IV

 

To London he always returned with the tremulous eagerness of a lover who has been separated a long time from his mistress; he returned, so to speak, upon a note of interrogation.  Had life altered?  Had anything been changed?  Perhaps the nation had, after all, woken up and begun to live?  The thin black drizzle over Trafalgar Square, the soot-encrusted cornices of Whitehall, the slur of rubber tyres spinning upon macadam, the haunting conspiratorial voice of river traffic behind the veils of mist - they were both a reassurance and a threat.  He loved it inarticulately, the melancholy of it, though he knew in his heart he could no longer live here permanently, for his profession had made an expatriate of him.  He walked in the soft clinging rain towards Downing Street, muffled in his heavy overcoat, comparing himself from time to time, not without a certain complacence, to the histrionic Grand Duke who smiled at him from the occasional hoardings advertising De Reszke cigarettes.

      He smiled to himself as he remembered some of Pursewarden's acid strictures on their native capital, repeating them in his own mind with pleasure, as compliments almost.  Pursewarden transferring his sister's hand from one elbow to another in order to complete a vague gesture towards the charred-looking figure of Nelson under its swarming troops of pigeons befluffed against the brute cold.  'Ah, Mountolive!  Look at it all.  Home of the eccentric and the sexually disabled.  London!  They food as appetizing as a barium meal, thy gloating discomforts, thy causes not lost but gone before.'  Mountolive had protested laughingly.  'Never mind, it is our own - and it is greater than the sum of its defects.'  But his companion had found such sentiments uncongenial.  He smiled now as he remembered the writer's wry criticisms of gloom, discomfort and the native barbarism.  As for Mountolive, it nourished him, the gloom; he felt something like the fox's love for its earth.  He listened with a comfortable smiling indulgence while his companion perorated with mock fury at the image of his native island, saying: 'Ah, England!  England where the members of the R.S.P.C.A. eat meat twice a day and the nudist devours imported fruit in the snow.  The only country which is ashamed of poverty.'

      Big Ben struck its foundering plunging note.  Lamps had begun to throw out their lines of prismatic light.  Even in the rain there was the usual little cluster of tourists and loungers outside the gates of Number Ten.  He turned sharply away and entered the silent archways of the Foreign Office, directing his alien steps to the bag-room, virtually deserted now, where he declared himself and gave instructions about the forwarding of his mail, and left an order for the printing of new and more resplendent invitation cards.

      Then in a somewhat more thoughtful mood, and a warier walk to match it, he climbed the cold staircase smelling of cobwebs and reached the embrasures in the great hall patrolled by the uniformed janitors.  It was late, and most of the inhabitants of what Pursewarden always called the 'Central Dovecot' had surrendered their tagged keys and vanished.  Here and there in the great building were small oases of light behind barred windows.  The clink of teacups sounded somewhere out of sight.  Someone fell over a pile of scarlet despatch boxes which had been stacked in a corridor against collection.  Mountolive sighed with familiar pleasure.  He had deliberately chosen the evening hours for his first few interviews because there was Kenilworth to be seen and ... his ideas were not very precise upon the point; but he might atone for his dislike of the man by taking him to his club for a drink?  For somewhere along the line he had made an enemy of him, he could not guess how, for it had never been marked by any open disagreement.  Yet it was there, like a knot in wood.

      They had been near-contemporaries at school and university, though never friends.  But while he, Mountolive, had climbed smoothly and faultlessly up the ladder of promotion the other hand been somehow faulted, had always missed his footing; had drifted about among the departments of little concern, collecting the routine honours, but never somehow catching a favourable current.  The man's brilliance and industry were undeniable.  Why had he never succeeded?  Mountolive asked himself the question fretfully, indignantly.  Luck?  At any rate, here was Kenilworth now heading the new department concerned with Personnel, innocuous enough, to be sure, but his failure embarrassed Mountolive.  For a man of his endowment it was really a shame to be merely in charge of one of those blank administrative constructs which offered no openings into the worlds of policy.  A dead end.  And if he could not develop positively he would soon develop the negative powers of obstruction which always derive from a sense of failure.

      As he was thinking this he was climbing slowly to the third floor to report his presence to Granier, moving through the violet crepuscule towards the tall cream doors behind which the Under-Secretary sat in a frozen bubble of green light, incising designs on his pink blotter with a paperknife.  Congratulations weighed something here, for they were spiced with professional envy.  Granier was a clever, witty and good-tempered man with some of the mental agility and drive of a French grandmother.  It was easy to like him.  He spoke rapidly and confidently, marking his sentences with little motions of the ivory paperweight.  Mountolive fell in naturally with the charm of his language - the English of fine breeding and polish which carried those invisible diacritical marks, the expression of its caste.

      'You've looked in on the Berlin mission, I gather?  Good.  Anyway, if you've been following P.E. you will see the shape of things to come perhaps, and be able to judge the extent of our preoccupations with your own appointment.  Eh?'  He did not like to use the word 'war'.  It sounded theatrical.  'If the worst comes to the worst we don't need to emphasize a concern for Suez - indeed, for the whole Arab complex of states.  But since you've served out there I won't pretend to lecture you about it.  But we'll look forward to your papers with interest.  And moreover as you know Arabic.'

      'My Arabic has all gone, rusted away.'

      'Hush,' said Granier, 'not too loud.  You owe your appointment in a very large measure to it.  Can you get it back swiftly?'

      'If I am allowed the leave I have accrued.'

      'Of course.  Besides, now that the Commission is wound up, we shall have to get agrément and so on.  And of course the Secretary of State will want to confer when he gets back from Washington.  Then what about investiture, and kissing hands and all that?  Though we regard every appointment of the sort as urgent ... well, you know as well as I do the mandarin calm of F.O. movements.'  He smiled his clever and indulgent smile, lighting a Turkish cigarette.  'I'm not so sure it isn't a good philosophy either,' he went on.  'At any rate, as a bias for policy.  After all, we are always facing the inevitable, the irremediable; more haste, more muddle!  More panic and less confidence.  In diplomacy one can only propose, never dispose.  That is up to God, don't you think?'  Granier was one of those worldly Catholics who regarded God as a congenial club-member whose motives are above question.  He sighed and was silent for a moment before adding: 'No, we'll have to set the chessboard up for you properly.  It's not everyone who'd consider Egypt a plum.  All the better for you.'

      Mountolive was mentally unrolling a map of Egypt with its green central spine bounded by deserts, the dusty anomalies of its peoples and creeds; and then watching it fade in three directions into incoherent desert and grassland; to the north Suez like a caesarian section through which the East was untimely ripped; then again the sinuous complex of mountains and dead granite, orchards and plains which were geographically distributed about the map at hazard, boundaries marked by dots.... The metaphor from chess was an apposite one.  Cairo lay to the centre of this cobweb.  He sighed and took his leave, preparing a new face with which to greet the unhappy Kenilworth.

      As he walked thoughtfully back to the janitors on the first floor he noted with alarm that he was already ten minutes late for his second interview and prayed under his breath that this would not be regarded as a deliberate slight.

      'Mr Kenilworth has phoned down twice, sir.  I told him where you were.'

      Mountolive breathed more freely and addressed himself once more to the staircase, only to turn right this time and wind down several cold and odourless corridors to where Kenilworth waited, tapping his rimless pince-nez against a large and shapely thumb.  They greeted one another with a grotesque effusion which effectively masked a reciprocal distaste.  'My dear David'.... Was it, Mountolive wondered, simply an antipathy to a physical type?  Kenilworth was of a large and porcine aspect, over two hundred pounds of food-and-culture snob.  He was prematurely grey.  His fat, well-manicured fingers held a pen with a delicacy suggesting incipient crewel-work or crochet.  'My dear David!'  They embraced warmly.  All the fat on Kenilworth's large body hung down when he stood up.  His flesh was knitted in a heavy cable stitch.  'My dear Kenny,' said Mountolive with apprehension and self-disgust.  'What splendid news.  I flatter myself,' Kenilworth put on an arch expression, 'that I may have had something, quite small, quite insignificant, to do with it.  Your Arabic weighed with the S. of S. and it was I who remembered it!  A long memory.  Paper work.'  He chuckled confusedly and sat down motioning Mountolive to a chair.  They discussed commonplaces for a while and at last Kenilworth joined his fingers into a gesture reminiscent of a pout and said: 'But to our moutons, dear boy.  I've assembled all the personal papers for you to browse over.  It is all in order.  It's a well-found mission, you'll find, very well-found.  I've every confidence in your Head of Chancery, Errol.  Of course, your own recommendations will weigh.  You will look into the staff structure, won't you, and let me know?  Think about an A.D.C. too, eh?  And I don't know how you feel about a P.A. unless you can rob the typists' pool.  But as a bachelor, you'll need someone for the social side, won't you?  I don't think your third secretary would be much good.'

      'Surely I can do all this on the spot?'

      'Of course, of course.  I was just anxious to see you settled in as comfortably as possible.'

      'Thank you.'

      'There is only one change I was contemplating on my own.  That was Pursewarden as first political.'

      'Pursewarden?' said Mountolive with a start.

      'I am transferring him.  He has done statutory time, and he isn't really happy about it.  Needs a change in my view.'

      'Has he said so?'

      'Not in so many words.'

      Mountolive's heart sank.  He took out the cigarette holder which he only used in moments of perplexity, charged it from the silver box on the desk, and sat back in the heavy old-fashioned chair.  'Have you any other reasons?' he asked quietly.  'Because I should personally like to keep him, at least for a time.'  Kenilworth's small eyes narrowed.  His heavy neck became contused by the blush of annoyance which was trying to find its way up to his face.  'To be frank with you, yes,' he said shortly.

      'Do tell me.'

      'You will find a long report on him by Errol in the papers I've assembled.  I don't think he is altogether suitable.  But then contract officers have never been as dependable as officers of the career.  It's a generalization, I know.  I won't say that our friend isn't faithful to the firm - far from it.  But I can say that he is opinionated and difficult.  Well, soit!  He's a writer, isn't he?  Kenilworth ingratiated himself with the image of Pursewarden by a brief smile of unconscious contempt.  'There has been endless friction with Errol.  You see, since the gradual break-up of the High Commission after the signing of the Treaty, there has been a huge gap created, a hiatus; all the agencies which have grown up there since 1918 and which worked to the Commission have been cut adrift now that the parent body is giving place to an Embassy.  There will be some thorough-going decisions for you to make.  Everything is at sixes and sevens.  Suspended animation has been the keynote if the last year and a half - and unsuspended hostilities between an Embassy lacking a Chief, and all these parentless bodies struggling against their own demise.  Do you see?  Now Pursewarden may be brilliant, but he has put a lot of backs up - not only in the mission; people like Maskelyne, for example, who runs the War Office I.C. Branch and has this past five years.  They are at each other's throats.'

      'But what has an I. Branch to do with us?'

      'Exactly, nothing.  But the High Commissioner's Political Section depended on Maskelyne's Intelligence reports.  I.C. Intelligence Collation was the central agency for the Middle East Central Archives and all that sort of thing.'

      'Where's the quarrel?'

      'Pursewarden as political feels that the Embassy has also in a way inherited Maskelyne's department from the Commission.  Maskelyine refuses to countenance this.  He demands parity or even complete freedom for his show.  It is military after all.'

      'Then set it under a military attaché for the time being.'

      'Good, but Maskelyne refuses to become part of your mission as his seniority is greater than your attaché designate's.'

      'What rubbish all this is.  What is his rank?'

      'Brigadier.  You see, since the end of the '18 show, Cairo has been the senior post office of the intelligence network and all intelligence was funnelled through Maskelyne.  Now Pursewarden is trying to appropriate him, bring him to heel.  Battle royal, of course.  Poor Errol, who I admit is rather weak in some ways, is flapping between them like a loose sail.  That is why I thought your task would be easier if you shed Pursewarden.'

      'Or Maskelyne.'

      'Good, but he's a War Office body.  You couldn't.  At any rate, he is most eager for you to arrive and arbitrate.  He feels sure you will establish his complete autonomy.'

      'I can't tolerate an autonomous War Office Agency in a territory to which I am accredited, can I?'

      'I agree.  I agree, my dear fellow.'

      'What does the War Office say?'

      'You know the military!  They will stand by any decision you choose to make.  They'll have to.  But they have been dug in there for years now.  Own staff branches and their transmitter up in Alexandria.  I think they would like to stay.'

      'Not independently.  How could I?'

      'Exactly.  That is what Pursewarden maintains.  Good, but someone will have to go in the interests of equity.  We can't have all this pin-pricking.'

      'What pin-pricking?'

      'Well, Maskelyne withholding reports and being forced to disgorge them to Political Branch.  Then Pursewarden criticizing their accuracy and questioning the value of I.C. Branch.  I tell you, real fireworks.  No joke.  Better shed the fellow.  Besides, you know, he's something of a ..., keeps odd company.  Errol is troubled about his security.  Mind you, there is nothing against Pursewarden.  It's simply that he's a bit, well ... a bit of a vulgarian, would you say?  I don't know how to qualify it.  It's Errol's paper.'

      Mountolive sighed.  'It's surely only the difference between, say, Eton and Worthing, isn't it?'  They stared at one another.  Neither thought the remark was funny.  Kenilworth shrugged his shoulders with obvious pique.  'My dear chap,' he said, 'if you propose to make an issue of it with the S. of S. I can't help it; you will get my proposals overruled.  But my views have gone on record now.  You'll forgive me if I let them stay like that, as a comment upon Errol's reports.  After all, he has been running the show.'

      'I know.'

      'It is hardly fair on him.'

      Stirring vaguely in his subconscious Mountolive felt once more the intimations of power now available to him - a power to take decisions in factors like these which had hitherto been left to fate, or the haphazard dictation of mediating wills; factors which had been unworth the resentments and doubts which their summary resolution by an act of thought would have bred.  But if he was ever to claim the world of action as his true inheritance he must begin somewhere.  A Head of Mission had the right to propose and sponsor the staff of his choice.  Why should Pursewarden suffer through these small administrative troubles, endure the discomfort of a new posting to some uncongenial place?

      'I'm afraid the F.O. will lose him altogether if we play about with him,' he said unconvincingly; and then, as if to atone for a proposition so circuitous, added crisply: 'At any rate, I propose to keep him for a while.'

      The smile on Kenilworth's face was one in which his eyes played no part.  Mountolive felt the silence close upon them like the door of a vault.  There was nothing to be done about it.  He rose with an exaggerated purposefulness and extruded his cigarette-end into the ugly ashtray as he said: 'At any rate, those are my views; and I can always send him packing if he is no use to me.'

      Kenilworth swallowed quietly, like a toad under a stone, his expressionless eyes fixed upon the neutral wallpaper.  The quiet susurrus of the London traffic came welling up between them.  'I must go,' said Mountolive, by now beginning to feel annoyed with himself.  'I am collecting all the files to take down to the country tomorrow evening.  Today and tomorrow I'll clear off routine interviews, and then ... some leave I hope. Goodbye, Kenny.'

      'Goodbye.'  But he did not move from his desk.  He only nodded smilingly at the door as Mountolive closed it; then he turned back with a sigh to Errol's neatly-typed memoranda which had been assembled in the grey file marked Attention of Ambassador Designate.  He read a few lines, and then looked up wearily at the dark window before crossing the room to draw the curtains and pick up the phone.  'Give me Archives, please.'

      It would be wiser for the moment not to press his view.

      This trifling estrangement, however, had the effect of making Mountolive set aside his plan to take Kenilworth back to his club with him.  It was in its way a relief.  He rang up Liza Pursewarden instead and took her out to dinner.

     

      It was only two hours down to Dewford Mallows but once they were outside London it was clear that the whole countryside was deeply under snow.  They had to slow down to a crawl which delighted Mountolive but infuriated the driver of the duty-car.  'We'll be there for Christmas, sir,' he said, 'if at all!'

      Ice-Age villages, their thatched barns and cottages perfected by the floury whiteness of snow, glistening as if from the tray of an expert confectioner; curving white meadows printed in cuneiform with the small footmarks of birds or otters, or the thawing blotches of cattle.  The car windows sealing up steadily, gummed by the frost.  They had no chains and no heater.  Three miles from the village they came upon a wrecked lorry with a couple of villagers and an A.A. man standing idly about it, blowing on their perished fingers.  The telegraph poles were down hereabouts.  There was a dead bird lying on the glittering grey ice of Newton's Pond - a hawk.  They would never get over Parson's Ridge, and Mountolive took pity on his driver and turned him back summarily on to the main road by the footbridge.  'I just live over the hill,' he said.  'It'll take me just twenty-five minutes to walk it.'  The man was glad to turn back and unwilling to accept the tip Mountolive offered.  Then he reversed slowly and turned the car away northward, while his passenger stepped forward into the brilliance, his condensing breath rising before him in a column.

      He followed the familiar footpath across fields which tilted ever more steeply away towards an invisible skyline, describing (his memory had to do duty for his eyesight) something as perfected in its simplicity as Cavendish's first plane.  A ritual landscape made now overwhelmingly mysterious by the light of an invisible sun, moving somewhere up there behind the opaque screens of low mist which shifted before him, withdrawing and closing.  It was a walk full of memories - but in default of visibility he was forced to imagine the two small hamlets on the hill-crown, the intent groves of beeches, the ruins of a Norman castle.  His shoes cut a trembling mass of raindrops from the lush grass at every scythe-like step, until the bottoms of his trousers were soaked and his ankles turned to ice.

      Out of the invisible marched shadowy oaks, and suddenly there came a rattling and splattering - as if their teeth were chattering with the cold; the thawing snow was dripping down upon the carpet of dead leaves from the upper branches.

      Once over the crown all space was cut off.  Rabbits lobbed softly away on all sides.  The tall plumed grass had been snatched into spikes by frost.  Here and there came glimpses of a pale sun, its furred brilliance shining through the mist like a gas mantle burning brightly but without heat.  And now he heard the click of his own shoes upon the macadam of the second-class road as he hastened his pace towards the tall gates of the house.  Hereabouts the oaks were studded with brilliants; as he passed two fat pigeons rushed out of them and disappeared with the sharp wingflap of a thousand closing books.  He was startled and then amused.  There was the 'foam' of a hare in the paddock, quite near the house.  Fingers of ice tumbled about the trees with a ragged clutter - a thousand broken wineglasses.  He groped for the old Yale key and smiled again as he felt it turn, admitting him to an unforgotten warmth which smelt of apricots and old books, polish and flowers; all the memories which led him back unerringly towards Piers Plowman, the pony, the fishing-rod, the stamp album.  He stood in the hall and called his name softly.

      His mother was sitting by the fire, just as he had left her with a book open upon her knees, smiling.  It had become a convention between them to disregard his disappearance and returns: to behave as if he had simply absented himself for a few moments from this companionable room where she spent her life, reading or painting or knitting before the great fireplace.  She was smiling now with the same smile - designed to cement space and time, and to anneal the loneliness which beset her while he was away.  Mountolive put down his heavy briefcase and made a funny little involuntary gesture as he stepped towards her.  'Oh dear,' he said, 'I can see from your face that you've heard.  I was so hoping to surprise you with my news!'

      They were both heartbroken by the fact; and as she kissed him she said: 'The Graniers came to tea last week.  Oh, David, I'm so sorry.  I did so want you to have your surprise.  But I pretend so badly.'

      Mountolive felt an absurd disposition towards tears of sheer vexation: he had invented the whole scene in his mind, and made up question and answer.  It was like tearing up a play into which one had put a lot of imagination and hard work.  'Damn,' he said, 'how thoughtless of them!'

      'They were trying to please me - and of course it did.  You can imagine how much, can't you?'

      But from this point he stepped once more, lightly and effortlessly, back into the current of memories which the house evoked around her and which led back almost to his eleventh birthday, the sense of well-being and plenitude as the warmth of the fire came out to greet him.

      'Your father will be pleased,' she said later, in a new voice, sharper for being full of an unrealized jealousy - tidemarks of a passion which had long since refunded itself into an unwilling acquiescence.  'I put all your mail in his study for you.'  'His' study - the study which his father had never seen, never inhabited.  The defection of his father stood always between them as their closest bond, seldom discussed yet somehow always there - the invisible weight of his private existence, apart from them both, in another corner of the world: happy or unhappy, who can say?  'For those of us who stand upon the margins of the world, as yet unsolicited by any God, the only truth is that work itself is Love.'  An odd, a striking phrase for the old man to embed in a scholarly preface to a Pali text!  Mountolive had turned the green volume over and over in his hands, debating the meaning of the words and measuring them against the memory of his father - the lean brown figure with the spare bone-structure of a famished seabird: dressed in an incongruous pith-helmet.  Now, apparently he wore the robes of an Indian fakir!  Was one to smile?  He had not seen his father since his departure from India on his eleventh birthday; he had become like someone condemned in absentia for a crime ... which could not be formulated.  A friendly withdrawal into the world of Eastern scholarship on which his heart had been set for many years.  It was perplexing.

      Mountolive senior had belonged to the vanished India, to the company of its rulers whose common devotion to their charge had made them a caste; but a caste which was prouder of a hostage given to Buddhist scholarship than of one given to an Honours List.  Such disinterested devotions usually ended by a passionate self-identification with the subject of them - this sprawling subcontinent with its castes and creeds, its monuments and faiths and ruins.  At first he had been simply a judge in the service, but within a few years he had become pre-eminent in Indian scholarship, an editor and interpreter of rare and neglected texts.  The young Mountolive and his mother had been comfortably settled in England on the understanding that he would join them on retirement; to this end had this pleasant house been furnished with the trophies, books and pictures of a long working career.  If it now had something of the air of a museum, it was because it had been deserted by its real author who had decided to stay on in India to complete the studies which (they both now recognized) would last him the rest of his life.  This was not an uncommon phenomenon among the officials of the now vanished and disbanded corps.  But it had come gradually.  He had deliberated upon it for years before arriving at the decision, so that the letter he wrote announcing it all had the air of a document long meditated.  It was in fact the last letter either of them received from him.  From time to time, however, a passer-by who had visited him in the Buddhist Lodge near Madras to which he had retired, brought a kindly message from him.  And of course the books themselves arrived punctually, one after the other, resplendent in their rich uniforms and bearing the grandiose imprints of University Presses.  The books were, in a way, both his excuse and his apology.

      Mountolive's mother had respected this decision; and nowadays hardly ever spoke of it.  Only now and again the invisible author of their joint lives here in this snowy island emerged thus in a reference to 'his' study; or in some other remark like it which, uncommented upon, evaporated back into the mystery (for them) of a life which represented an unknown, an unresolved factor.  Mountolive could never see below the surface of his mother's pride in order to judge how much this defection might have injured her.  Yet a common passionate shyness had grown up between them on the subject, for each secretly believed the other wounded.

      Before dressing for dinner that evening, Mountolive went into the book-lined study, which was also a gun-room, and took formal possession of 'his father's' desk which he used whenever he was at home.  He locked his files away carefully and sorted out his mail.  Among the letters and postcards was a bulky envelope with a Cyprus stamp addressed to him in the unmistakable hand of Pursewarden.  It suggested a manuscript at first and he cracked the seal with his finger in some perplexity.  'My dear David,' it read.  'You will be astonished to get a letter of such length from me, I don't doubt.  But the news of your appointment only reached me lately in rumoured form, and there is much you should know about the state of affairs here which I could not address to you formally as Ambassador Designate (Confidential: Under Flying Seal) ahem!'

      There would be time enough, thought Mountolive with a sigh, to study all this accumulation of memoranda, and he unlocked the desk again to place it with his other papers.

      He sat at the great desk for a while in the quietness, soothed by the associations of the room with its bric-à-brac; the mandala paintings from some Burmese shrine, the Lepcha flags, the framed drawings for the first edition of the Jungle Book, the case of Emperor moths, the votive objects left at some abandoned temple.  Then the rare books and pamphlets - early Kipling bearing the imprint of Thacker and Spink, Calcutta, Edwards Thompson's fascicles, Younghusband, Mallows, Derby.... Some museum would be glad of them one day.  Under a pressmark they would revert back to anonymity.

      He picked up the old Tibetan prayer-wheel which lay on the desk and twirled it once or twice, hearing the faint scrape of the revolving drum, still stuffed with the yellowing fragments of paper on which devout pens had long ago scribbled the classical invocation Om Mani Padme Hum.  This had been an accidental parting gift.  Before the boat left he had pestered his father for a celluloid aeroplane and together they had combed the bazaar for one without avail.  Then his father had suddenly stopped at a pedlar's stall and bought the wheel for a few rupees, thrusting it into his unwilling fingers as a substitute.  It was late.  They had to rush.  Their goodbyes had been perfunctory.

      Then after that, what?  A tawny river-mouth under a brazen sun, the iridescent shimmer of heat blurring the faces, the smoke from the burning ghats, the dead bodies of men, blue and swollen, floating down the estuary.... That was as far as his memory went.  He put down the heavy wheel and sighed.  The wind shook the windows, whirling the snow against them, as if to remind him where he was.  He took out his bundle of Arabic primers and the great dictionary.  These must live beside his bed for the next few months.

      That night he was once more visited by the unaccountable affliction with which he always celebrated his return home - a crushing earache with rapidly reduced him to a shivering pain-racked ghost of himself.  It was a mystery, for no doctor had so far managed to allay - or even satisfactorily to diagnose - this onslaught of the petit mal.  It never attacked him save when he was at home.  As always, his mother overheard his groans and knew from old experience what they meant; she materialized out of the darkness by his bed bringing the comfort of ancient familiarity and the one specific which, since childhood, she had used to combat his distress.  She always kept it handy now, in the cupboard beside her bed.  Salad oil, warmed in a teaspoon over a candle-flame.  He felt the warmth of the oil penetrate and embalm his brain, while his mother's voice upon the darkness soothed him with its promises of relief.  In a little while the tidy of agony receded to leave him, washed up so to speak, on the shores of sleep - a sleep stirred vaguely by those comforting memories of childhood illnesses which his mother had always shared - they fell ill together, as if by sympathy.  Was it so that they might lie in adjoining rooms talking to each other, reading to each other, sharing the luxury of a common convalescence?  He did not know.

      He slept.  It was a week before he addressed himself to his official papers and read the letter from Pursewarden.

 

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