs, queen of prophets, of all saints, they prayed, queen of the most
holy rosary and then Father Conroy handed the thurible
to Canon O'Hanlon and he put in the incense and censed the Blessed Sacrament
and Cissy Caffrey caught
the two twins and she was itching to give them a ringing good clip on the ear
but she didn't because she thought he
might be watching but she never made a bigger mistake in all her life because Gerty could see without looking that he never took his eyes
off of her and then Canon O'Hanlon handed the thurible
back to Father Conroy and knelt down looking up at the Blessed Sacrament and
the choir began to sing Tantum ergo and
she just swung her foot in and out in time as the music rose and fell to the Tantumer gosa cramen tum. Three and eleven she paid for those stockings
in Sparrow's of George's street on the Tuesday, no the Monday before Easter and
there wasn't a brack on them and that was what he was
looking at, transparent, and not at her insignificant ones that had neither
shape nor form (the cheeks of her!) because he had eyes in his head to see the
difference for himself.
Cissy
came up along the strand with the two twins and their ball with her hat anyhow
on her to one side after her run and she did look a streel
tugging the two kids along with the flimsy blouse she bought only a
fortnight before like a rag on her back and bit of her petticoat hanging like a
caricature. Gerty
just took off her hat for a moment to settle her hair and a prettier,
a daintier head of nutbrown tresses was never seen on
a girl's shoulders, a radiant little vision, in sooth, almost maddening in its
sweetness. You would have to travel many
a long mile before you found a head of hair the like of that. She could almost see the swift answering
flush of admiration in his eyes that she her tingling in every nerve. She put on her hat so that she could see from
underneath the brim and swung her buckled show faster for her breath caught as
she caught the expression in his eyes.
He was eyeing her as a snake eyes its prey. Her woman's instinct told her that she had
raised the devil in him and at the thought a burning scarlet swept from throat
to brow till the lovely colour of her face became a glorious rose.
Edy
Boardman was noticing it too because she was squinting at Gerty,
half smiling, with her specs, like an old maid, pretending to nurse the baby. Irritable little gnat she
was and always would be and that was why no-one could get on with her, poking
her nose into what was no concern of hers. And she said to Gerty:
- A penny for your
thoughts.
- What? replied Gerty with a smile
reinforced by the whitest of teeth. I
was only wondering was it late.
Because she wished to
goodness they'd take the snottynosed twins and their
baby home to the mischief out of that so that was why she just gave a gentle
hint about its being late. And when Cissy came up Edy asked her the
time and Miss Cissy, as glib as you like, said it was
half past kissing time, time to kiss again,
But Edy wanted to know because they were told
to be in early.
- Wait, said Cissy, I'll ask my uncle Peter over there what's the time by his conundrum.
So over she went and
when he saw her coming she could see him take his hand out of his pocket,
getting nervous, and beginning to play with his watchchain,
looking at the church. Passionate nature
though he was Gerty could see that he had enormous
control over himself. One moment he had
been there, fascinated by a loveliness that made him
gaze, and the next moment it was the quiet gravefaced
gentleman, selfcontrol expressed in every line of his
distinguishedlooking figure.
Cissy
said to excuse her would he mind telling her what was the right time and Gerty could see him taking out his watch, listening to it
and looking up and clearing his throat and he said he was very sorry his watch
was stopped but he thought it must be after eight because the sun was set. His voice had a cultured ring in it and
though he spoke in measured accents there was a suspicion of a quiver in the
mellow tones. Cissy
said thanks and came back with her tongue out and said uncle said his
waterworks were out of order.
Then they sang the
second verse of the Tantum ergo and
Canon O'Hanlon got up again and censed the Blessed Sacrament and knelt down and
he told Father Conroy that one of the candles was just going to set fire to the
flowers and Father Conroy got up and settled it all right and she could see the
gentleman winding his watch and listening to the works and she swung her leg
more in and out in time. It was getting
darker but he could see and he was looking all the time that he was winding the
watch or whatever he was doing to it and then he put it back and put his hands
back into his pockets. She felt a kind
of a sensation rushing all over her and she knew by the feel of her scalp and
that irritation against her stays that that thing must be coming on because the
last time too was when she clipped her hair on account of the moon. His dark eyes fixed themselves on her again
drinking in her every contour, literally worshipping at her shrine. If ever there was undisguised admiration in a
man's passionate gaze it was there plain to be seen on that man's face. It is for you, Gertrude MacDowell,
and you know it.
Edy
began to get ready to go and it was high time for her and Gerty
noticed that that little hint she gave had the desired effect because it was a
long way along the strand to where there was the place to push up the pushcar and Cissy took off the
twins' caps and tidied their hair to make herself attractive of course and
Canon O'Hanlon stood up with his cope poking up at his neck and Father Conroy
handed him the card to read off and he read out Panem
de coelo paestitisti eis and Edy and Cissy were talking about the time all the time and asking
her but Gerty could pay them back in their own coin
and she just answered with scathing politeness when Edy
asked her was she heartbroken about her best boy throwing her over. Gerty winced
sharply. A brief cold blaze shone from
her eyes that spoke volumes of scorn immeasurable. It hurt, O yes, it cut deep because Edy had her own quiet way of saying things like that she
knew would wound like the confounded little cat she was. Gerty's lips parted
swiftly to frame the word but she fought back the sob that rose to her throat,
so slim, so flawless, so beautifully moulded it seemed
one an artist might have dreamed of. She
had loved him better than he knew. Lighthearted deceiver and fickle like all his sex he would
never understand what he had meant to her and for an instant there was in the
blue eyes a quick stinging of tears.
Their eyes were probing her mercilessly but with a brave effort she
sparkled back in sympathy as she glanced at her new conquest for them to see.
- O, responded Gerty, quick as lightning, laughing, and the proud head
flashed up, I can throw my cap at who I like because it's leap year.
Her words rang out crystalclear, more musical than the cooing of the ringdove,
but they cut the silence icily. There
was that in her young voice that told that she was not a one to be lightly
trifled with. As for Mr Reggy with his swank and his bit of money she could just
chuck him aside as if he was so much filth and never again would she cast as
much as a second thought on him and tear his silly postcard into a dozen
pieces. And if ever after he dared to
presume she could give him one look of measured scorn that would make him
shrivel up on the spot. Miss puny little
Edy's countenance fell to no slight extent and Gerty could see by her looking as black as thunder that she
was simply in a towering rage though she hid it, the little kinnatt,
because that shaft had struck home for her petty jealousy and they both knew
that she was something aloof, apart in another sphere, that she was not of them
and there was somebody else too that knew it and saw it so they could put that
in their pipe and smoke it.
Edy
straightened up baby Boardman to get ready to go and Cissy
tucked in the ball and the spades and buckets and it was high time too because
the sandman was on his way for Master Boardman junior and Cissy
told him too that Billy Winks was coming and that baby was to go deedaw and baby looked just too ducky, laughing up out of
his gleeful eyes, and Cissy poked him like that out
of fun in is wee fat tummy and baby, without as much as by your leave, sent up
his compliments on to his brandnew dribbling bib.
- O my! Puddeny pie! protested Ciss. He has his bib destroyed.
The slight contretemps
claimed her attention but in two twos she set that little matter to rights.
Gerty
stifled a smothered exclamation and gave a nervous cough and Edy asked what and she was just going to tell her to catch
it while it was flying but she was ever ladylike in her deportment so she
simply passed it off with consummate tact by saying that that was the
benediction because just then the bell rang out from the steeple over the quiet
seashore because Canon O'Hanlon was up on the altar with the veil that Father
Conroy put round his shoulders giving the benediction with the blessed
Sacrament in his hands.
How moving the scene there
in the gathering twilight, the last glimpse of Erin, the touching chime of
those evening bells and at the same time a bat flew forth from the ivied belfry
through the dusk, hither, thither, with a tiny lost cry. And she could see far away the lights of the
lighthouses so picturesque she would have loved to do with a box of paints
because it was easier than to make a man and soon the lamplighter would be
going his rounds past the presbyterian church grounds
and along by shady Tritonville avenue where the
couples walked and lighting the lamp near her window where Reggy
Wylie used to turn his freewheel like she read in that book The Lamplighter by
Miss Cummins, author of Mabel Vaughan and other tales. For Gerty had her
dreams that no-one knew of. She loved to
read poetry and when she got a keepsake from Bertha Supple of that lovely
confession album with the coralpink cover to write
her thoughts in she laid it in the drawer of her toilettable
which, though it did not err on the side of luxury, was scrupulously neat and
clean. It was there she kept her girlish
treasure trove, the tortoiseshell combs, her child of Mary badge, the whiterose scent, the eyebrowleine,
her alabaster pouncetbox and the ribbons to change
when her things came home from the wash and there were some beautiful thoughts
written in it in violet ink that she bought in Hely's
of Dame Street for she felt that she too could write poetry if she could only
express herself like that poem that appealed to her so deeply that she had
copied out of the newspaper she found one evening round the potherbs. Art thou real, my ideal? It was called by Louis J. Walsh, Magherafelt, and after there was something about twilight,
wilt thou ever? and ofttimes the beauty of
poetry, so sad in its transient loveliness, had misted her eyes with silent
tears that the years were slipping by for her, one by one, and but for that one
shortcoming she knew she need fear no competition and that was an accident
coming down Dalkey hill and she always tried to
conceal it. But it must end she
felt. If she saw that magic lure in his
eyes there would be no holding back for her.
Love laughs at locksmiths. She would
make the great sacrifice. Her every
effort would be to share his thoughts.
Dearer than the whole world would she be to him and gild his days with
happiness. There was the allimportant question and she was dying to know was he a
married man or a widower who had lost his wife or some tragedy like the
nobleman with the foreign name from the land of song had to have her put into a
madhouse, cruel only to be kind. But
even if - what then? Would it make a
very great difference? From everything
in the least indelicate her finebred nature
instinctively recoiled. She loathed that
sort of person, the fallen women off the accommodation walk beside the Dodder
that went with the soldiers and coarse men, with no respect for a girl's
honour, degrading the sex and being taken up to the police station. No, no; not that. They would be just good friends like a big
brother and sister without all that other in spite of the conventions of
Society with a big ess. Perhaps it was an old flame he was in
mourning for from the days beyond recall.
She thought she understood. She
would try to understand him because men were so different. The old love was waiting, waiting with little
white hands stretched out, with blue appealing eyes. Heart of mine! She would follow her dream of love, the
dictates of her heart that told her he was her all in all,
the only man in all the world for her for love was the master guide. Nothing else mattered. Come what might she would be wild,
untrammelled, free.
Canon O'Hanlon put the
Blessed Sacrament back into the tabernacle and the choir sang Laudate Dominum omnes gentes and then he
locked the tabernacle door because the benediction was over and Father Conroy
handed him his hat to put on and crosscat Edy asked wasn't she coming, but Jacky Caffrey
called out:
- O, look, Cissy!
And they all looked was
it sheet lightning but Tommy saw it too over the trees beside the church, blue
and then green and purple.
- It's fireworks, Cissy Caffrey said.
And they all ran down
the strand to see over the houses and the church, helterskelter,
Edy with the pushcar with
baby Boardman in it and Cissy holding Tommy and Jacky
by the hand so they wouldn't fall running.
- Come on, Gerty, Cissy called. It's the bazaar fireworks.
But Gerty
was adamant. She had no intention of
being at their beck and call. If they
could run like rossies she could sit so she said she
could see from where she was. The eyes
that were fastened upon her set her pulses tingling. She looked at him a moment, meeting his
glance, and a light broke in upon her. Whitehot passion was in that face, passion silent as the
grave, and it had made her his. At last
they were left alone without the others to pry and pass remarks and she knew he
could be trusted to the death, steadfast, a sterling man, a
man of inflexible honour to his fingertips.
His hands and face were working and a tremor went over her. She leaned back far to look up where the
fireworks were and she caught her knee in her hands so as not to fall back
looking up and there was no-one to see only him and her when she revealed all
her graceful beautifully shaped legs like that, supply soft and delicately
rounded, and she seemed to hear the panting of his heart, his hoarse breathing,
because she knew about the passion of men like that, hotblooded,
because Bertha Supple told her once in dead secret and made her swear she'd
never about the gentleman lodger that was staying with them out of the
Congested Districts Board that had pictures cut out of papers of those skirtdancers and highkickers and
she said he used to do something not very nice that you could imagine sometimes
in the bed. But this was altogether
different from a thing like that because there was all the difference because
she could almost feel him draw her face to his and the first quick hot touch of
his handsome lips. Besides there was
absolution so long as you didn't do the other thing before being married and
there ought to be women priests that would understand without your telling out
and Cissy Caffrey too
sometimes had that dreamy kind of dreamy look in her eyes so that she too, my
dear, and Winny Rippingham
so mad about actors' photographs and besides it was on account of that other
thing coming on the way it did.
And Jacky Caffrey shouted to look, there was another and she leaned
back and the garters were blue to match on account of the transparent and they
all saw it and shouted to look, look there it was and she leaned back ever so
far to see the fireworks and something queer was flying about through the air,
a soft thing to and fro, dark. And she
saw a long Roman candle going up over the trees up, up, and, in the tense hush,
they were all breathless with excitement as it went higher and higher and she
had to lean back more and more to look up after it, high, high, almost out of
sight, and her face was suffused with a divine, an entrancing blush from
straining back and he could see her other things too, nainsook
knickers, the fabric that caresses the skin, better than those other pettiwidth, the green, four and eleven, on account of being
white and she let him and she saw that he saw and then it went so high it went
out of sight a moment and she was trembling in every limb from being bent so
far back he had a full view high up above her knee no-one ever not even on the
swing or wading and she wasn't ashamed and he wasn't either to look in that
immodest way like that because he couldn't resist the sight of the wondrous revealment half offered like those skirtdancers
behaving so immodest before gentlemen looking and he kept on looking,
looking. She would fain have cried to
him chokingly, held out her snowy slender arms to him to come, to feel his lips
laid on her white brow the cry of a young girl's love,
a little strangled cry, wrung from her, that cry that has wrung through the
ages. And then a
rocket sprang and bang shot blind and O! then
the Roman candle burst and it was light a sigh of O! and
everyone cried O! O! in raptures and it gushed out of
it a stream of rain gold hair threads and they shed and ah! they
were all greeny dewy stars falling with golden, O so
lovely! O so soft, sweet, soft!
Then all melted away
dewily in the grey air: all was silent.
Ah! She glanced at him as she
bent forward quickly, a pathetic little glance of piteous protest, of shy
reproach under which he coloured like a girl.
He was leaning back against the rock behind. Leopold Bloom (for it is
he) stands silent, with bowed head before those young guileless eyes. What a brute he had been! At it again? A fair unsullied soul had called to him and,
wretch that he was, how had he answered?
An utter cad he had been. He of
all men! But there was
an infinite store of mercy in those eyes, for him too a word of pardon even
though he had erred and sinned and wandered. Should a girl tell? No, a thousand times no. That was their secret, only theirs, alone in
the hiding twilight and there was none to know or tell save the little bat that
flew so softly through the evening to and fro and little bats don't tell.
Cissy
Caffrey whistled, imitating the boys in the football
field to show what a great person she was: and then she cried:
- Gerty! Gerty! We're going.
Come on. We can see from farther
up.
Gerty
had an idea, one of love's little ruses.
She slipped a hand into her kerchief pocket and took out the wadding and
waved in reply of course without letting him and then slipped it back. Wonder if he's too far to. She rose.
Was it goodbye? No. She had to go but they would meet again,
there, and she would dream of that till then, tomorrow, of her dream of yester
eve. She drew herself up to her full
height. Their souls met in a last
lingering glance and the eyes that reached her heart, full of a strange
shining, hung enraptured on her sweet flowerlike face. She half smiled at him wanly, a sweet
forgiving smile, a smile that verged on tears, and then they parted.
Slowly without looking
back she went down the uneven strand to Cissy, to Edy, to Jacky and Tommy Caffrey,
to little baby Boardman. It was darker
now and there were stones and bits of wood on the strand and slippy seaweed. She
walked with a certain quiet dignity characteristic of her but with care and
very slowly because Gerty MacDowell
was ...
Tight
boots? No. She's lame!
O!
Mr Bloom watched her as
she limped away. Poor girl! That's why she's left on the shelf and the
others did a sprint. Thought something
was wrong by the cut of her jib. Jilted beauty. A
defect is ten times worse in a woman. But makes them polite.
Glad I didn't know it when she was on show. Hot little devil all the same. Wouldn't mind. Curiosity like a nun or a negress or a girl with glasses. That squinty one is delicate. Near her monthlies, I expect, makes them feel
ticklish. I have such a bad headache
today. Where did I put the letter? Yes, all right. All kinds of crazy
longings. Licking pennies. Girl in Tranquilla
convent that nun told me liked to smell rock oil. Virgins go mad in the end I suppose. Sister? How many women in
Ah!
Devils they are when
that's coming on them. Dark devilish appearance.
Molly often told me feel things a ton weight. Scratch the sole of my foot. O that way!
O, that's exquisite! Feel it
myself too. Good to rest once in a
way. Wonder if it's bad to go with them
then. Safe in one way. Turns milk, makes fiddlestrings
snap. Something about withering plants I
read in a garden. Besides they say if
the flower withers she wears she's a flirt.
All are. Daresay she felt I. When you feel like
that you often meet what you feel. Liked
me or what? Dress they look at. Always know a fellow courting: collars and
cuffs. Well cocks and lions do the same
and stags. Same time might prefer a tie
undone or something. Trousers? Suppose I when I
was? No.
Gently does it. Dislike rough and
tumble. Kiss in the dark and never tell. Saw something in me. Wonder what.
Sooner have me as I am than some poor chap with bearsgrease,
plastery hair lovelock over his dexter
optic. To aid
gentleman in literary. Ought to attend to my appearance my age. Didn't let her see me in
profile. Still, you never
know. Pretty girls and
ugly men marrying. Beauty and the beast.
Besides I can't be so if Molly. Took off her hat to show her hair. Wide brim bought to hide her face, meeting
someone might know her, bend down or carry a bunch of flowers to smell. Hair strong in rut. Ten bob I got for Molly's combings when we
were on the rocks in
O, he did. Into her. She did.
Done.
Ah!
Mr Bloom with careful
hand recomposed his wet shirt. O Lord,
that little limping devil. Begins to feel cold and clammy. Aftereffect not pleasant. Still
you have to get rid of it someway. They
don't care. Complimented
perhaps. Go home to nicey bread and milky and say night prayers with the
kiddies. Well, aren't they. See her as she is spoil
all. Must have the
stage setting, the rouge, costume, position, music. The name too. Amours of actresses. Nell Gwynn, Mrs
Bracegirdle, Maud Branscombe. Curtain up.
Moonlight silver effulgence.
Maiden discovered with pensive bosom.
Little sweetheart come and kiss me.
Still I feel. The strength it
gives a man. That's the secret of
it. Good job I let off there behind
coming out of Dignam's. Cider that was. Otherwise I couldn't have. Makes you want to sing after. Lacaus esant taratara. Suppose I spoke to her. What about?
Bad plan however if you don't know how to end the conversation. Ask them a question they ask you
another. Good idea if you're in a
cart. Wonderful of course if you say: good evening, and you see she's on for it: good
evening. O but the dark evening in the
There she is with them
down there for the fireworks. Mr fireworks. Up like a
rocket, down like a stick. And the
children, twins they must be, waiting for something to happen. Want to be grownups. Dressing in mother's
clothes. Time enough,
understand all the ways of the world. And the dark one with the mop head and the nigger mouth. I knew she could whistle. Mouth made for that. Like Molly.
Why that high class whore in Jammet's wore her
veil only to her nose. Would you mind,
please, telling me the right time? I'll
tell you the right time up a dark lane.
Say prunes and prisms forty times every morning,
cure for fat lips. Caressing
the little boy too. Onlookers see
most of the game. Of course they
understand birds, animals, babies. In their line.
Didn't
look back when she was going down the strand. Wouldn't give that
satisfaction. Those
girls, those girls, those lovely seaside girls. Fine eyes she had, clear. It's the white of the eye brings that out not
so much the pupil. Did she know what I? Course. Like a cat sitting beyond a
dog's jump. Women never meet one
like that Wilkins in the high school drawing a picture of Venus with all his
belongings on show. Call that
innocence? Poor idiot! His wife has her work cut out for her. Never see them sit on a bench marked Wet
Paint. Eyes all
over them. Look under the bed for
what's not there. Longing
to get the fright of their lives.
Sharp as needles they are. When I
said to Molly the man at the corner of Cuffe street
was goodlooking, thought she might like, twigged at
once he had a false arm. Had too. Where do
they get that? Typist
going up Roger Greene's stairs two at a time to show her understandings. Handed down from father to mother to
daughter, I mean. Bred
in the bone. Milly for example drying her
handkerchief on the mirror to save the ironing. Best place for an ad to catch a woman's eye
on a mirror. And when I sent her for
Molly's Paisley shawl to
A monkey puzzle rocket
burst, spluttering in darting crackles. Zrads and zrads, zrads, zrads. And Cissy and Tommy
ran out to see and Edy after with the pushcar and then Gerty beyond the
curve of the rocks. Will she? Watch!
See! Looked
round. She smelt an onion. Darling, I saw you. I saw all.
Lord!
Did me good all the same.
Off colour after Kiernan's, Dignam's. For this relief much thanks. In Hamlet, that is. Lord!
It was all things combined. Excitement. When she
leaned back felt an ache at the butt of my tongue. Your head it simply swirls. He's right.
Might have made a worse fool of myself however. Instead of talking about
nothing. Then I will tell you
all. Still it was a kind of language
between us. It couldn't be? No, Gerty they
called her. Might be false name however
like my and the address Dolphin's barn a blind.
Her
maiden name was Jemina Brown
And she lived with her mother in Irishtown.
Place made me think of
that I suppose. All tarred with the same
brush. Wiping pens in their stockings. But the ball rolled down to her as if it
understood. Every bullet has its
billet. Course I never could throw
anything straight at school. Crooked as a ram's horn.
Sad however because it lasts only a few years till
they settle down to potwalloping and papa's pants
will soon fit. Willy
and fullers' earth for the baby when they hold him out to do ah ah. No soft
job. Saves them. Keeps them out of harm's
way. Nature. Washing child, washing
corpse. Dignam. Children's hands always round them. Cocoanut skulls, monkeys, not even closed at
first, sour milk in their swaddles and tainted curds. Oughtn't to have given that
child an empty teat to suck. Fill
it up with wind. Mrs Beaufoy,
Purefoy. Must call to the hospital.
Wonder if nurse Callan there still. She used to look over some nights when Molly
was in the
Ow!
Other hand a sixfooter with a wifey up to his watchpocket. Long and the short of it.
Big he and little she. Very strange about my
watch. Wristwatches are always
going wrong. Wonder is there any
magnetic influence between the person be cause that
was about the time he. Yes, I suppose at
once. Cat's
away the mice will play. I remember
looking in Pill lane. Also that now is
magnetism. Back of everything magnetism. Earth for instance pulling
this and being pulled. That
causes movement. And time? Well that's the time the movement takes. Then if one thing stopped the whole ghesabo would stop bit by bit. Because it's arranged. Magnetic needle tells you what's going on in
the sun, the stars. Little
piece of steel iron. When you hold out the fork.
Come. Come. Tip. Woman and man that is.
Fork and steel.
Molly, he.
Dress up and look and suggest and let you see and see more and defy you
if you're a man to see that and, like a sneeze coming, legs, look, look and if
you have any guts in you. Tip. Have to let fly.
Wonder how is she feeling in that region. Shame all put on before third person. More put out about a hole in her
stocking. Molly, her underjaw
stuck out head back, about the farmer in the ridingboots
and spurs at the horse show. And when the painters were in
Wait. Hm. Hm. Yes.
That's her perfume. Why she waved
her hand. I leave you this to think of
me when I'm far away on the pillow. What
is it? Heliotrope? No, Hyacinth?
Hm. Roses, I think. She'd like scent of that kind. Sweet and cheap: soon sour. Why Molly likes opoponax. Suits her with a little jessamine
mixed. Her high notes and her low
notes. At the dance night she met him,
dance of the hours. Heat brought it
out. She was wearing her black and it
had the perfume of the time before. Good
conductor, is it? Or
bad? Light too. Suppose there's some connection. For instance if you go into
a cellar where it's dark. Mysterious thing too.
Why did I smell it only now? Took
its time in coming like herself, slow but sure.
Suppose it's ever so many millions of tiny grains blown across. Yes, it is.
Because those spice islands, Cinghalese this
morning, smell them leagues off. Tell
you what it is. It's like a fine veil or
web they have all over the skin, fine like what do you call it gossamer and they're always spinning it out
of them, fine as anything, rainbow colours without knowing it. Clings to everything she takes off. Vamp of her stockings. Warm shoe. Stays. Drawers: little kick, taking them off. Byby till next time. Also
the cat likes to sniff in her shift on the bed.
Know her smell in a thousand. Bathwater too. Reminds me of strawberries and cream. Wonder where it is really. There or the armpits or under the neck. Because you get it out of all holes and
corners. Hyacinth perfume made of oil or
ether or something. Muskrat. Bag under their tails one
grain pour off odour for years. Dogs at each other behind.
Good evening. Evening. How do you sniff? Hm. Hm. Very well, thank you. Animals go by that. Yes now, look at it that way. We're the same. Some women for instance warn you off when
they have their period. Come near. Then get a hogo you
could hang your hat on. Like what? Potted herrings gone stale or. Boof! Please keep off the grass.
Perhaps they get a man
smell off us. What though? Cigary gloves Long
John had on his desk the other. Breath? What you eat
and drink gives that. No. Mansmell, I
mean. Must be
connected with that because priests that are supposed to be are different. Women buzz round it like flies round
treacle. Railed off
the altar get on to it at any cost.
The tree of forbidden priest. O father, will you? Let me be the first to. That diffuses itself all through the body,
permeates. Source of life and it's
extremely curious the smell. Celery sauce. Let me.
Mr Bloom inserted his
nose. Hm. Into the. Hm. Opening
of his waistcoat. Almonds
or. No.
Lemons it is. Ah, no, that's the
soap.
O by the by that
lotion. I knew there was something on my
mind. Never went back and the soap not
paid. Dislike carrying bottles like that
hag this morning. Hynes might have paid
me that three shillings. I could mention Meagher's
just to remind him. Still if he works
that paragraph. Two
and nine. Bad opinion of me he'll
have. Call tomorrow. How much do I owe you? Three and nine? Two and nine, sir. Ah. Might stop him giving credit another time. Lose your customers that way. Pubs do.
Fellow run up a bill on the slate and then slinking
around the backstreets into somewhere else.
Here's this nobleman
passed before. Blown
in from the bay. Just went as far
as turn back. Always
at home at dinnertime. Looks
mangled out: had a good tuck in. Enjoying nature now.
Grace after meals. After supper
walk a mile. Sure he has a small bank
balance somewhere, government sit. Walk
after him now make him awkward like those newsboys me today. Still you learn something. See ourselves as others see us. So long as women don't mock what matter? That's the way to find out. Ask yourself who is he now. The Mystery Man on the Beach, prize
titbit story by Mr Leopold Bloom. Payment at the rate of one guinea per column. And that fellow today at
the graveside in the brown macintosh. Corns on his kismet
however. Healthy perhaps absorb
all the. Whistle brings rain they
say. Must be some
somewhere. Salt
in the Ormond damp. The body feels
the atmosphere. Old Betty's joints are
on the rack. Mother Shipton's
prophecy that is about ships around they fly in the twinkling. No.
Signs of rain it is. The royal reader. And
distant hills seem coming nigh.
Howth. Bailey light. Two, four, six, eight,
nine. See. Has to change or they might think it a
house. Wreckers. Grace Darling. People afraid of the dark. Also glowworms,
cyclists: lightingup time. Jewels diamonds flash better. Light is a kind of reassuring. Not going to hurt you. Better now of course than long ago. Country roads. Run you through the small guts for
nothing. Still two types there are you
bob against. Scowl or smile. Pardon!
Not at all.
Best time to spray plants too in the shade after the sun. Some light still. Red rays are longest. Roygbiv Vance
taught us: red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo,
violet. A star I see. Venus?
Can't tell yet.
Two, when three it's night. Were those nightclouds
there all the time? Looks like a phantom
ship. No. Wait. Trees are they. An optical illusion. Mirage. Land of the setting sun this. Homerule sun setting in the southeast. My native land, goodnight.
Dew
falling. Bad
for you, dear, to sit on that stone.
Brings on white fluxions. Never have little baby then less he was big
strong fight his way up through. Might get piles myself.
Sticks too like a summer cold, sore on the mouth. Cut with grass or paper worst. Friction of the position. Like to be that rock she sat on. O sweet little, you don't know how nice you
looked. I begin to like them at that
age. Green apples. Grab at all that offer. Suppose it's the only time we cross legs,
seated. Also the library today: those
girl graduates. Happy chairs under
them. But it's the evening
influence. They feel all that. Open like flowers,
know their hours, sunflowers,
All quiet on Howth now. The
distant hills seem. Where
we. The
rhododendrons. I am a fool
perhaps. He gets the plums and I the plumstones. Where I come in. All that old hill has seen.
Names change, that's all. Lovers:
yum yum.
Tired I feel now. Will I get up? O wait. Drained all the manhood out of me, little
wretch. She kissed me. My youth. Never again. Only once it comes. Or hers. Take the train there tomorrow. No. Returning not the same.
Like kids your second visit to a house.
The new I want. Nothing new under the sun.
Care of P.O. Dolphin's barn charades in Luke Doyle's house. Mat Dillon and his bevy of daughters: Tiny, Atty, Floey, Maimy,
Louy, Hetty. Molly too. Eightyseven that was. Year
before we. And
the old major partial to his drop of spirits.
Curious she an only child, I an only child. So it returns. Think you're escaping and run into
yourself. Longest way round is the
shortest way home. And
just when he and she. Circus horse walking in a ring. Rip van Winkle we played. Rip: tear in Henry Doyle's overcoat. Van: breadvan
delivering. Winkle: cockles and
periwinkles. Then I did Rip van Winkle
coming back. She leaned on the sideboard
watching. Moorish
eyes. Twenty years asleep in
Sleepy Hollow. All changed. Forgotten. The young are old. His gun rusty from the dew.
Ba. What is that flying about? Swallow?
Bat probably. Thinks I'm a tree,
so blind. Have birds no smell? Metempsychosis. They believed you could be changed into a tree
from grief. Weeping
willow. Ba. There he goes. Funny little beggar. Wonder where he lives. Belfry up there. Very likely. Hanging by his heels in the
odour of sanctity.
Ba. Who knows what they're always flying for. Insects? That bee
last week got into the room playing with his shadow on the ceiling. Might be the one bit me, come back to
see. Birds too never find out what they
say. Like our small talk. And says she and says he. Nerve they have to fly over the ocean and
back.
Then you have a
beautiful calm without a cloud, smooth sea, placid, crew and cargo in
smithereens, Davy Jones' locker. Moon looking down.
Not my fault, old cockalorum.
A lost long candle
wandered up the sky from Mirus bazaar in search of
funds for Mercer's hospital and broke, drooping, and shed a cluster of violet
but one white stars.
They floated, fell: they faded.
The shepherd's hour: the hour of holding: hour of tryst. From house to house, giving his everwelcome double knock, went the
Life those chaps out there must have, stuck in the same spot. Irish Lights board. Penance for their sins. Coastguards too. Rocket and breeches buoy
and lifeboat. Day we went out for
the pleasure cruise in the
Better not stick here
all night like a limpet. This weather
makes you dull. Must
be getting on for nine by the light.
Go home. Too
late for Leah, Lily of Killarney.
No. Might be
still up. Call to the hospital to
see. Hope she's over. Long day I've had. Martha, the bath, funeral,
house of keys, museum with those goddesses, Dedalus'
song. Then that
bawler in Barney Kiernan's. Got my own back there.
Drunken ranters. What I said about his God made him
wince. Mistake to hit
back. Or? No.
Ought to go home and laugh at themselves. Always want to be swilling in company. Afraid to be alone like a
child of two. Suppose he hit
me. Look at it other way round. Not so bad then. Perhaps not to hurt he meant. Three cheers for
Mr Bloom stooped and
turned over a piece of paper on the strand.
He brought it near his eyes and peered. No. Can't read. Better
go. Better. I'm tired to move. Page of an old copybook. All those holes and
pebbles. Who could count
them? Never know what you find. Bottle with story of a
treasure in it thrown from a wreck.
Parcels post. Children always
want to throw things in the sea. Trust? Bread cast on
the waters. What's this? Bit of stick.
O! Exhausted that female has me. Not so young now. Will she come her
tomorrow? Wait for her somewhere for
ever. Must come back. Murderers do.
Will I?
Mr Bloom with his stick
gently vexed the thick sand at his foot.
Write a message for her. Might remain. What?
I.
Some flatfoot tramp on
it in the morning. Useless. Washed away. Tide comes here a pool near her foot. Bend, see my face there, dark mirror, breathe on it, stirs.
All these rocks with lines and scars and letters. O, those transparent! Besides they don't know. What is the meaning of that other word? I called you naughty boy because I do not
like.
AM.
A.
No room. Let it go.
Mr Bloom effaced the
letters with his slow boot. Hopeless thing sand.
Nothing grows in it. All
fades. No fear of big vessels coming up
here. Except
Guinness's barges. Round the
He flung his wooden pen
away. The stick fell in silted sand,
stuck. Now if you were trying to do that
for a week on end you couldn't. Chance. We'll never
meet again. But it was lovely. Goodbye, dear. Thanks.
Made me feel so young.
Short
snooze now if I had. Must be near nine.
O sweety
all your little girlwhite up I saw dirty bracegirdle made me do love sticky we two naughty Grace
darling she him half past the bed met him pike hoses frillies
for Raoul to perfume your wife black hair heave under
embon seņorita young
eyes Mulvey plump years dreams return tail end Agendath swoony lovely showed me
her next year in drawers return next in her next her next.
A bat flew. Here.
There. Here. Far in the grey a bell chimed. Mr Bloom with open mouth, his left boot
sanded sideways, leaned, breathed. Just
for a few.
Cuckoo.
Cuckoo.
Cuckoo.
The clock on the
mantelpiece in the priest's house cooed where Canon O'Hanlon and Father Conroy
and the reverend John Hughes S.J. were taking tea and sodabread
and butter and fried mutton chops with catsup and talking about
Cuckoo.
Cuckoo.
Cuckoo.
Because it was a little
canarybird that came out of its little house to tell
the time that Gerty MacDowell
noticed the time she was there because she was as quick as anything about a
thing like that, was Gerty MacDowell,
and she noticed at once that that foreign gentleman that was sitting on the
rocks looking was
Cuckoo.
Cuckoo.
Cuckoo.