18 October 1900
I have written nothing new for some days. I cannot sleep or think. I am told that I must have an operation in
four days' time - that I have an abscess in my ear which will affect my
brain. I have sent a telegram to
Robbie. I am in great fear. I want to live. I have so much more to say. Maurice will come with soup: I hope he has
not cooked it himself.